Chapter: My funny and last weekend / The redemption? For some it is

Chat, Addiction and Pain (Part 7)

My fun and last weekend

~~~~~ Flashback ~~~~~
I arrived and like three (Nicole, Laura and my few) sat in the kitchen and talked. I forgot Stefan, the voice and the feelings for a moment and talked to my friends about God and the world. I got upset, laughed, and saw my opinion on everything. I haven't done that enough lately, it just crossed my mind. We talked from 11 a.m. to 5 p.m. But then Laura and Nicole looked at each other seriously and nodded. Then Nicole began to speak to me about what was going on with me lately and that they were worried, I knew immediately they meant everything about Stefan and so on. They worried. I didn't want them to worry and told them everything, even though part of me was scattered. It took 3 hours to finish because I was always trying to tell them what I was feeling in the middle.They gave me the advice to break up with Stefan completely, so tell him that it wouldn't work out with us again. We were all so tired that we went to bed. The next day we strolled around the village and hoped to see something exciting, although that doesn't happen often in a village. So the day went by quickly and I almost decided to tell Stefan the truth tonight. At 6pm I went home and went on to see if I got any messages. Immediately afterwards I grabbed my cell phone nervously and with wet hands and called him. I hoped he would say we can still be friends, but he didn't say that. He started to curse me. He told me, he only got together with me because he had a bet. I hung up, didn't want to hear it and didn't want to hear it. Although ALL people think I'm crazy now, but despite the things Stefan said, I loved him and he was still in my heart.I wanted to calm down, so I took a book to read it, like so often lately, because that calmed me down and made the song & # 8222; Scars & # 8220; from Subwas to Sally. These two things made me think clearly again and brought me back to the floor. But this time the pain didn't go away and I put the book aside and made up my mind that I wanted to die. I went to the bathroom, picked up a razor blade, and went through the last few months of my life. It was the 15th of July today. 04 about 2 ½ weeks before my 16th birthday, but I didn't care. I put my wrists under the water and cut my wrists. I saw the blood slowly leaving my veins. The last thing I heard was my mother leaving the house. I smiled and closed my eyes. It was over!

The redemption? For some it is

It's cold and yet hot here. And what's next? I am dead and I tell you my story.Then these are my last words before I leave the intermediate station between earth and hereafter. You can now see my story and hope you never have to experience something like that, because it is not nice! But there is one thing you must never forget. Love is pain and everyone will experience it, some with joy, some with contempt.

So it has now come to an end ^^ I hope you enjoyed the story and you recognized the meaning ..... But finally a few words ..... Suicide is not a solution, even if it is in this story that's how it is, but you have to see it that way, you don't just hurt yourself, you hurt your family and friends ..... what do they do when you are no longer there? So remember to always try other solutions, even if they are harder than quickly cutting your artery, which I am sure if you take the longer way, since you are glad that you didn't kill yourself in the end ^^
So, I would look forward to commisHEL
Forest Fairy ^. ~