My personal curse

Hi ^^
With this OS I want to say goodbye to the FF screen for an indefinite period of time ^^
It's an Os about Naruto and Hinata and I hope you like it ^^

Dedication: bloody_tears, MmeSilence, Kamui-Sasuke and all the other NaruHina fans who I don't know or have forgotten the names of xD * typical *

Have fun! Your Purple_Eye

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Love.
A simple word with so much meaning. A word that, if you dare to pronounce it, reveals exactly what you feel. But what do you do if you don't have the courage to do just that? Will you be alone forever? Will you forever be denied what you want most? I dont want that! I can't do that! I want to be loved too! Not like a mother has her child! Not like a brother is a sister! But like a boy loves a girl with whom he wants to stay with forever.Just like that! But how is that supposed to work with a shy girl like me? I can't just walk up to that one boy and scream my feelings in his face. Or write him a love letter. I'm not that person! But sometimes I wish I was. A person who doesn't stutter when you talk to them. A person who does not immediately resemble an overripe tomato if you even dared address the word to them. Simply completely different. Instead, I am now sitting here and just staring at him. As always. Like every damn day. I curse myself for it! I curse myself for my shyness! For my reactions! For my whole appearance! Forme!
I wish I was like Ino! The beautiful, graceful Ino, with her radiant demeanor. Or like Sakura! The self-confident girl with a name as beautiful as herself and an incredible charisma! But I'm not like that! I am Hinata Hyuuga!The shy, inconspicuous girl who likes to be ignored. The girl who is not even recognized by her own family and whose only purpose for her crush is to hold up as a suggestion box for his lovesickness. Why? Because I am who I am! But what if I don't want to be me anymore? Can i change that? I do not think so. And that'smycurse! A curse that has lodged itself forever in my bowels and has no intention of ever going away. A curse that takes me more and more every day. A curse that doesn't even go back when, like now, I've been invited to eat ramen by my boy of heart and I'm allowed to watch him eat one bowl after the other. Why doesn't he withdraw? Because he knows exactly that it will start all over again soon! As soon as Naruto has pushed his last empty bowl aside, he will start again to pour me over Sakura with his heartache.Sakura here! Sakura there! Sakura doesn't pay any attention to him! Sakura doesn't want to bother with him and so on! I'm sick of it! Finally fed up! Should he let himself be beaten up by Sakura and then still adore her! Let him hear insults from her about him every day and then still run after her! I don't feel like always being just the good soul who listens to every one of his heart complaints and then comforts him! I would love to just let him sit here and just go.
But I can not.
Because I love him.
And this love will one day be my undoing. And that's part of my personal curse. Again.
I listen to him patiently. In any case, it seems like it is me. But I am not. Inwardly, I throw reproaches at him and scream in his face to finally open his eyes. Finally looking for someone who really loves him and doesn't keep fighting an already lost battle.He should open his eyes and see me! But only internally. As always. Every day. Over and over again. And as long as I can not break this vicious circle, consisting of shyness and a good face for the bad game, it will continue like this. But I couldn't stand that. To do it every day anew, how he howls at me about his heartache. Do it to me every day and watch this curse pull me into its arms. No! I do not want! I can not! And a new feeling is noticeable in me! A feeling that I haven't felt in a long time since I fought Neji. Determination! Determination to show the world that I am special too. Determination to show him! But when I fought Neji, I lost. Am I going to lose this fight too? If so, my personal curse would finally swallow me up and my inner, strong self would never come out again.Risk that? For a possible love?

Yes!

The newborn determined monster is roaring at me! And I'm ready to fight this fight.
The chair tips over as I jump up with newly acquired vigor. The compassionate look on my face gives way to a determined man. I read Irritation on Naruto's trains.

Silence.

And then it gushes out! All the accusations and reproaches that I have been throwing at him inside my head for months come out of my lips. All the silent torments and fears that I go through and all the secret desires that I have had in me since I have known him, made way for new ones. I no longer stutter and my voice has an unfamiliar harsh tone. And then comes the end. What I would never have dared to say and I shout my biggest secret into the room

Damn it, I love you, you idiot!

And as soon as I did that, it seemed to me as if the brave beast inside of me was crawling back into its shell and taking the determination with it.I put my hands over my mouth and shake my head like crazy as if to say 'I wasn't that!'
But it was already too late. And while I order my strong self to never come out, a change is noticeable in Naruto's face. His shocked expression gives way to his foxious grin and the words that I would never have expected from him in this situation come out of his lips.

I know!

I can imagine how I'm staring at him now. And with a laugh on his part, I suddenly sit on his lap. I am unable to get a word out and just stare at him. And as if he can read my mind, he answers the unspoken question on my part.

Why?

And less than 3 minutes later, I knew what it was about. I'm a little surprised that such an elaborate plan had just sprung from his slob's brain.

He just played everything!To get me out of my snail shell

Played everything![i]Everything!
And while the monster in me celebrates its triumphal procession, Naruto presses his soft lips to mine. And the beast applauds!
From now on, I swear to myself, I will never stop this beast again!
No more! By God and I'll keep that too!

And the curse was defeated!

Forever!

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And and and? How did you like it? By the way, is my first OS: P

Your Purple_Eye