The calling

What shall I do? He just called again ... Jeff. He loves me and I love him too, but how am I supposed to teach Thorben? Thorben and I have been together for almost four years now and have already seen and done so much together! But then Jeff came along. - He moved in next to us six months ago - my family and I - or was it a year ago? Nine months? Yes. Jeff moved here nine months ago. I still remember exactly how he rang our doorbell and asked me if I could show him the most important things in town. He looked good in his shorts and t-shirt. He has brown eyes and brown hair ... of course I have "Yes!" said. I spent a lot more with him than with Thorben ... Thorben ... my great love ... my great love until Jeff came along. Jeff calls every day and confesses his love to me. He always says the same thing and yet I get goosebumps every time. I will never forget his words "Emiliy, I love you!Thorben has never done anything like that. They are so different and yet the same ... i-how.
What should I do now? Break up with Thorben so I can get together with Jeff? Or just stay good friends with Jeff? But I do love Jeff! Or am I just imagining it? Maybe I love Thorben after all. And then when I part with him, I regret everything. But all the time I think about Jeff and dream about him. I see his face in front of me in class, walking home, almost all the time. Sometimes even when I'm with Thorben .. And then I always have a guilty conscience and do things that I don't really want to do. But maybe I want to try something new.
The kiss ... The kiss with Jeff, just the one kiss and I felt myself start to levitate. Otherwise there was nothing between and yet. But I feel that I love him. Maybe I just need some distance from both of them to find out who I love.I would like to get on the next plane and fly away ... away from Jeff .. away from Thorben ... away from my problems. Preferably on an island in the Caribbean - but school ... because of the school it doesn't work. It will soon be six o'clock. Now he's going to call again ... Jeff. I always look forward to his calls, they distract me from my homework. I can't even remember dance steps because I think about Jeff. I love to dance, I preferred to dance in kindergarten rather than play with the other dolls. But even from dancing, my greatest passion, it distracts me.
I love jeff There is simply no other way. My only fear is Thorben ... Thorben, who turned my head for the first time ...
Oh no, now I'm starting to cry again. Tears because of Jeff, because I love him, but I can't break up with Thorben. Tears because of Thorben, because we have seen so much together and I don't dare to tell him the truth.The truth ... The truth is that I don't love him anymore and I fell in love with Jeff. Or? Five minutes to six o'clock. The phone will ring soon or will he visit me again this time?
Chocolate ... Chocolate is supposed to help with lovesickness, right? - We even have chocolate in the house, I love the taste of chocolate ... The doorbell rings ... at the front door. He visits me again because he loves me. Because he wants to see me. I want to see him too, I love him too! It is unfair to Thorben to play something for him. I have to tell him. I should know the truth, that's only fair. Tomorrow, tomorrow I have to tell him. I don't want to lie to him any longer. We also promised to be honest with each other at all times. I'll tell him - tomorrow. I love Jeff and unfortunately I or Thorben can't do anything about that.
Who's at the door? - Jeff. And i love him. So it's true, chocolate helps!

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