It hurts so bad

It hurts so much!

I have no strength to enjoy my life.

I am not happy,
not for you,
not for me,
for nobody.

I'm a shadow of myself
I don't exist

I am an empty shell
The joy has escaped.

You take the last bit of life with you
When you leave me alone

Why are you doing this?

Why am i doing this?

Why don't you give me the freedom
to decide for yourself?

Why? - Therefore!

I am an open book for you
But you don't react!

It hurts so much and should I be happy?
To you?