I want to live!

I want to live
And must die.
I want to breathe
And suffocate.
What should I do.
Why does the opposite always happen.
It was different.
I want to live
And I was allowed to live.
I wanted to breathe
And I was allowed to breathe.
What happened.
Who pushed me to this damnation.
Who threw me down here?
I want to live
And should die.
I want to breathe
And should suffocate.
But I fight.
I don't want to give up like the others.
I'll make it.
I want to live
And force my legs to do it.
I want to breathe
And force my lungs to do it.
I finally did it.
I got up.
Risen from the dead.
I want to live
And I live
I want to breathe
And i breathe.