~ also-ran ~

"Failure!"
I looked at you with tears in my eyes. My heart contracted slowly, like rotting fruit. Why did you do this to me, I didn't hurt you!
"Wretched failure, that's you, nothing more than a failure!"
I looked you in the eye, which once offered security and warmth. Now they were hard and cold. At the time I didn't know what it was that made you cold, but I accepted it and now, now you had hurt me.
“Failure! What are you still looking for here! Get out of here! "
I looked at you and while my heart was breaking I packed my suitcase and left, once and for all.
I stepped outside into the cold air of winter and rubbed my hands shivering. I didn't dare look back, no I just kept walking. Down the street, on and on to the train station. Here and only here I allowed myself a look back. I looked down the street and as the sun slowly passed, I looked back for the last time. Then I went, left you and everything else that was important to me here.
"Failure."

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So that was the prologue, I know it is quite short, but the chapters are getting longer.
I know my other FF's and MMFF's are all more or less frozen, but I'm so lacking in ideas right now, so I'm trying to use this to give my creativity a boost.
Well I hope you read it, the first chapter comes on tonight. Until then,
your coca