Chapter: First kiss

I sit on my packed suitcase and wait for Moody and Tonks to pick me up. My aunt and uncle come to me to say goodbye, Petunia packs a small package in my suitcase with the words "first open at Hogwarts". A little later the two come, grab my suitcase and want to leave. I give my aunt and uncle another warm hug, which Moody and Tonks are wondering about, and then go with them and leave my relatives.

On the way to Hogwarts, Tonks asks me about Hermione, but I don't feel like talking about it and keep quiet. Tonks looks at me and shakes her head, we're almost there and I can already see the towers of the castle. A comforting feeling spreads in me and another one, the feeling of fear. Yes, I'm scared, scared of my feelings, and scared of Hermione. I don't know how she reacts when I'm back, maybe she'll attack me again or she's back to normal, but I honestly don't believe the latter. Since Snape and Pansy said something about resting, whatever that is?

When we're finally there, I have to talk to Dumbeldore and him first. He would like to discuss the letter with me, yes this confused letter, where I am very sure that it comes from Hermione. I knock carefully and step inside, Dumbeldore is sitting in his armchair and looks at me friendly and gives me a smile.

"Cookies Harry?" He asks gently.

I nod and take one, they taste like cinnamon and star anise. I love this taste and drink my tea because Dumbeldore poured me before, I sip my cup and hear what Dumbeldore has to say.

"Well, Harry, it's like that, the letter is actually from Hermione. But I'm slowly getting the feeling that she is no longer in control of herself, so Severus put her into a deep sleep that will make her harmless for the time being."

"I don't understand Professor, I mean why is Hermione doing all this, I'm not to blame for the Death Eaters attacks, nor for the death of her parents, so I wonder why she suddenly hates me so much."

Unfortunately, Dumbeldore doesn't know the answer to my many questions either, but he assures me that he will do everything possible to protect me and to help Hermione. When she is really no longer in control of the situation and over herself (means something like when she was cursed).
I finish my tea and go to my room, where I am greeted stormily by Ron, Dean and Neville. Meno they don't give you any air to breathe, really, I haven't been away that long, it was only four weeks and they make such a fuss about it as if I had been away for five years.

Of course I'm also happy to see the three of them, but I would much rather see Pansy and give them a warm hug. I would also like to thank Draco for his help and maybe his father as well, as I have learned that Mr Malfoy is a spy for Dumbeldore and is just eavesdropping on Voldemort.Yeah, yeah, pretty clever, the old man.

After a short chat with Ron, I go to bed and fall asleep. Of course I sleep very restlessly again, which is because the dream is about mine, but it's not a nightmare, it's a romantic, cheesy smooch and fiddling dream. Holla I haven't had anything like that, hehe, but I like it. Yes so much that my little one stands up vertically. Heaven hopefully nobody sees that, that would be extremely uncomfortable and embarrassing.
The next morning, I wake up rather scruffy and contrite, Ron looks at me and grins cheekily. Ouch? Hopefully he didn't notice or even see anything tonight. Man o man it's embarrassing not to know why he's grinning at me like that. I'd rather not ask, afterwards he'll make fun of it all day again, well that's not exactly funny, I find it rather frightening what was going on last night. Something like this has never happened to me before, at least not in this way.

I make my way to breakfast in a hurry, because my stomach is growling again. Well, I didn't eat anything last night, except for a few cookies and they don't fill you up. On the way into the great hall, I notice how everyone is staring at me worriedly and whispering softly. Hello?? I'm not sick, I'm just Harry Potter, almost killed by a bookworm. So please relax and don’t piss me off so stupidly. Boy, boy, I hope that everything goes back to normal soon and that I don’t get pitying glances all the time.

Just as I am about to sit down at the table, someone grabs my shoulder from behind. I'm just about to say that the one or the other should piss off, because I look into two beautiful blue eyes that shine at me. It was Pansy's eyes that laughed at me. Hallelujah, she has beautiful eyes, I never noticed that, well, it's also because she was never the type of girl and I never paid much attention to her, but now, I have to say Holla the forest fairy.

Without saying a word, I take her in my arms and just hold her tight. I whisper a thank you in her ear, whereupon she embraces me even tighter. Everyone in the hall looks at us and whispers again. I say something softly in Pansy's ear, whereupon she grins, nods and then just kisses me so nothing on the mouth.

I get dizzy, not because I'm sick again, but because that kiss is so damn good. Yes, the way I'm being kissed right now, a girl has never kissed me like this. Well, to be honest, it's my first kiss, but it's heaven. I don't like to break this kiss but it has to be, because now everyone is starting to clap and bawl and I don't want what Draco overhears either. After all, I think he's Pansy's boyfriend or not? Anyway, I look Pansy in the eye, smile at her and say thank you again before I have breakfast.