Unwanted truth










It was on a hot summer day in June 2000. The whole circle of friends of Frank and Janina met at Peter's place to celebrate a little party among friends. They celebrated their little party at Peter's place because his parents had gone on vacation for three weeks.


Everyone was sitting in the garden and joking around a little, playing cards and drinking some beer and vodka. "Well Janina, aren't you drinking anything again today?" Frank asked, already a little drunk. "No, I never drink, maybe you've already forgotten a sip?" Janina replied with a slightly bored undertone. "No, I have not forgotten that, I just wanted to ask if you would like to have a drink with you, but that has now been dealt with." said Frank and ended the conversation. When Janina went to the toilet and Frank was already quite drunk, his friends asked him what was going on with Janina."Oh, you know, I don't know if I should tell her that I love her, after all, we're actually very good friends, and maybe I'll break the friendship that way," Frank said when asked by the others. "It won't ruin your friendship, maybe she'll even say who knows," said Melanie. "You just bring her home and then you will see what happens" said Kosta. "Maybe you're right, but what if she says no, I don't know if I can handle it," Frank said to himself. "Just ask her and you will be sure of an answer, if you never ask her you will never get an answer, and then it may be that she wanted but since you never asked she thought he doesn't want anything from me, and that would be shit "said Kosta then. "You're right, I'll just try and if she says no it won't kill me," Frank said approvingly to the others. When Janina came back from the toilet, she said right away, "I'm going home right now"."I'll bring you a bit because I have to tell you something" said Frank Janina while he looked into her beautiful blue eyes. They both went to the cloakroom and put on their jackets. Janina said goodbye to everyone and then she came back to the door. Just before they wanted to leave, Frank wanted to take a little sip of vodka to drink a little more courage. He took the bottle from Peter who brought them to the door and took a long swig. When the two were about to go out the door, Peter said "You do it, it's better this way". Frank looked at him and slurred "yes, I'll do it, so you're happy". Then the two went and closed the door behind them, and made their way to Janina.


On the way, Frank suddenly said "Janina, I don't know if I should tell you because I can already imagine the answer, I guess you can already imagine the question or the sentence I want to tell you, right?"She looked at him and didn't say anything, she just laughed a little, the whole way Frank kept saying the same thing. Then shortly before he brought her home he said," I already know the answer, but I'll tell you anyway! May I kiss you? "Janina looked at him and said" I don't know, I have to think about it, I'll tell you when I know. "Then she said nothing more and just laughed a little embarrassed. Then the two said goodbye, and Janina went home. Frank went away a little disappointed, but at that moment it didn't bother him so much because he hadn't if she was in love with him, then he thought a little and went back to the others.


"What did she say? Did you even ask her?" asked Melanie. "Yes, I have, she has not given me an answer yet, but let's be honest, we all know the answer, right? She will either never give me an answer or she will say no tomorrow," said Frank, his friends, a little disappointed But couldn't see that he was disappointed because he was quite drunk, they probably thought that it was the effects of the alcohol, only later they will, so some notice how disappointed he really was and then still will be.Everyone was outside now, standing around a power box. Frank took a pair of headphones from Melanie, who was sitting on the power box and listened to the music, he thought about every romantic song, although he didn’t let it be seen, everyone saw that he seemed lonely and abandoned. Back then, none of them could see what was really happening inside of them, would they ever see it? "What are we still doing today?" asked Peter. Everyone looked at each other and said the same thing, "go straight home or do something else". After an hour everyone broke up, everyone said they were going home but that wasn't entirely true. Peter and Kosta went to him to play some basketball there and they hadn’t said what the others were doing. Frank also went on the way, but shortly before everyone left they said goodbye to Melanie, who was going to Poland the next day. When Frank was at home, he lay down in bed and thought: "Do I love her?I don't know for sure, I do believe that it is a form of love. But I absolutely love her. No, I think I'm only half in love at the moment. I will probably fall completely in love with her because she is nice, trustworthy and beautiful, she has an incomparable character, even if most say she is a little stupid, I think she does sometimes just so she knows exactly what she's talking about. It is a little difficult to see through, but that's what makes a person. "Then Frank fell asleep thinking of Janina.


The next day everything was different. Janina and Frank moved a little away from each other as if everything were embarrassing to them. They hardly talked to each other. "Did you ask Janina yesterday, Frank?" asked Katrin suddenly. "I don't know that this has to do with you, what do you care?" asked Frank in a slightly annoyed tone. "I just wanted to know it's true, but if you react like that, then I'll never ask you anything again!" said Katrin, a little horrified."That would be better that way too". The others didn't get the conversation between Katrin and Frank, they had other worries. The others talked about what is going to be done today. "How about if I borrow a few films from the video store, we can watch them at Peter's place if he doesn't mind," said Frank. "Yes, do that, then have Peter give you the ID and then go to the video store with someone" then all said except Janina. "Who wants to come with me?" then asked Frank. Nobody noticed this question because somehow nobody wanted to run. But then suddenly someone said yes and it was Janina "if you're so lazy then I'll go with what else can I do?" said Janina then a bit angry. Janina didn't want to go with Frank, but she didn't want to let him go alone either, so it definitely seemed to him.


Frank and Janina had to go to Peter to get an umbrella, because it started raining quite heavily.The two had to share an umbrella on the way to the video store, Janina didn't seem to like it that much, Frank more so. The two talked on the way only about irrelevant things not about the really important things that concerned the two. Frank had thought at the time that he would not ask for an answer, because he thought if she was aware of an answer that she would then tell him her answer. When the two of them got to the video store, they didn’t get anything out because there wasn’t a good film. On the way back they passed Frank's front door, stopped there and talked seriously to each other for the first time. Although Frank didn't want to ask, he did, he asked her "Have you come up with an answer yet"? "Yes, I did, but I won't tell you today, because I have to tell you something about that," replied Janina. “When do you want to tell me?” Janina looked at Frank and laughed a little, then said “I'll give you a letter tomorrow so you can read what I wanted to tell you, I can't do that personally, I never know how the other understands it and so I don't have to see it when you find out what I want to tell you ".Frank looked at her confused and then said "Well, the answer is no, why do you want to say something to me so that I understand you, I totally understand you, I'm too fat and ugly for you and you probably can't even get me right." suffer, if that's what you want to write me in your letter, then I don't want to read it because I already know what an idiot I am and I also know that I look really shit! "Janina just looked and said expressionlessly "No, it is different from how others judge you, that's not the point now, I just want to give you one reason, for me, a very good reason why I say no". "If so, then give me a letter tomorrow and I'll definitely understand it sooner," Frank said ironically. Then the two of them went back to the others and stayed there for the rest of the day.


The next day Peter, Patrick, Kosta and Frank decided to go swimming with Katrin and Janina.They called the two of them and told them to come with swimming suits. The boys already finished everything and then they just waited for the girls. "What about Janina now?" asked Kosta, laughing Frank. "She wants to give me a letter today with the answer written in it. She can't tell my face, what can you say women," Frank replied with a slight discomfort in his voice. "When are Viktor and Nino coming back?" Frank then asked Kosta and Peter. "In two weeks, I think!" said Peter. Suddenly the doorbell rang and the two girls had arrived and then it was off. Kosta, Frank and Janina drove with Peter in the car and Katrin drove with Patrick on the scooter.


When they got to the swimming pool, they paid the entrance fee and went to change. When everyone had finished changing clothes, they jumped straight into the water. They fooled around a little and often had a smoke.Then Frank and Janina were briefly alone. "I wrote you a letter, I'll give it to you right away," said Janina. "Yes do that, what's in it?" Frank asked with a laugh. "You have to read that, it would be stupid if I write you a letter and tell you what's in there before you even read it"! Then they didn't feel like staying in the swimming pool anymore. They went to change and then they