Why does it hit me Why did I have to fall in love with you right now? Why? Couldn't I have been happy with someone else? No. You are the only person in my life! Another person could never mean so much to me!


I look up at the moon ... your face shines towards me, your smile and these beautiful eyes ..... these eyes never shone for me .... not as I had hoped, longed for.


SHE is the one who holds your heart in her hands ... would you ever give it to me? I know you trust me Blind. But could you ever look me in the face and tell me: I love you?


No ... of course not ... for you I am your very best friend. Friends forever ... how much do I wish to be for you more than just that?


My hand ... it trembles ... I think back to the day when your look said more than friendship ... was I so wrong?


Despite my pain ... and above all ... despite my love ... I cannot and must not tell you how I feel for you.you couldn't understand it ... and certainly not accept it.


I clench my hand into a fist .... it doesn't help ... it continues to tremble ... longs for your hand .... wants to encircle it ... touch it ...!


I feel something wet running down my cheek ... a tear ... a tear of despair.


I wipe them away .... try to calm down ... calm down ... is that possible?


I don't eat anything ... nothing ... I don't swallow anything except the pain.


Don't sleep ... fear another day without you ...


You don't know how much I suffer .... how much I would like to lean on you and tell you that you are the most important thing to me .... why are you not there? Why do I have to sit here in the darkness of the night and cry ... cry for my unrequited love?


I'm afraid .... afraid of loneliness ... afraid of not being allowed to hear your voice one day because you are on the road with HER ... I couldn't cope with not seeing you anymore ... not your voice anymore to hear ...- but ... can I do it now?I can't look you in the eye ... you worry about me ... you love me as your friend ...


Every day I lie on my bed ... surrounded by darkness ... it scares me ... but I'm more afraid of losing you ...


Every day I fall asleep with tears and wake up with tears ... but time no longer matters to me ... in my heart there is darkness ... I know no light ... I have no hopes for a long time more. Love ... grief ... pain ... torment ...


You don't know how much I miss you ... every second without you is a torture for me ... every second with you another death ... I can't live without you ... but neither with you.


I know that I love you ... but I also know that you love her ... she ... what does she give you that I can't give you? Love? I would die ... go through hell for you.


What is it then? Is it because she is a woman? No ... true love is above all else.

I feel the renewed despair that drills its way into my heart again. I can't anymore ... want to finally get rid of this pain ... want to leave everything behind ...


Think about the past ... it will never be the same ... never again ... we will never be able to train together again ... be able to laugh ... be able to cry ....


I'm very down ... standing on the cliff ...


One last time I look around ... but hardly notice my surroundings ... one last time I feel the wind blowing through my hair ... one last time I think of my family ... one last time Time ... one last time I think of you ... Trunks ... one last time I whisper your name to the wind ... goodbye ...


I close my eyes and let myself fall into the endless depths ..... a short pain ... then everything turns black ... death .... how I longed for you ...