An icy, strong wind comes up, blows through my hair. He lets me


shiver and I close my eyes, take in the scent of winter


my nose one. It smells of cold and death. The clouds in the sky


indicate that it will snow soon. Snow doesn't bother me. Never...




I stand here ... The place where I confessed my love to you ... The


Place that only we both know.




I still think about you Even today. It's been so long.


Much too long. I bow my head. There's a big lump in my throat


tries to make its way out of my body as a sob. I


swallow. I'm freezing again.




Why did it have to come to this? Why were you so stupid Did you want


don't know anything about me? Have you ever thought of my feelings




I laugh at the thought. Why should you It was your decision. It

was your life ... I can't be mad at you. I can never open


be angry with someone. And yet it hurts. Hurts bad...




I sink to my knees, hug my body.


"Everyone leaves everyone alone."


I tremble at the sentence. It is true. I still cry a lot. You both have me


left alone. Tou-san and you ... "Why?" I ask again, wipe away tears


from my face that I couldn't hold back. But the more I do


try to dry them the wetter my face seems to get.




"It's so quiet here. So cold ... I feel lonely," I whisper.


Nobody is there to hug me. Nobody is there to close my tears


dry.




It starts to snow. The first flakes fall on my face


mix with the salty liquid that is still my cheeks


wetted.




Oh come on at last ... sweet death ...



"I don't want to anymore. You are my sensei! You have a duty to me


help to be there for me when I need you ... Please, "I whisper


in a tear-choked voice. I don't feel anything anymore, fall into the cold


and already lightly snow-covered meadow.




"Come and get me. Come on at last. I miss your voice and yours


Smile."




Smile ... You seldom smiled. Far too seldom. I long for


your arms. One more time ... One more time ... Please ...




I close my eyes again. I'm still cold, but I ignore it


Trembling and the cold that pervades my body.




Oh ... come on, sweet death ...




I feel arms. I feel warmth. Someone is holding me I smell you. I


smell your closeness. A sweet smell. I can feel your fingers as they go through


stroke my hair ... Hear whispered words.Is that your voice


Am I dreaming? Please never let this dream end ...




Oh ... come on, sweet death ... finally take me with you ... I want in yours


Poor die. I want to feel your closeness ... Come and get me ... I want


finally be with you.




*********************




Cold ... there it is again. I don't smell you anymore ...




"Gohan ..."




Videl? Videl ?! VIDEL?!?!




I open my eyes. I am laying in my bed. Worried around me


Faces.




"Tou-san ..."




Pan-chan? She gives me a big hug. I swallow...




"No..."




She sobs, pressing her head against my chest. I am trembling and pushing


them from me just before I jump up.




"WHY?!?!" I yell, "How could you do that ?!"




They stare at me blankly. I burst into tears again. "How

could you just bring me here? How could you save me ?! Why


did you do that ?! "I keep shouting, collapse. I'm sitting on the


Bed, crying, sobbing ... "Why did you follow me?" I ask,


"Nobody knows the place ... none of you ..."




"But ... Gohan-san ... we ... didn't ..."




I look up, stare into my crying brother's eyes ...




"We found you on the doorstep Gohan ... We don't have you


tracked..."




I open my eyes, stare through Goten.




"Nani?"




He hugs me, hugs me. "Gohan ... you would have died


can ..., "he whispers," don't do that anymore ... please ... "




"You didn't ...?" I whisper and open my mouth in shock. tears


wander over my cheeks as I walk to the window and stare out. The


Snow storm has wrapped the world in a white blanket.The windows are


started easily.




~ Gohan ... your time is not over yet. ~




Tears well up in my eyes again.




"P ... Piccolo-san ..."




I turn around. They are all looking at me. Give their tearful faces


a pang in my heart ...




"Tou-san?"




Pan hugs me. I hold her tight against my body, still crying


and grit your teeth.




Oh come on sweet death ... don't save me one more time ... take me the next one


Time with you ... I miss you ...




Someone hugs me, pulls me close I feel warmth ...




~ I'll definitely get you ... someday ...