@Nangilima: Hi honey !! Thank you for the praise!! Well, you will have to wait a little (very ^^) until you know the whole context ^^ ;-) Until then, just be crazy, you're not so wrong ^^ * cuddling * Nini and Katha

@SilverStar: Hi Melody! Thank you very much for your picking! * cuddles * Nini and Katha

@HarryPotterFan: Hi honey !!! Thank you for the praise!! You are not so wrong either ^^ Do you have Latin in school? Yes, there will be a lot more quotes / sayings! We put a lot of effort into finding it ^^ Even if I (Katha) hate Latin totally, I love these sayings! Since I even voluntarily decline to ^^ XD * laugh * Oh man, I can imagine that your family is totally amazed! ^^ My favorite saying: Ego sum via, veritas et vita- I am the way, the truth and the life! (by Jesus Christ) Well, I think we will write down all Latin sayings at the end of the FF that have not been used so that they are not withheld from you ;-) It's a shame that you don't have the guest book on your page !!I would have liked to have written something in it ^^ A nice page !! * cuddles * Nini and Katha

@Devil_SSJPan: Hi little mouse! I am sure you will understand! It's a bit confusing, but you shouldn't understand too much either ;-) Thanks for the praise! Yes, we agree with what you said to Tala, but that's Tala! He didn't learn any other way! I feel the same way (Katha) with Latin too !! I hate it!!! It's stinking boring. But when I translated a few quotes, I was hooked. We searched the net a lot until we had enough quotes ^^ And there will be a few more to come in the next few parts ^^ * cuddles * Nini and Katha

@Veggi: HI sweetie! We have to thank !! For the great praise !! Yes, Katha is also of the opinion: If there is no longer any good, then the bad is no longer bad either, because then it is normal. It always depends on your awareness and what you see as good and bad. But somehow you contradict yourself: "There is no good or bad, only sides that take their point of view." and then you suddenly say: "And don't let it degenerate into a war between good and bad in the end, yes?"How can there be war between the two sides if, in your opinion (or maybe even in our opinion ?? ^^ we don't reveal anything ^^) there is no good and bad. Or do you mean to say that we do the sides please don't do good and bad? * cuddles * Nini and Katha



Well, enough talked about. Now finally part 17 comes:



(Nini's point of view)





I sit on the bed and feel the soft mattress under me. My eyes are on the light. Strangely enough, I'm not scared. On the contrary. I look at the light steadfastly. What this light tells me doesn't affect me in the least. No. And the words don't hit me. I am slowly but surely wondering where I get my strength from. How do I get through it all here?

"So now you know everything!" means the light and rises.

And what should I do with it now? What do you actually want from me? Do you think, just because you've told me everything now, am I your, no, your puppet?Do you really think I'll let you manipulate me? Why do you need me of all people? You could have taken someone else too. But you're just choosing me. Now that I know everything, I see many things. But because of your story, there are only more questions that I can't get answers to. I don't know yet if I can help you. I'll try, but I don't know if I can. Not only "I" have to understand "you", but "you" have to understand "me" as well. Can you do that? I ask the light and look at it.

It takes some time before I get an answer. But that answer is not what I wanted to hear.

If so ... then I can't help you. You have to find someone else. I'm sorry. I say and get up from the bed.

"No! Wait! Please! I can't decide. I can't decide. Please. You and Kai, you are our hope. Our light.Our rescuers. Without you we and our empire would perish. You're welcome. You have to understand that. The light comes before me.

How am I supposed to understand that if you don't understand me? How am I supposed to help you when I'm afraid of becoming a mindless doll? How should I understand you if you don't show me your true form? I only see you as a light in front of me. Not more. You made it that I doubt myself and now you ask me to help you, no, to save yourself? How am I supposed to do that? I need time to think Can i have it? I ask the light and look at it.

"Of course you can have time. And one more thing, I'm terribly sorry. We didn't want to keep you imprisoned, but you fought so hard, we couldn't help it. Show me your arms." That means the light. I stretch out my arms and with a brief touch of the light the wounds are gone.

"You can move freely here.If you need anything, think of me. You already know my name. "Says the light and leave.



Now I'm alone in the room again. A thousand thoughts fly through my head. I have to go to Kai. I need to speak to him. Right away! I open the door and collide with Kai.

Kai! I ... I can't get any further. I freeze to stone. Kai stands in front of me and looks at me coldly. I can literally feel the hatred he radiates. Hatred and anger. So the lights did it after all. Damn it! That can not be true. That can not be.

Kai, I start to speak. My voice is shaking and my throat is dry. Kai, what ... what happened? I ask him and look at him fearfully.

The light opened my eyes. I will tell you. But not here. Come along. Said Kai takes me by the hand and leads me into his room. Kai's hand is cold. Icy cold. A shiver runs down my spine as his hand touches me.

When I get to the room, I sink down on the bed and look expectantly at Kai.

The lights are right. Look, Tala and Jenny didn't even try to understand each other. Tala and I have been friends for so long and I've always been honest with him. And he can't forgive me. I made a mistake, but Tala could forgive me. But he's too stubborn. So why should I mourn him? This is not a friendship between us. It was all just illusion and appearance. No more and no less. Kai's voice sounds hard, cold and bitter.

Kai, please. You mustn't say that! You're welcome. Think about the time in the abbey. You were always there for Tala and he was always there for you. I beg, no, I beg you. Please don't believe the light. We have to stick together. We mustn't give up now. Kai, please. Everyone is weak. I am much weaker than you. But we must not let hatred and anger guide us now.Please Kai. Don't leave me alone now You're welcome. The tears run down my cheeks and drip onto the light wooden floor. If Kai gives up now, if he lets himself be guided by hatred and anger, it's all over.

The time in the abbey is over. I don't need Tala. Neither does Jenny. Nini, understand, we're on the right side. You're welcome. I won't leave you alone But you have to understand me! Says kai and looks me in the eye.

What is right then? What is wrong? Tell me! I whisper hoarsely.

Is right for what I do. What Tala and Jenny are doing is wrong. You cannot forgive us. But if they were true friends, they could. Says Kai coldly.

Damn it!!!!! Kai are you crazy now ???? !!!!! What shoud that? Don't you see what these lights do to you? They manipulate you !!!!! Kai please !!!!! I cry and take his face in my hands.

You don't manipulate me. You opened my eyes!You do not understand. says Kai and looks at me steadfastly.

No Kai. No. They don't open your eyes, they close you. I cry

Nini. You're welcome. You have to stick with me. I can't get through it without you.

Without me? Kai please. Don't you understand the meaning of my words? Think about the time with Tala! Remember that you almost gave your life for Jenny.

Suddenly, Kai's expression brightened. I see the anger and hatred fade from his gaze. Just as I want to hug Kai, the two lights come back.

They grab me and drag me away. I blow, scream, cry, kick and hit. But nothing helps. The one light stays with Kai and I can still hear: Know your true friends.



No Kai !!!!! You're welcome!!!!! Don't listen to it !!!!! You're welcome!!!!! I scream before I disappear into the cellar again.

I am dragged into the corner and chained.

"Here you have enough time to think!" means the light and leaves me alone with my pain.And so I sit there. The tears run quietly down my face and drip onto the cold stone. The pain is unbearable. He eats his way deeper and deeper into my heart. My will is broken. My strength has been used up. I can not anymore. I feel that I am giving up. Everything was in vain. Everything. It didn't work. I am alone. Alone with my pain Nobody is here to help me. But if I can't help myself, how can anyone else help me? I am alone. Nobody is here. No Jenny, no Tala, no Kai, no mom, no dad. Nobody. I am alone. Only pain keeps me company. And so I sit there. In a corner, huddled together and thinking. Maybe these lights are really right. Maybe Kai is right too. Who can say that? It is easier to escape into an imagination than to defy reality. Maybe they are really right. Maybe Tala and Jenny are just too stupid or too arrogant to forgive us.But Tala is so much like me. Maybe these lights are just trying to protect us. That can be possible. Maybe I got it all wrong. Yes, it could be like that. The lights just want to help us. Protect us. And I got it all wrong. Kai got it earlier and I only now. And what if all this is not true? If I'm right? But I do not care. I do not want to be alone. I want to be with Kai. I'm afraid. I do not want to be alone. I will do the same as Kai. Kai will already know what he's doing. And his ideal doesn't seem so wrong to me. Yes, Kai is right. Jenny and Tala are too arrogant to forgive us. I wipe away my tears and draw new strength. Strength from my anger