@Melody: Hi Melody! Thanks for your praise. Yes the problems of the four. But this story is about self-discovery. Unfortunately we cannot tell you how far, because everyone has a different view and opinion about self-discovery. We hope you enjoy reading! * cuddles * Katha and Nini

@Benny: Hi honey! These lights ..... we actually really like them. (But we know what they are and where they come from ^^) Yes, Katha is always busy declining. So whoever says that the Internet and television do not educate and do not help with learning, you are mistaken. And these Latin sayings are really super !!! Will that help Kai and Nini any further? We'll be silent again * gg * * hug * Katha and Nini

@Nangilima: Hi honey !!! Oh yes with Kai and Nini ..... you'll soon find out ssseeehhhhrrrr! * g * And with Tala and Jenny ..... well ..... you'll be surprised! ^^ Yes friendship is a strong bond but without a quarrel a friendship is not a friendship.Then this friendship is based only on lies and sham ideas. And that's just what the four of them are only now learning. Only now do they realize what friendship really means. They never really thought about their friends very much. They were just always there. And now they are only really aware of it! WHDL! * cuddles * Katha and Nini

@Devil: Hi little mouse! Thank you for the praise and for the picking! Yes, the lights can be pretty annoying ^^ But what should you do? XD Yes, you are right with the Latin sentence! Got vivere totally overlooked ^ o ^ ° Chopped off? We'll have to pay more attention to it next time, but I haven't noticed such sentences yet. * cuddles * Nini and Katha

@Veggi: Hi honey! Juchuu, you're back !! We already missed you, your clerks and your FF !!!!! Was the school trip nice? Thank you for the great praise! Hopefully you will find time to read this part ;-) * cuddles * Nini and Katha


Now that school has started again, we have a lot of stress -_- "That's why there will only be 2 parts every weekend from now on! Fridays and Sundays one. But they are pretty long for that ^^ ;-) < br />


This part is one of our favorite parts! ^^



Before you can read it: From Kai's point of view, it is best to listen to music! ^^ SAD !!! ^^ Best: From Tom Albrecht "we are one" above Linkin Park "Numb" ^^

And now have fun with this part:



(Nini's point of view)



The blood rushes in my ears and makes them glow. My knees are soft as butter and my hands are shaking. I breathe far too irregularly and my head is in total chaos. Why did I do that? But why? AM I TOTALLY CRAZY ????? Damn it!!!! I really don't miss a fool. Bring it on, I like to climb into each one! I feel the water running down my body.It's freezing. I feel goose bumps running down my body and I shudder. But I don't care. I have to finally get my head free again. I turn off the water and step out of the shower wrapped in a towel. I dry my skin and suddenly find three small cans on the edge of the sink. I step closer and take a closer look at them. One is light blue, the other is light pink, and the last is light yellow. I unscrew the cap and smell the contents. At the light pink can, I wrinkle my nose. Yuck! Rose scent. I feel this extract tickle my nose. I quickly screw the can back on and turn to the light blue one. But I screw this can back on immediately. The contents smell like peppermint. That smells way too intense. And already I have the last, light yellow, can in my hands. I smell it and am amazed to find that the content smells wonderful. For a green meadow, wind and sun.Somehow sweet and yet bitter. I take a little of the white cream and spread it on my upper body and neck. Then I style my hair and want to put on my clothes when I realize that I have different clothes again. This time white baggy pants and a tight, silver tank top. I get dressed and examine myself in the mirror. But something doesn't fit. No matter how often I turn something is not to my satisfaction.



I take my headband and tie my hair in a tail. I look again in the mirror. But just as I want to loosen my tail again, I hear a dull noise. I open the bathroom door and see Kai standing in front of the closet. His hand is bleeding.



"What did you do with your hand? It has to be bandaged immediately!" I say and stand next to Kai. But he doesn't seem to notice me. He's still staring at his hand, which is bleeding terribly.

"Hello? Earth to Kai's brain! Please report!" I say a little impatiently and take his hand. I look briefly at Kai, but he still doesn't seem to realize anything. And so I pull him to his bed, give him a nudge so that he falls on the bed and start looking for a first-aid kit. After a short time I find one in my box. I grab it and go back to Kai. I take a damp rag and wipe the blood off Kai's hand. "Oida (same meaning as: oh man![They say in Austria]^^), the cut is deep! What did you do with your hand?" I ask Kai and take a closer look at his hand. Then I take a light blue cotton ball, pour a little disinfectant liquid over it and carefully dab the cut with it. But suddenly Kai pulls his hand away and yells "ahhhh". I look at Kai and have to suppress a slight smile, but when I see that the cut starts to bleed again immediately, I get serious.

"Hold still! It has to be disinfected! Not that it catches fire! You will be able to endure the few pains!" I mean and look Kai in the eye. Somehow that sentence sounded like an order. I didn't want that.

"Amputate my whole hand right away!". Kai hisses irritably.

I lift my head and look into Kai's brown eyes. I know the look on my face says it all. Kai looks at me, then averts his gaze again and grumbles, holds out his hand to me again. Satisfied, I start scratching his hand again. Every now and then I look at Kai. He sits there with his face contorted with pain. But no sound comes from his lips. Yes, the strong Kai, mustn't be naked. But I know how painful such a disinfectant solution is. It burns and pulls. Really bad. But Kai has to go through that.

"So, done! Go ahead!" I mean satisfied and let go of Kai's hand. Kai raises his hand and takes a closer look at the bandage.Then he kinks his fingers, but lets it go again immediately. I get up and want to go back to the bathroom.

"Stop! Wait!" says Kai and takes my hand. I turn around and look at him.

"What? You shouldn't use your hand!" I say when I see his face contorted with pain.

"Thanks!" says Kai and looks me in the eye. Suddenly a strange warmth spreads inside me. It flows through my body. Somehow this warmth is pleasant. But I'm sure I've never felt it before. What's this?

I notice how Kai immerses himself in my gaze. He seems to be thinking hard. He's getting closer and closer to my face. I can feel his hot breath on my face, but I can't turn away. We're still looking each other in the eye. Somehow Kai's eyes keep me captive. This brown is unique. And his eyes radiate Kai's feelings. He never has to say anything, just look him in the eyes.With him the eyes are really the mirror of the soul. I feel how my stomach suddenly begins to tingle and this cozy warmth turns into a fire. The fire burns me up inside. And suddenly I feel Kai's lips on mine. The fire turns to lava and seems to burn my whole body. Just as I want to take a step towards the quay, our environment changes and we are in the dining room. Startled, I back away from Kai.

"It's time for your breakfast!" means a great light and asks us to table. I quickly glance at Kai and then turn to my breakfast.

What have I done there? What did I do there? Why did i do this And what kind of warmth was that? For a fire? But that tingling sounds so damn familiar to me. I've had it before. A long time ago. But why Kai? Why him? I don't really like him at all. Or is it ?? !! Is it just my protective wall if I pretend not to like him?Does it mean more to me than I actually want it to be? It may be? But if only there wasn't this fear. Fear of rejection. Fear of the pain. Fear of being hurt. But where do all these feelings come from? And especially for Kai? Somehow I feel connected to him. It's so different from Tala. Tala is kind of like a brother to me. But Kai? Kai is more to me. Much more. Somehow I can't imagine if he wasn't with me anymore. Funny. I have only known him for a while. Can it be that you love someone so much after a short time? Can it be that you love him? But how do I know it's love at all? Who can tell me that this feeling is really love? I bite off my bread listlessly and swallow the bite. Somehow I don't feel like having breakfast. Why does it all have to be so complicated? Why do I have to have this goddamn fear on my neck so much?Suddenly I am torn from my thoughts by the clink of cutlery. I lift my head slightly startled and see the quay running out of the hall. His chair falls backwards. I sit there and don't realize anything at first. What's going on now? I was so lost in thought that I didn't even look over at Kai. What's going on? I also leave my cutlery clinking on the edge of the plate, throw the cloth napkin on the table and storm after Kai. I have absolutely no idea where Kai might have gone. But for some unimaginable reason, I'm walking in a very specific direction. It's like I'm being driven by some force. I stand breathless in front of an open door. And then I see him. He stands on this cliff and is only one step away from the abyss. Pure panic and naked fear rise in me. He's gonna ... no, he can't do that to me. Not here, not now.


"Kai! Don't do it! Come back! Stop spinning around!" I scream in a shaky voice. Kai doesn't look at me. He's still staring at the roaring sea.

"Utsutsu wo mo

Utsutsu to sara-ni

Omowaneba

Yume wo mi yume to

Nani ka omowamu! ",