It was a sunny Sunday morning and a cool breeze was blowing over Nankatsu. Like every other day, I sat on my sofa, looked through the window and watched the various people who, for whatever reason, always seemed to be happy, to whom nothing oppressed, enjoyed their lives, which I couldn't tell. Tsubasa and I have been separated for exactly three years. He now lives in Brazil and must have become a great footballer, and me? Yes, I'm doing my Abitur, I live with Yukari and Ryo, who have finally become a couple, together in an apartment, two rooms and a bathroom. The rent was mainly paid by our parents.
Before Tsubasa left me to fly to Brazil, I revealed my feelings to him and said how much my heart is in him. Of course I was afraid of being ridiculed by him; but it turned out quite differently, instead he pressed a kiss on the lips and with a satisfied smile he disappeared from my life.In the beginning he called me every day, we sent each other letters or, in the more modern way, e-mails; but nothing has been going on lately. A slight sigh escaped my mouth when I thought of him again. I still loved him and every minute more, not being able to see him, my insides ached, did he feel the same? Finally I got up and went into the kitchen to eat something sweet, supposed to help against lovesickness, but I only found the emptiness in the cupboards. Okay, then go shopping, but it wasn't fun alone. Yukari had already been out with Ryo and I didn't want Dume with me. As always my guilt and with the anger inside me, I lay back on the sofa and put an open book on my face ...

“Fane!” I heard someone call my name and sat up straight. I saw my smiling friend walking towards me, who dropped a letter on the table."What's that?" I asked. "A letter to you", Yukari answered me with a wink. "From Brazil ..." "Yes, exactly! Open up! We also want to know how Tsubasa is doing!" I didn't open the door immediately, but watched it and gently touched the sender's writing with my fingers. Tsubasa Ohzora ... "Man Fane! Don't fret us!" "Yeah, sure, I'm sorry." I slowly opened it and took out a piece of paper, which I unfolded, and then two more ... " Tickets ?! ", Ryo screamed completely excited and danced around the room. "Hey Ryo, why are you so happy?", Yukari asked a little surprised. "I'm going to fly to Brazil!" "You? You don't mean that by serious? Fane will certainly want to take me and not you." That was nothing new.They quarreled every day; but it always ended peacefully, with a hug, a long kiss and a thousand apologies. At this thought it made me smile. However, my attention was fully focused on the letter and quietly to myself I began to read:

"Dearest fan!
I'm terribly sorry to get back to you so late, but I have good news for you. You have probably already noticed the two tickets and I would be happy if you would agree and see us again. The company doesn't matter to me, you can take whoever you want, just important that you are there! So I'm actually doing pretty well and say hello to Ishizaki and Yukari for me and Sanae? I love you! "

The last three words sounded like music to my ears when I kept repeating them softly. I closed my eyes, pressed the envelope to my chest, and dropped back on the sofa.I was just happy, no, more than that, it couldn't be described in words, just amazing! I could already imagine everything exactly how it would go in Brazil, how Tsubasa takes me in the arms and ... "Sanae!" "Hm?" Yes Ryo was famous for always disturbing my wishful thoughts and so I became dragged back into the real world. “Have you finally decided who to take with you?” “Yes, I did and I will fly alone. I don't want you to start arguing again and I don't want any stress, you know.” “That's unfair ! "shouted Ishizaki, who sat down in front of me with his arms crossed," actually you should take me with you, because I've known him better and longer than Yukari, do you understand? "Ryo and his stubbornness. If he wants something, he tinkers with it until it gets the way it suits him.He looked a lot like Tsubasa, where many would interrupt me. Both stubborn heads, and they can't always be borne! "Man ryo, don't play the insulted liver sausage now!" Yukari said, but I already had something else in mind. I gave him a grin, held a ticket in front of his nose and what did I do with it? I tore it into many small pieces. "You don't have them all anymore!" "Oops, I broke something. Well, I don't think it's sooooo bad. Tsubasa must have enough money. I just have to talk to my father about it, then everything is fine. Well, I want to wash myself now and pack for school. Tomorrow is the start of a new week! Nachti! ", I said at the end and disappeared into the bathroom.

“No, no and again no!” “But Dad!” “Nothing there, Dad. I won't let you fly to America alone.” “But I'm already 18."" It has nothing to do with age, but with responsibility. "" Mom would let me be safe. "" You yes; but i'm not your mother “My father, the philosopher.” Listen, little one. As long as I have custody of you, I don't want to do anything wrong, otherwise they'll take you away from me. "He got up from his royal chair, walked up to me and put his hands on my shoulder. He and Mom were divorced for over five years and since then she has lived somewhere in America and I stayed here in Nankatsu with Dad. That did I was all alone for Tsubasa to be around him, and now he was gone too. There were quite a few problems with custody. It was actually judged that I should go to see my mother, but I preferred to stay with Dad, who Is a qualified doctor and has his own hospital. "Yes, I understand. " "Thank you darling. I know I don't really spend a lot of time with you; But that's not to say I don't care about you" "No of course not. "" And by the way, you won't be 18 for a few months! ", Dad said at the end and laughed at me, which brought me a smile. I wasn't mad at him; but sad ...
I took my school bag and walked down the path to school. I thought about how to teach tsubasa that I won't come. Call or do you prefer to write an e-mail? Either would hurt him quite a bit.
Before I went to class, I stopped in front of the soccer field and looked at the whole area. Good old days, when I was still the team manager for Nankatsu and Tsubasa with her managed the hat trick of becoming national champion three times. I was always close to him, enjoyed it too, laughed with him and what now? All of this is no longer the reality. He was thousands of kilometers away from me and only memories remained. Weeping, I fell forward on my knees and buried my hands in the sand, which was still damp and wet from last night.Please dear God bring me Tsubasa here! I said with my face filled with tears and prayed to bring the person I loved to me. Fane, said someone behind me. That voice, I've heard it before; but I couldn't assign it to anyone. I turned around and saw this someone walking towards me.

This person knelt on the floor in front of me and looked into my eyes, saw the tears flow down my face. She took me very gently in her arms and tried to calm me down with slow stroking movements on my hair. I clung to her blouse and let my grief run free. "Tsch, very quietly Fane, everything is fine," said the voice quietly. I looked up and saw Yukari directly in the face. "Thanks ..." I got up quickly and wiped the dirt and moisture off my face with the back of my hand. Yukari didn't have to see what kind of condition I was in.I picked up the school bag and was about to go to class, but Yuakri stopped me. “You don't really want to go to class with your nerves, do you?” I looked to the side, embarrassed, and shook my head. "Well, then we skip today! Let's go into town for a coffee!" "But .." "Nothing there but! You have to think about other thoughts, ok, that will probably not work, but you can tell me everything Calm tell what's going on. "She laughed at me and I agreed.
We sat down in a little coffee and ordered two cups of tea and Yukari bought another piece of cake. "Thank you very much. So Fane, tell me what's going on with you lately. Is it about Tsubasa?" Instead of answering her, I put my head on my hand and let the spoon circling the glass with my other hand . A slight sigh, that's all I had to say."You were with your father today, right? And he didn't want you to fly to Brazil." "What? How do you know about it?" "Yesterday was totally happy and today the exact opposite. I thought why, and well, hit the bull's eye! "She grinned. “I don't think it's funny.” I looked through the window and watched the many people again. It has probably become my new hobby. "You don't even know how I feel Yukari, you have Ryo with you every day, can you see him again and again, and I?" "So you want me to be the same as you. I see." Yukari didn't mean it that way. I'm terribly sorry! Lately I've been giving shit a lot, I'm lovesick. "And now a smile appeared on my face again and Yukari was even more pleased. "Well, now I have to tell Tsubasa that I won't come ..." "Let that be my concern." "How? "" You have already understood correctly, I do everything. That's what friends are for! "She winked at me and I already knew that she was up to something. One last sip of our tea and then we left the nice restaurant. We didn't go home straight away, but enjoyed the wonderful weather in the fresh air in the park, where we We sat right under a tree and only a few rays of sun shone through the leaves. That atmosphere got me in a much better mood and even forgot about Tsubasa for a few minutes ...

It was already 7 p.m. when I was on my way to see my father. Monday evening he was always free and so of course I used the few hours to spend with him. I arrived at the apartment and opened it, of course I had my own key to this dorm, and I heard my father sing happily in the kitchen.I slowly took off my jacket and shoes and then went into the dining room, where everything was already