So ... hope someone reads this! This chapter is now mine, so a whole lot worse:

2. loneliness

I fix my gaze on him. Yes, now I am finally alone. I kneel to him. Take him in my arms and go with him to our shared hut. There I put it in the snow and dig a hole.
My hands are numb from the cold, but I keep digging. Soon it will be deep enough. I put it in there carefully. I am still crying. I stroke his white cheeks one last time. I slowly dig up the grave.

My heart hurts so bad. I am finished and go to the hut exhausted.
Everything looks like this morning. I make a fire and treat my wounds. I have many of them, but only one is deep.
A long gash adorns my cheek.
Most likely a scar will remain. But I don't care. I don't care about anything now.

He's dead. My big brother, who is otherwise so strong, is dead. I'm crying. My tears are hotI am also very hypothermic. I crouch on my small, rickety bed. Only the crackling of the fire and my sobs can be heard.
I feel empty, burned out, alone, powerless. He was all I had.
And now I'm completely on my own.

I whimper his name over and over again. "Makoto ...." It's getting dark. The sky is now black, black as my soul. Once it was light, light as the snow. But that's over. I can hear a blizzard coming up.
I'm still crying. At some point my last strength will run out of me. I fall asleep, my face is shiny. It shines with tears. Tears that I shed because of him ...

Please leave me a picking point !! * plead *