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Chapter 4 Back to the beginning of the journey

So the days went by, no clues, no sense of Kagome and even the weather that Inuyasha had got weaker and weaker and finally disappeared completely.

Slowly their food supplies were running out and they decided to go back to Kaede's village first. Shippo whined, he was hungry and no longer wanted to run. Unfortunately no one could cheer him up, the food they still had they shared and since they mostly walked their way in silence, his mood didn't improve, even with Kagome in his arms.

The kitsunen didn’t find it alone. But what should you do ??? They went that way, so they had to go back.Even Inuyasha found this way back difficult, he could not get rid of his nightmares, so he had decided not to sleep for the time being.
Kagome noticed this, of course, since they always met at night and worried. Then one evening she asked him, "Inuyasha, what's the matter with you?"
He looked at her slightly in disbelief, he had tried not to show anything over the last few days.
"What's the matter with me?" he answered the girl less as an answer and more as a counter-question, so as not to make promises if she meant something else. The hanyou didn't want to worry the girl.

"I can tell that something is wrong, Inuyasha. You try to hide the edges of your eyes and your tiredness, but I can see it anyway! If you prefer it and you need sleep, we can only meet up at night put it on hold for once. "It was hard for Kagome to suggest this, but she thought it was best and gently ran her hand through his face.* What if we are attacked by a demon and Inuyasha is so exhausted that he cannot fight properly? Then we have a big problem! I could NEVER forgive myself for that! * The hanyou smiled at her.
“It's NOT because of our meetings, to be honest, they still keep me going!” Kagome didn't quite understand, so her eyes got bigger and more inquiring.
"You know Kagome, I think it would be better if I tell you. But please promise me not to worry unnecessarily!" She considered briefly: * What if it is something really serious? The way he puts it, it has to be like that, I can't lie to him! * But so that he wouldn't change his mind and confide his problems to her, she agreed. "I promise you! ".

He began cautiously: "It wasn't that long ago - it started shortly before you followed the goblin into the forest. It was ... -" Inuyasha paused. He didn't want to tell her about the smell or that he had been sent to her that night, in her time."I repeatedly heard a voice speaking to me. When you ran away, I heard it again. I tried to track down your scent so that I know where you are and shortly before I had it, I heard it again Voice in my head. She told me you need my help and I should hurry up. Then she was gone and ... ... well, you know what happened after that. "
Kagome nodded, as far as she could follow his story and the Hanyou continued with his report: "The next morning, when we decided to follow the goblin, the voice was there again. But this time I also saw a black figure, to which the voice belonged. She told me that we must NOT follow the goblin under any circumstances and that I should trust her. Since then I've also called the demon that. Still, I'm afraid for you, Kagome! I don't believe this figure, because I know, as long as this demon is still running around freely, you are in danger! It must not happen again that you just disappear like that! "Kagome smiled lovingly at him. * It's so good to have Inuyasha near me! ... * But she didn't think that this was all that burned the half-demon and asked carefully:
"Tell me, Inuyasha, is that really all? Do these events give you such a headache?" Now he too had to smile and gave her a tender look. * Kagome knows me well enough to know that something like this usually doesn't upset me. * However, his smile faded when he looked up at the starry sky and continued:
"No, you are right, that is not everything! It is ... ... since this figure no longer appeared to me, I have this dream. At the beginning I couldn't remember exactly what I dreamed, only that it was terrible was, I knew…… I - which is worse: to be afraid of something nameless or to have the horror right in front of your eyes? ”He looked at Kagome, not really expecting an answer, before his gaze returned to the sky."The dream has solidified more and more in my memory. Now ... ... now it is complete ..." Inuyasha swallowed. "I'm scared, Kagome, I admit it! I can no longer sleep without ... ... being haunted by this dream ..." The Hanyou finished the sentence in a barely audible voice and looked helplessly at the woman in his arms.

She couldn't hide the amazement that was on her face. * Inuyasha got scared of a dream? Then it must really be something bad! * The Hanyou noticed Kagome's unsettled mine and gave her a comforting kiss to show her he was okay. She sighed inwardly when he kissed her. Reluctantly, however, the girl released quickly from his gentle embrace, because she wanted to know more about what Inuyasha was obviously bothering about.
“Inuyasha, would you tell me something else?” The half-demon looked at her hesitantly. He knew she meant the dream, but he wasn't sure if he should really tell her all about it.After she could not take her questioning and at the same time frightened gaze from him, he gave in. Inuyasha closed his eyes for a moment and then turned his head back towards the stars. Somehow he couldn't look her in the face when he reported in an almost uninvolved voice:

"It's the same every time. We're fighting a demon, this goblin we're looking for. He's turned back into this giant youkai, and it's an uphill battle. But the more we attack him, the stronger he gets." - It's similar to the snake demon we fought. Do you remember? The day before we were with you for the night. "He glanced at Kagome, and she nodded.
"The fight does not want to end, but our strength is slowly weakening. We are all seriously injured ..." He paused, and Kagome put a sympathetic hand on his cheek. Thankfully there was a visible relaxation in the posture of the hanyou."The goblin's claw tears a wound in Miroku's black hole and he can hardly keep it under control. Sango is hit by her own boomerang when the goblin simply catches him during one of her attacks and hurls him back at her. Shippo ..." he paused a little, closed his eyes, and bowed his head.
"Shippo tries to distract him when you want to hit him with one of your magic arrows. He is thrown against the nearest tree with one blow. You can only hear his bones break, I don't know what happens to him afterwards. He catches your arrow also, as did Sango's boomerang. "Inuyasha's voice had turned into a frightened whisper. His hand had now taken Kagome's and would certainly have broken it if she hadn't pushed back just as hard.
"He uses his speed to shoot him back to you. The arrow ... ... he attaches you to a tree, like me back then ... ... But he does not ban you, because you are human.You are very badly injured ... ... The demon knocked me out with one of its first attacks and I can hardly stand upright. I see that you are all badly injured and ... ... and somehow it stops me. I'm turning into a full-fledged youkai ... "Inuyasha broke off again. After a silent pause, he continued:
"Suddenly I see myself from a distance, transforming myself, that horror grabs me. But when the transformation is complete, the earth suddenly breaks open and I fall in, once as a youkai, and then as a hanyou, as the who watches everything. Then I always woke up. "Inuyasha fell silent. He noticed how much he was squeezing Kagome's hand and let it loosen up to gently stroke her hand with his thumb. Now he was standing there fighting for control of himself.

Kagome looked at Inuyasha. There were no tears in his eyes, as would probably be the case with her.No, the sheer horror was written on his face, as if he had seen everything all over again when he told the story.
"Sorry, Inuyasha!" she breathed and threw her arms around his waist. Inuyasha stared in surprise at the girl who was clinging to him, but didn't understand. "I'm sorry! You didn't need to tell me! If I had known it was so bad for you, I would never have asked you! Please forgive me!" The Hanyou was incredibly relieved that it was just THAT, what made her so desperate. That she cared for him so much enveloped him like a warm blanket of love. But what was that? The smell of tears? Was she crying? About him? Instinctively, his arms closed tighter around her and rocked her gently back and forth as he whispered soothingly in her ear:
"It's okay ... ... it's okay ... ... Maybe it was better that I told someone."

Kagome smiled, happy that he trusted her so much, even telling her his fears.She sat down on a comfortable spot on the grass and gently dragged the half-demon down onto her lap.
"Try to get a little sleep! I'll take care of you ..." * I don't care if the others might see us tomorrow morning, I'm worried about Inuyasha! He needs to get some sleep and I'll take care of him so he doesn't have nightmares again. He needs sleep! *
Inuyasha sank more than willingly to the floor and laid her head in Kagome's lap. He smiled up at her sleepily, he had long since given up the fight against fatigue. And through Kagome, who gently stroked his hair and softly hummed a soothing melody, he slowly slipped over into a deep sleep ...

Everyone seemed to be sleeping longer than usual that morning. Perhaps it was because her strength was coming to an end (too little to eat, a long way to go). In any case, Kagome had managed to stay awake and every time she had noticed that Inuyasha was restless in his sleep and was probably caught in the