Memories torment me like opening a wound
I am decomposing
You all assume that I am safe in my room
Unless I try to start over
I don't want to be the one who always chooses fights
Because inside, I realize that I am the one who is confused
I don't know what it's worth to fight for it
Or why I have to scream ...
I do not know why I riot
And say what I don't mean ...
I don't know how I got on this path
I know it's not right ...
While I'm trying to take my cure
I close the door tightly
I'm trying to get my breath back
I am hurting myself a lot more than I have ever done before
I had no more alternatives
I don't know what it's worth to fight for it
Or why I have to scream ...
I will never be normal again ...
Was I normal at all?
I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one to blameI will never fight it again
And that's how it ends ...
I don't know what it's worth to fight for it Or why to scream
But now I have some clarity to show you what I mean ...

But still you will never understand me.