Translation
Fanfic: Tagebuch der Schatten
Subtitle: Gedaken eines Lebenden, Gedanken meiner selbst
Chapter: All that remains are shadows
Shadows fall over you as soon as you wake up in the morning.
You seem as powerful as the one who lies over the world
when the sun disappears from the horizon.
They swallow you in the brightest day and don't fade even at night,
because then they are the greatest.
Chase yourself around you ... you alone.
People look at you the way they want to.
But that doesn't bother you, because you gave up on her a long time ago.
Those who call themselves yours and turn their backs on you.
Their shadows are like fears, fears that accompany you,
but without which you would not want to live.
But then fears turn into grief and grief into anger.
They become ever clearer and more suffocating ...
... until they devour you at some point.
You look for places in the dark, mourn your past.
Tell yourself that you are wasting your life and regret being born.
The loss of control makes you tremble, your thoughts roll over and you long for the cold, clear night air.You can see them everywhere, how they gather to feast on you together.
You see them tower up on the walls and grow with every second of your life.
You realize they are connected to you. It's more than what you have in life. Because they accompany you until death.
Even there, they won't let you go. They embraced you like a cover.
A cover that never breaks and protects you from everything that feeds you.
More and more you lose your feelings, you stop living and you hide in your dreams.
All of a sudden you realize that without her you would feel lonely.
You see more and more clearly that you have become a shadow yourself.
You just hope, to be able to lead a life of your kind.
Then suddenly, cold becomes warm
Darkness to light
Human to animal.
When you look back, it is revealed to you that you are given three chances in life to decide for yourself.Namely at the limits of time.
Past - present - and future.
But their shadows are already waiting for you.
You cannot escape them because they are neither alive nor dead.
They are neither cold nor warm.
And they bring neither pain nor joy.
They are simply a part of everything - and yet the pure nothing.
They are timeless and can scare you.
There are people who are destroyed by them. You can read it in the newspaper or follow it in the news:
"Another suicide"
It is those who unite with them ...
... or be devoured by them.
People don't look at each other, otherwise they could prevent it
sometimes just a single look or a gentle smile is enough,
to give them strength.
But everyone only thinks of themselves.
Until they finally just disappear.
Let you down
And never come back.
All that remains are shadows.
Demon Shadow