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I thought I'd write something again ^^ Hm .. it's a drama again xD '* drop * I kind of like to write something like that oO Only this time I tried to combine that with a lyrics <, <(the English between lines there << '' hope you can see the meaning xD)
At the beginning I had difficulties to differentiate Inu's memories from the events of the present, I hope you can now understand that to some extent öö ''

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[SIZE = 2]Chapter I[/SIZE]

Slow steps echoed through the huge hall.
The girl's black hair bobbed with every step. One strand fell on her shoulder, the rest seemed to play with the wind.
A few tears dripped softly onto the cold parquet floor.
A click. She turned around quickly and looked terrified into someone's face. It looked cold and hateful, the features rigid.
"Inuyasha ...?", More tears wet her skin and made their way past her mouth and down her chin.How did it come about ...?
…… ..
What's this I can hear in your voice?

A hideous grin twisted the hanyou's face. A low chuckle. Again and again the red flickered eerily in his eyes.
No chance for his victim. But who or what should be his victim ..?
He straightened his gaze stiffly. Always straight ahead. Do not stop. Always on. So the voice inside forced him ...
"I hate you .. Inuyasha .." These words kept repeating. They echoed and echoed ... until his head stopped cooperating. No, he couldn't stop. He couldn't give in to his feelings. Feelings? Who needed them .. useless.

All I can feel is the cold of your sound ..

He only ran here because of her ...
"Get away from me ..", that voice again. So bitterly cold. He loved that voice ..? Love..?
"I hate you! Go away! You are just a useless half-demon ..!", The wind had announced that another lightning bolt would strike.It looked like the sky was angry. The clouds had turned almost black.
He shook his head quickly. Do not think about this. Keep walking. What was this crap ?! If they hurt him, he could hurt her too. It was right like that. A low chuckle and his red eyes reflected the hatred of his memories.

You're looking at me directly ..

A little boy started crying in the corner of the hut. What was that feeling. He felt a warm, red liquid dripping slowly down his right hand. Briefly he raised his hand to his face. Blood! And again he sank into his memories ...

"I'm going home! Inuyasha .. you're just a hanyou .. you're not worth it ..", her voice, so cold, the individual words struck his chest like all small knives. Why did it hurt so much ?! With a sweeping yet slow movement, the body of the girl he had loved so much had turned over.He wanted to shout something, he wanted to hold her .. apologize for whatever he might have done. But he couldn't, there was no point. "Kagome ...", whispering faintly, his voice was drowned in the wind raging around them. Another flash. A tree fell to the ground right at their feet, torn apart by the force of nature. He wanted to go to her, wanted to protect her: “KAGOME!” She didn't back off a bit, just kept walking.

But I don't feel anything, your eyes are cold ..

"Don't run after me! I DON'T NEED A PROTECTOR!", She had turned around again, her face so marked with anger that it even made him shudder.

People were all the same. Even he had seen that now. Quietly he let his hand drop back down. the blood continued to work its way down. A grin graced his mouth. Even that boy over there ... even he would hurt someone that way at some point.But still .. that look .. so lonely .. He felt something warm slowly rising up inside him. He couldn't let that happen, what was that supposed to mean ?! That would only be hurtful again. Keep walking .. keep walking .. as fast as you could ..

But if I'm saying now 'I love you'
Isn't that a lie?

His memories continued to unwind in his head ...
[I]"Inuyasha ..", with a slight smile on his face, Kikyou looked up at the hanyou. He smiled back gently. One of the few moments he'd smiled ..
But then these thoughts ... over and over again: "Kagome!"
His smile suddenly faded from his face. He held Kikyou in his arms .. wasn't that what he wanted ..?
"I love you ...", the words of Kikyou flitted very quietly up to his ears. Shouldn't he be happy ..? You could start all over again. But why ... why couldn't he say "I love you"?

I want to say my nameHe couldn't tell her he loved her ... But why not ?! All this time, all the years ... he'd been waiting, just for her.
But ... was that still true ...? Could the future change in a direction he didn't want to admit?

I want to look into your eyes

Driven by getting rid of these memories, he ran on ... on through the crowds of people who fearfully moved aside as he hurried past them. He hadn't been able to kill the little boy. Why not?! It was only human .. People hurt others ... What did a person have memories for ..? Nobody needed them .. and yet they kept breaking into him ..:

Again and again he saw Kagome's face at this moment when Kikyou seemed so close to him. Right in front of him ... just inches away. But when he tried to see her eyes, the image faded into a haze of fog before his eyes.
He looked down at the miko he was holding in his arms.That wasn't Kagome ...
But weren't the two of them one and the same person ..? Why the hell couldn't he just try to start over ..? Why did it hurt so much ?! Before he knew what he was doing, he gently pushed Kikyou away and turned around. He heard her stumble backwards, startled. He himself felt her insecurity, her fear. But why didn't he go back to help her? He just kept walking into the darkness of the trees .. Hoping they would swallow him and give him a new me, one that didn't have to suffer pain ...

I want to be proud of myself

[I]His steps were slow at first, then they got faster, he started running.
Again he started to run away ...
But maybe you had to do that to survive.

I only want to say ..

[I]On and on .. what did he want now ..? Where did he belong ...? What should he do ...?
So many questions that couldn't be answered were buzzing around in his head that he could no longer think clearly.It started to rain slowly ... First very small and then larger and larger drops came from the sky. Inuyasha's steps slowed. His hair began to absorb the drops, it seemed. Finally he stopped. Carefully looked up at the sky, he didn't know what to do next.

Sometimes I'm looking around ...

After a while he awoke from the renewed wave of images that his head had only glimpsed ...
He hardly noticed the blood that he was wearing all over his body, only occasionally when it was in his way did he stop briefly to get rid of it on his clothes.
Killing these villagers doesn't make sense ... it didn't quench his thirst.

In his mind he was back in his memory ... shortly after meeting Kikyou ...[I]It was a strange feeling ... like when he was little and nobody wanted to play with him ... just because he was a hanyou. So then everyone had this fate that somehow didn't fit into this world ..?No, a person wasn't like that. But that was exactly what he had always hurt so badly. But she would certainly never let him down.

There's a wall something hides behind the board ..
But if I'm going to see there's nothing any more

But that's exactly what she had! This thirst that tormented him ... it was only her fault ... So it was only she who could release him from it ... he had to go to her ... She was to blame for everything!

Everything in my hands suddenly seems to shine ..

She was only human ... these were everywhere. Not important. Why did he only notice that now ..?! All around him these strange beings screamed, fires were lit, arrows fired at him ... how stupid. As if they thought they could stop him. There was the well .. The key to his suffering. He jumped in with just a few steps and the blue light of the other time enveloped his body. Just a few more steps then he would have reached his goal.He jumped through the door of the small shrine. But there was no odor from Kagome. Slightly confused, he looked around hastily. No one there. Kagome's scent was only faintly in the air. He didn't care who saw him, they were all just people. So he just ran after her scent.

But if I'm saying now 'You're everything in my mind' ...
Isn't that a lie?

He had thought that she would help him ... comfort him? "Inuyasha .." as if she had heard his words she came closer. The rain hadn't let up, on the contrary. Meanwhile it started to thunder and lightning flashed furiously across the sky. He had looked at her hopefully. It was only a few meters away. Her black hair was soaking wet and clung to her body.

"I hate you ...", those words that kept buzzing through his head as he followed Kagome's scent through the streets of Tokyo. He didn't notice his own stench of blood anymore ...

I want to say my name

"Inuyasha ... what about you ...?!", shaken the 15 year old student stared at the monster that had just entered the great room. His giggling trembled reached her ears and made her shiver run down her spine. What did that mean?
"Inuyasha .. take it easy ..", she approached him carefully. A few more steps. It would all be over soon. Why was he a youkai ..?

I want to see the light

All she could see was the red light flickering again and again in his eyes, his gruesome grin. That wasn't who she knew ...
He was only three feet away from her. However, nothing changed in his facial expression .. Again she softly whispered his name ..
Then all of a sudden she felt a terrible pain and she only felt how she slowly sagged to the ground. Her legs could no longer support her body. She opened her eyes for a moment, had no strength to express her pain aloud ..

I want to look into your eyes"Inuyasha ..", her whispered words echoed softly in his ears.