I walked slowly down the street, as always.
I saw the cars go by, as always.
But something was different that day, you weren't with me. Nobody was with me that I could tell how bad I am. There was no one to hug me. Nobody but you had ever done that. Dark clouds came in, dark like my mood. I didn't mind that it started raining. Rainy days are not bad, on the contrary, they are the only days on which you can cry with your head held high. I cry, the tears ran down my face until they fell to the ground like raindrops. In a trance, I ran through the rain, I didn't know where I was going. I didn't want to know where I was going. My hair was soaked from the rain, it hung down in strands. The black streaks hung in front of my eyes, so that I no longer perceive much of my surroundings.
Suddenly I stopped, I was where we first met.I still remember exactly how you stood in front of me and looked at me with boredom. A few days later I came back to this place, I hoped you would be there too. You were there, standing in the corner again and watching the people passing by. I walked up to you, you looked at me and then, then you smiled at me. From that day on we were friends, best friends. No, we weren't friends, we were more than just friends. We were a couple, inseparable, like the sun and the moon.
It was a great time with you, the best time of my life. But this time suddenly ended, I knew that you had problems, I knew that you were feeling bad, I knew everything, but now I feel guilty because I didn't help you.
And then it happened on a Friday, you killed yourself, I was told you fell off a bridge. So I heard that I couldn't believe it. Why did you do that? Why did you leave me aloneI now went through the hall to the apartment door, I opened it and went in, then I bolted it, I wanted to be alone, alone with you, but you weren't here, you were dead.
I went into the kitchen, as always.
I turned on the light, as always.
I looked at the table, as always.
There was a letter on the table, I wondered who it was from and why I hadn't seen it earlier. I carefully opened the envelope, took out the paper and left. The letter was from you, not particularly long, but very direct, like you. I smiled, hurriedly put the letter in my trouser pocket and ran to the door, slammed it shut behind me and ran on. I ran through the rain, I was cold because I was soaked, my chucks were soaked with water and that doesn't exactly make walking easier for me, but I didn't care.
I stopped abruptly, I was standing on a bridge, no, I was standing on the bridge. Here you fell to your death, I went to the railing and looked down, the rain slowly stopped.I looked up at the sky and wondered if you would catch me if I jumped. You would do it, I knew that. I took the letter out of my trouser pockets and read it again, then I knew what I was going to do, without you my life was no longer worth living. I took off my jacket and put the letter on it, then I climbed over the railing. I was scared, very scared because it went way down, but I would see you again I was sure of that. I looked up at the sky one more time, then let go. The wind was blowing through my hair and suddenly I felt your warm embrace, I closed my eyes. I was unconscious when I hit the hard floor when my bones splintered and my blood flowed away.
I was with you now, in your warm embrace, forever.

A little later they found my body, the jacket and also the letter from you. It was a very direct letter, just like you were very direct. I still know exactly what it said:“I love you, in life and in death

Please follow me

With love, your Sven "