° manno ... what's the point of all this? .. can you say you love him ?! °
"Sairi ... please introduce him to me ... yes? !!"
"Oh yes"
"me too"
Everyone started calling at once. It just got too much. I just got up and walked out of class, again what I was about to cry about. Didn't notice what was going on in class as the girls watched me whisper. I leaned my back against the wall, looking at the floor so that my hair fell on my face and you couldn't see that tears had formed in my eyes. ° why is he only my brother? .. why does everyone think it would be great to have him as a brother? .. it's not GREAT at all !! °
The tears ran down my cheeks and I sank to the floor crying. I pulled my legs up against my body and wrapped my arms around them. I just couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't take it anymore! I didn't notice anything anymore. Forgot everything around me I didn't even notice that the teacher was going to class.Just kept crying. It was only when someone pulled me up quickly and shook me slightly that I was brought back to reality.
"HEY ... what's wrong with you?!?!" Still trembling, I looked at this someone who was almost gently holding my shoulders and looking at me with wide eyes.
"h..hao?" I asked in a shaky voice.
"YES who else ?!" I looked at him completely crying and still standing next to me.
"Come on, let's go to the sickroom," he said firmly and went ahead. But since he noticed that I wasn't following him, he went back to me, put his hand under my chin and turned my head so that I had to look at him.
With his other hand he carefully wiped the tears from my cheeks.
That was another moment like the long past, when I haven't had to share it with any other girl.
In any case, it is the first time in about 3 months that I have seen him alone and talked to him.
"Hao ... don't we have classes?" I asked him ..."Yes, the others are teaching .... but the teacher said I should talk to you because you are sitting in front of the door crying."
"why didn't he tell yo to come ?!" I sniffed again. He looked at me with raised eyebrows. "Oh, I'm not good enough for you? ... ô.o ... come on now I'm top of the class so I was allowed to go!"
° of course ... I have nothing better than you ... °
He took me by the hand and dragged me through the corridors into the hospital room. There I sat down on a chair and looked around the room.
° Nobody there ... just Hao and me °
This sat across from me and looked at me questioningly.
Did he ... demand that I tell him everything ?!
"Tell me ... what happened?" I couldn't answer him, just looked desperately into his face.
"Has someone done something to you?" he asked me seriously again. I hadn't heard his question at all, just looked adamantly into his eyes. I would have loved to fall into his arms now and confess everything to him.But it's not that easy. I'm too scared!! Maybe then he would hate me or detest me.
"Nothing ... is" I said very quietly and hesitantly. I already noticed that all this confused him.
"Sairi ... it's something! Otherwise you wouldn't have been sitting in the hall in such a dissolute state. Please don't lie to me!"
° I can't tell you! Do understand that! ... Please ... I just don't trust myself °
"Please Hao .. I can't tell you!"
Tears welled up in my eyes again. I would have loved to tell him ... I would have loved to have told him everything ... everything!
"If I have to, I just read your mind ... so you can tell me what you have just as well!"
"Eh ... please don't! Please Hao. That's mean!" I was terrified he would really do it. Then everything would be over.
"I don't really care Sairi! I'll have to do it if you don't tell me! ... So for 3 'I want to hear from you!"
He said firmly and seriously with an unidentifiable look on his face."1..."
I was silent ... ° I can't °
"2 ..."
° stop it !!!! ... understand me .... °
"3 .... the time is up"
° Hao I ... I love ...