And again it's the middle of the night and I don't know why I keep writing this. i'm surprised anyway that i got a comment at all, but what surprises me even more is that the people even agreed to me. I really didn't expect that ...
"I really didn't expect that ...."
I usually say this sentence when I'm terribly shocked about something. It's been a while since I said it. But that doesn't matter now, I'm not writing this to philosophize about when I said what and why the last time. Is this sentence incomprehensible now? doesn’t matter. actually i'm here because until less than an hour ago i was still sitting in a restaurant where i ate with a good friend (cheers to bluedragonkay). have you ever noticed how similar the words "eaten" and "sat" are? oh dear, I'm digressing again from the topic. what i actually wanted to say, no, that doesn't exactly match the point.what I actually wanted to ASK is:

"When do we live and when are we dead?"

kay and i have found a lot of answers from cardiac arrest to total depression but i have always had the habit of getting several answers before i make a final judgment on a matter. while I'm on the subject: why don't I have a call from my house kay yet? I would be happy if you would at least write your opinion on it (not about kay's coming but about the life-death question), and before I forget: please do a little surreptitious advertising for me so that I can have more than three readers have. I love you for the fact that you write to me absolutely idolatrous, but it would still be cool if my fanclub (fanclub ?!) would expand a bit.
your blade altari.

PS: I hope I have managed better with the heels ...

I also dedicate this chapter to my sister rahel, who will probably never find out about this dedication, but ultimately what counts is the thought that I dedicated the kappi to her (in general).