"I don't know," I replied to my teacher
"How do you not know?" she knew very well that I had no idea. "If you were to pay attention in class, you would know the answer" How should I concentrate on the class when I know that I won't get anywhere in life anyway. I was empty. My life was empty. There was nobody there, nobody who loves, likes or understands me. School was over, but I didn't want to go home. Nobody there understood me anyway. I went to the forest where we always walked, we talked there, told each other everything. I stood by the ravine, I heard her words

# backflash # #: "Tom is dead. I don't want to live anymore!" I replied to her at the time: "Don't do that to me, you didn't know him, only from magazines and on TV! and from the concert where he didn't see you anyway" "anyway," she whispered, "I don't want to anymore live without him! "" No, "I shouted at her," don't leave me alone, what should I do without you?"" Besides, Bill is still alive "." Well, "she yelled at me," he'll surely take his life too "." NO "I shouted with tears in my eyes," don't say that "" but it's true " she said in a calm voice. "Don't do that to me," I pleaded, "please". "I can't, you know that," she said in such a calm voice, as if everything was just theater. But don't wait In the same night she took her own life. in the middle of the night, I called her parents, they said that something terrible had happened. They asked if I might come. I said that I would come soon. I told myself that maybe something would have happened, and my best friend, can't take it, and I should talk to her. but deep down I knew that she had killed herself. I wake my parents and tell them to drive me to her immediately, I told them that their parents had called me, I didn't realize the drive to her, ic h just looked at the stars and hummed "the last day" to me.it was one of her favorite songs. When we got there, her parents wanted to tell me what happened, but I just say that I'll go to their room and that I know what happened.
mine and her parents went to the kitchen, me to her room. i hummed it all the time / ... day is the last, please don't tell me yet ... / when I got to her door I started singing loudly. I opened the door without hesitation. I saw her and just sang to myself. first I saw her mirror, it was smashed, then I looked at the window, she was sitting under the window, leaning against the radiator. I stood in front of her, the moon shone in my face. her wrists were ripped open. she was dead. I saw her CD player next to her, the headphones were lying next to it, I took it and pressed PLAY, she heard "The Last Day" when she killed herself. she was with Tom now. I was sad and angry. how could she leave me alone #