You, still you ?!

Do you remember how we met?
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I found you irresistible from the first moment.
You said you love me Was it all just a lie?
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For 2 years you lied to me, betrayed me.
My heart was always yours
But you broke it over and over again
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Why, why only?
DON'T MATTER I DON'T
I mean everything to me
NO MATTER.
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I can't get over you
even though I've been miles behind you
left me
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I will never trust anyone like you again.
You were my great love
Why did you do that to me?
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Can you imagine my feelings
I don't think you have the emotional world
of a teaspoon!
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If you still haven't noticed:
I still love you today, but I would rather you
from the deepest heart, deepest soul and deepest desire
to hate. But hate and love are feelings and you don't deserve them!...
That's why I despise you
I despise you from the bottom of my heart
because you broke it!

that was the first poem that i wrote .. at the time i had .. i think .. lovesick .. ^^