... just not here ..
I want to live..
just not here ..
I want to love..
just not here ..
I want to die..
just not here ..
i want to be happy ..
just not here ..
i want to have friends ..
real friends..
just not here ..
i want to have family ..
just not here ..
ALL the things that are necessary to be able to lead a life as I imagine it, I can not here.
I can only:
be sad
vegetate melancholy,
hanging depressed in a corner,
to be alone..
but i want more ..
.. just not here ..