Chapter 10: What happens if I am allowed to open my eyes again ...

Arg ... what kind of pain was that, what went through my body with such pain? I felt myself gasping for breath, my God where did this diabolical pain come from? I wanted to open my eyes, but every fiber of my body seemed to burn. But what was that that lightly brushed my forehead, a gentle gesture, so warm and tingly.
I opened my eyes slightly and looked astonished into a pair of fawn eyes. They looked concerned as the gentle hand continued to brush my forehead.
"Kagome ...?" I asked quietly, whereupon I received confirmation with a slight nod of the head. I rummaged through my memories, what was the last thing I could remember? My hand went to my temple, it was all so unreal, Kikyou had tried to snatch the jewel from me ... snatch it?
I hastily let my hand wander to my chest, it was the place where I heard this pain.My fingers lightly brushed one of the well-known bandages.
"What is ...?" I started, but Kagome gently put a finger to my mouth to silence me. I nodded slightly and let my head drop a few inches again. I suddenly felt something warm and soft beneath me, is that Kagome's thigh? I looked in her eyes for the answer to this superfluous question, which was already answered by a small movement on her part.
She kept stroking my forehead and playing with my pony every now and then. I saw how it ran through my hair, that it was longer and nowhere near black, I only noticed it incidentally. It was only her delicate voice that pointed this out to me.
"I missed your golden eyes!" She whispered softly and sadly. That's when I finally noticed. My hand went up to my dog's ears. I felt them, they were MY ears ... Not any human's ears, no, those were MY ears ....I was a hanyou again! But…
I straightened up after all, Kagome's warm hand slipped from my forehead, this warmth ... she was alive? But didn't Kikyou say ...
"Are you feeling better again?" I heard the familiar voice in my ear. My eyes immediately looked up in confusion.
"Kikyou?" I stammered a little confused. And looked into her eyes, she smiles?
A nod on her part once again confirmed that it was she who was sitting with me, but why was I a Hanyou again and the devil why was I alive?
My mind wandered around last night's event. I immediately jumped up and stared at the two black haired women who had worried about me. Kagome immediately lowered her gaze when she realized what I was about to ask.
"Mia sacrificed herself ...", Kikyou's voice sounded unsolicited. I drew the air tightly through my lips and noticed how everything began to spin around me. Little Mia had sacrificed herself to me? Why? It all seemed so unreal ... so incomprehensible ...I felt the hard ground that was there all of a sudden, I had automatically fallen to the ground and fell on my bottom. The shock was too great, the little girl, Kagome's daughter ...
"She's with Rin ...!" I only heard the short answer. However, my eyes immediately wandered to Kagome, hence the sadness in her voice, she had just lost her own daughter, but why was she still here? Why did she stroke my forehead so gently? I still felt the warmth of her delicate hands ... She should be mad at me, curse me, but why is she so tender?
I buried my head in my hands. My God, what had I done, I should never have come back ...
"It's not your fault!" I heard that soft voice again, which sounded satisfied but also sad. How could she say so? She sacrificed herself because of me, right? So why wasn't it my fault then?
"You should talk to her ...", Kikyou remarked casually, before she disappeared without another word.She's always been silent since ... I put that thought out of my head immediately and looked down at myself. These human clothes, I still wore them ...
"What did you do with your Suikan and Tessaiga?" I heard the quiet voice a few meters away. I nodded to her immediately. "At Kaede ..." I said briefly.
I looked around, suddenly I noticed so many things again, so many smells, so many noises, it was so strange to be so clairaudient. But I also picked up her scent again. I immediately looked longingly at her, her pleasant scent, I had to go without this scent for so long. I took a deep breath and felt my pulse pounding loudly in my head. A nod in my direction and she was gone again. I really had to speak to her, to Kagome! I had so much to say to her, to apologize for so many things, and yet there were still so many things between us that she kept silent and didn't ask me about them ...My feet moved almost reluctantly, I smelled her, little Mia, or actually it was Rin, whose smell I heard and a strange one, but this had to be Mia's smell, it was similar to that of Kagome ...
I went faster and faster, the longer I followed the smell, the clearer it became, just like the whitish shimmer of the soul catchers who gathered in a small clearing.
I stepped closer and saw the two little girls who look up at me in shock. Mia smiled at me immediately, her smile, it was so innocent and yet again very adult.
"Mia ... I ..." I started stuttering, how should I thank you for giving me her life? Was that even possible?
She just shook her head without fading her smile.
"You don't need to say thank you ... I just wanted my mother to finally get the life she deserves!"
I start it, my muscles don't even twitch. Such a little child, she didn't sacrifice herself for me, but for Kagome ... these words, I never thought that she was so ahead of her age."My mother didn't really want me, she wasn't ready for children yet, but she never let me feel it, she loved me anyway and I want to give that back to her because I actually don't deserve it ..."
Her words made me increasingly sad, I was lost in a chaos of emotions, even before, so much was intruding on me, I no longer knew where to hold on, who to thank and who to hug could….
"You shouldn't have done that ... I can comfort you as a person ...!" I replied after a while. But little Mia immediately shook her head.
"Then Kikyou would have sacrificed her life, again, I didn't want that. Mom told me what she went through, when I saw her I just had to stop her!"
Kikyou wanted to sacrifice himself to me? I looked at her unreal. I had banned her from my heart long ago, she was so different now, I associated too many sad events with her and she would still want to sacrifice herself for me ...I sank back into the images of the past, how could I do this to her, Kikyou ... the only one I wanted to love and never did ...
Suddenly I felt a cold hand on my stomach. I immediately looked down at myself and saw the childlike hand stroking me.
"You have a task ... Kikyou has freed the jewel from the spirit of Naraku, you are now free ...", she spoke softly, but at the end of her sentence I opened my eyes wide. Naraku's ghost? What was this again now? Didn't it mean it was Midoriko's soul?
I looked at her confused. She just nodded and then looked at me with a smile. "Oh ... you probably didn't know yet ...", she waved her off. "It's not that important anymore, he's gone ...!"
I pierced her with my ignorant gaze. Had Naraku been controlling me all along? Had I left Kagome because of him? Kagome ... it went through my head ... she suddenly seemed to want to be with me again, she stroked my forehead and her warmth ... she was so pleasant ... did she know why I had left her?"Remember ... Kikyou and your brother are waiting for you ...", the little voice suddenly drowned out my head.
How could I think of it now ???
To Sesshomaru, whom I still do not understand by a long way ...
And above all, what was the job that everyone needed me for? I had disappeared, believed death for everyone and that was a good thing, I didn't want to get involved in such power struggles again, no, not again….
I shook my head and Mia looked at me sadly.
"Please, Inuyasha ... You MUST go ..." Her voice seemed so pleading, so unaccustomed to pleading, when was the last time someone asked me to do such a thing. But I couldn't really refuse her, thanks to her I was standing there again, feeling my pulse, the beating of my heart ..
I felt my head nod slightly, why I nodded, I didn't want that at all, I didn't want to fight again and be separated from Kagome ...
"Don't worry about her ... I'll take care of her while you're gone ..."Slowly it got scary to me, the little one seemed to know me better than I did myself, that was really strange ...
"Don't waste any more time ..." I heard a cold voice appear behind me. I immediately turned around, startled, I hadn't even smelled it.
"Sesshomaru ..." I hissed at him, he was already back. I didn't like him, never ... and I didn't want to start with that just because he supposedly had protected me all these years.
"Get changed, we'll be leaving soon ..." he replied coolly and threw me my red bundle and Tessaiga. I looked dazed at the clothes that I was holding in my fingers shortly afterwards.
"What kind of opponent is that?" I said only briefly, while I let the fabric of my Suikan slide through my fingers. But it remained silent on his side, he was still hiding it from me ...
I snorted briefly ...

Kagome Pov .:
I didn't know whether to laugh or cry.It was all so unreal, like a dream ... These years seemed like reality, like the harsh reality that I had eluded all along.
Inuyasha was himself again ...
His golden eyes, I had almost forgotten them, how could I ... I had missed them and longed for them so often. For the first 2 years I kept thinking about him, I kept shaking for fear that something might have happened to him.
I raised my gaze to the patch of forest where I had left him. He was probably talking to my Mia ...
Immediately I felt tears welling up in my face. My only daughter was now dead ... she was still wandering in this world, but she was no longer alive, I would never see her grow, never see her happy with a family ... but