past


Sasuke and Naruto argued again in front of the other ninjas in their class. Which wasn't really unusual, but something was different. Suddenly the dispute threatened to escalate.
"You know what Sasuke, I really wish I were like you. A strong ninja and a heartthrob. What more do you want? Isn't that enough for you?"
Naruto stood in front of Sasuke and stared at him. Suddenly he was quiet. Very quiet.
Nobody in the class dared to say anything, everyone looked excitedly at Sasuke. This raised his head a bit and looked at Naruto. He looked at him with a look that gave everyone goose bumps.
"Idiot!" He said softly and continued to look at him. It was dead quiet now.
"You're an idiot. Do you think I'd like to be myself? Do you think it's nice to grow up without parents? Without a family? Do you think it's nice to see your whole family killed? Killed by your own brother, do you think that is enviable?Do you think it's nice to find that your brother you trusted is suddenly a murderer? Your family's killer!
As a little kid, would you like to beg your brother to let you live?
Would you like to feel the fear? The fear of death.
Would you like to feel the loneliness? The loneliness after which everyone left you. After you weren't important to anyone anymore.
To see that everything is different now, that life is hard and that as a child.
Do you want that?
I had no one to help me when I needed help. No one to calm me down when the nightmares came back. When I heard my mother scream and saw the blood and fire and destruction.
I had to deal with my thoughts on my own. How should I trust someone again when the person I trusted most had ruined my life?
I hate my face It reminds me of him.
He who took my life away from me.It's my job to kill him, only then can I find peace. It's like a vicious circle.
Do you still want to be like me, Naruto? "
Sasuke fell silent and disappeared from the class. He left a great silence. Nobody dared to say anything.
Silent tears dripped onto Sakura's lap. Naruto was still in the same place as before. He didn't dare move.
Suddenly Sakura straightened up. She clenched her fists and ran out of class. Outside she looked around. Where was he? Sakura wanted to be with him, she wanted to show him that he wasn't alone.
But I didn't find Sakura anywhere, it was as if he had been swallowed by the ground.
She was about to go home disappointed when she heard a noise.
It came high up, from one of the trees. Sakura thought for a moment, but then jumped up. Sasuke was sitting on top of one of the branches. He hardly moved and didn't even pay attention to Sakura, who had now sat down next to him.
So both sat quietly next to each other.Sakura's heart beat faster. She was alone with Sasuke and he hadn't turned on her stupid yet.
She would have liked to talk to him, but she was afraid of saying the wrong thing.
Sakura didn't know how long they had been sitting there, but the sun was slowly disappearing behind the trees.
Sakura grew impatient, if she didn't go home now, her mother would be worried. She straightened up and was about to jump down, but then she changed her mind and turned around.
Sakura leaned down to Sasuke and kissed him on the cheek.
After that, she jumped down the tree with a flushed face and ran home.
Up in the tree, Sasuke was still sitting quietly, but he carefully touched his cheek.
If you looked closely, you could see a small smile on his face.


The next morning Sakura passed the stele where Sasuke had been sitting yesterday. Without thinking, she jumped up and saw Sasuke, who was sitting on the same branch again.She sat down next to him in silence. So the day passed without words.
In the evening Sakura did not disappear again without kissing Sasuke on the forehead.
It went on like this the whole week and the two got along better and better. Even without words.
Sasuke seemed to enjoy Sakura's presence. She herself enjoyed the time with him and with each passing day they grew closer.
Sakura didn't tell anyone about her meeting with Sasuke. It was her secret.
But the tide turned a few days later. Sakura had spent another day with Sasuke and the evening was slowly approaching.
"Sakura.", Sasuke whispered suddenly. "Sakura don't leave me alone. Don't forget me."
Sakura looked at him in amazement, but then smiled and took his hand.
"I will never forget you and I will always be with you. I promise you. You are not alone. I love you Sasuke-kun."
She took him in her arms and leaned her head on one shoulder. She took a deep breath and noticed Sasuke's exciting smell.Yes, she loved him. She loved him for who he was. She felt safe with him. She was cold, but his body heat warmed her.
Sasuke also enjoyed being close to her. For the first time in a long time, he no longer felt alone. He buried his face in her hair. It smelled of roses.
After a few minutes, which seemed like hours, they separated again.
Sakura had tears in her eyes, they slowly ran down her cheeks.
Sasuke took her face between his hands and kissed her tears away. He looked at her and then kissed her forehead, then the tip of her nose and finally her eyelashes to free her from the rest of the tears.
Sakura smiled at him and their lips came closer until they met. Tenderly, Sasuke caressed Sakura's lips with his tongue and demanded admission.
Sakura opened her mouth willingly and soon her tongues were engaged in passionate tongue play. After a while they broke up again and Sasuke whispered: "I love you.", in Sakura's ear.
Sakura smiled and snuggled up against him again. She wanted to touch him. He wanted to touch her. Together they jumped from the tree and lay down in a meadow.
Sakura looked up at the starry sky. Everything was so beautiful, like a dream.
Sasuke's hand went under Sakura's top and caressed her stomach. A pleasant shiver ran through them. Slowly Sasuke Sakura took off the top and kissed her stomach up to her neck. Sakura enjoyed it and moaned softly. She took off Sasuke's top and traced his abdominal muscles with her fingers.
Everything was so beautiful.
That night they both experienced their first time. You would never forget it.

"You are so beautiful.", Sakura sighed and snuggled back into Sasuke's arms. This said nothing, but she knew that he had liked it too. He smiled and kissed her lovingly.
But suddenly he started up, put on the rest of his clothes and looked around."What's wrong Sasuke?", Sakura asked confused. But she got no further, because Sasuke leaned down to her and whispered: "I love you. Don't forget me. I have to now."
With that he disappeared into the darkness.
Sakura was still lying in the same place and smiling happily. She had never loved anyone so much before.
When she saw what time it was, she put on her clothes and went home happy.

The next morning Sakura ran humming happily to the tree where she met Sasuke and jumped up. But there was no trace of Sasuke. Only a piece of paper was hanging in one of the branches with "Sakura" written on it with scrawly letters.
With trembling hands she opened the letter and read the contents in silence.

[i]Dear Sakura.
I can't stay with you I have to finally get it over with and break out of the vicious circle. I finally have to take revenge. Revenge for everything he did to me.
Don't try to follow me, I don't want anything to happen to you.As soon as I finish him I'll come back to you. Promised.
Sakura you have to know that you really mean a lot to me.
Please never forget this.
I love you and I will never forget you.

Your Sasuke[i]


A tear dripped onto the piece of paper, causing the ink to bleed.
"No. No, that can't be. Why? Why Sasuke?", Sakura cried out crying and hit the trunk with her fists. "Why are you doing this to me?"
Hot tears ran down her face. She was trembling all over.
"I will not forget you Sasuke. I will definitely not forget you.", She managed to sob.
All day long she sat in the tree and read the letter. Over and over again. Until he was completely soaked by her tears.
Even when evening came, she was still sitting on the branch. Like someone who had lost everything that was dear to him overnight.




[i]I held it in my hand.
The best gift on earth.I held it tight to me.
What I always longed for.

How could it slip away from me?
How could I lose you
You were so real yesterday.
Yesterday.
It seems to me like it was ages ago.
As if time was running out
Run.
Without taking me into consideration.
She tore you with her.
Without asking me.

Why did you let that happen?
Why does vengeance have more room in your heart than I do?

I thought you forgot the past.
By me.
But nobody can forget the past.
She catches up with you.
It falls over you like a dark shadow.
A shadow that stifles all light.
Even my love can't get through

What are you planning now?
What kind of thoughts are in your head?

I wanted to share the pain of the past with you.
But I couldn't.
I did not experience what you did.
Pain. Screams. Tears. Lonliness.
You were still little.You were a child and an adult at the same time.
Marked by death.
The death that destroys everything.
Familys.
Friends.
And love.

But I don't forget you
You taught me to fight
I will never forget you.
The past will not destroy us.[I]