Déjà-vu

Once again I run bored through the castle and just have nothing to do. I've been back at Hogwarts this year. Remus and Dumbledore thought the Ministry would never find me here. But actually I almost don't care where I am, because every place, however beautiful it may be, is and remains a prison for me. When I'm not in Azkaban, I'm a prisoner in this body. It's been ages since I walked around as a person.
The students were told that I was the new watchdog to replace Mrs. Norris. God, can you imagine how upset that idiot Filch got about it?
Nothing is going on here at the moment ... of course not, there are also classes. I yawn and look for one of the house ghosts, even in our school days you could always talk to them well.

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From a distance I can see your son, Harry, with his two friends Hermione and Ron.Longbottom rushes behind them so as not to lose touch. From the opposite direction come Malfoy, Zabini and these two cupboards, Crabbe and Goile. How can you be that big in 5th grade? I'm one hundred percent sure that the stress will return soon ... and as always, I'm right.
It's pretty scary how much this scene reminds me of our school days. Draco Malfoy lets go of one of his idiotic comments and makes Harry stop.
"Well Potter, you can't be without the weasel and the mudblood, can you?"
"Shut up Malfoy. Who is too scared to run around without his court?"

It’s about to start, and they’re going to throw all sorts of insults and maybe even curses at each other.
From where I know this?
Come on, it was exactly the same with you and Lucius. You yelled at each other and also cursed without thinking of any consequences.Not that I didn't go along with it, but I never really cared about Lucius' arrogance. Schniefelus and his greasy hair were a much better target.
In the meantime, the two boys have come to the point that Professor Flitwick tries to intervene. I have to grin slightly. Even then it was difficult for the much too small teacher to make himself heard, but today it is almost impossible. Only with the deduction of points for the two houses and rework does calm return. I shake my head slightly. How can it be that everything is like it used to be. You and I have always taken it too far, broken all kinds of rules and not only got us into trouble once. Remus could never stop us, but actually he didn't really want to. Lilly was always the voice of reason, but we only listened to it now and then.
That position is clearly occupied by Hermione.Believe me, she is a great friend to your son, just like Lilly she is Muggleborn and is treated just as badly by Draco as she was treated by Lucius back then.
I see a certain resemblance between me and Ron, can you imagine? Actually completely absurd, isn't it?
He's pissed off because Malfoy started but Harry has to go to detention too. He shouts out loud, completely forgetting that Flitwick is still around.
I don't even want to think about how quickly people used to piss me off. In those moments, I usually did the stupidest things. Do you remember the thing with Snape and the Whomping Willow? It was pretty funny. Harry is just like you though, he can get louder, but actually he is the calm itself. You would be really proud of him, I'm quite sure of that.
I am slowly turning away from the spectacle. How it ends is actually already clear. As soon as Flitwick is gone, the groups will attack each other again.As I said, he was never able to assert himself with us either. Hermione can't do anything about that either.
When I see the little professor walking past me, I slowly count to five and from a distance I can already hear the first magic fly. Nothing has changed, nothing at all.

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It's Tuesday, 10 a.m., and I'm tired from the bat in the back of the classroom. I've always found magic potions boring and Schniefelus hasn't changed at all, dogged and always in a bad mood, just like back then. No wonder he was your favorite victim.
PÄNG !!!!!!
Shock! I think that was the third potion that Longbottom spanked today. Snape completely freaks out and really wrecks the poor boy. He just looks down on the ground and doesn't know what to do. He's shaking slightly, somehow I'm sorry for him. But what can you do? Hermione approaches him slowly and whispers something in his ear that makes him smile again carefully.This scene is also anything but unknown to me. Wormtail used to be the same. No bearing of anything and then always waited until Lilly felt sorry for herself, took heart and helped him. We were good friends back then, but like Harry and Ron, you and I had no idea about potions. Nevil's whole way is kind of like Peter's. Just as clumsy, scared and, above all, inconspicuous. There's a big difference though, don't worry because I'm sure Longbottom would never betray Harry or any of the others.
Here again the similarity between Lilly and Hermione is unmistakable. Lilly was beautiful and just as intelligent and helpful as Mine. I think you know exactly how lucky you were with her. In the beginning I had a crush on her myself and had always envied you, but in the end I allowed you to do it. But you were also a beautiful couple.It's hard to think about earlier because I miss you terribly. Somehow it's gotten so bleak and lonely without your encouraging words. You always gave me courage when I had problems at home and was completely exhausted myself.
Remus has changed too, he was a rather quiet boy at school, but now he's completely withdrawn. Only Snape stayed the same as it was then and to be honest, I'm quite happy about that.
Nevertheless, it is impossible not to think about my school days, everything reminds me, I am confronted with so many familiar situations here every day.
Malfoy lets go of another stupid line. His magic potion has become flawless. You can tell that Lucius is his father and Snape is his godfather. A disturbing notion that there is someone who personifies the worst of Malfoy and Snape. Do not you think? My side in Ron comes up again, because he almost jumped at Malfoy's throat, but Hermione and Harry can just hold him back.Just like with us back then.

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The most fun I have is watching my godson fly. In those moments, he is more like you than you can possibly imagine. With the same zeal, he chases the snitch. I am almost certain that in these minutes he will forget everything else around him. If you came from one of your games, you couldn't talk about anything else for hours. It could be pretty exhausting, but we were best friends, so I let you do the talking.
I flew too, do you remember? It was really an indescribable feeling and I miss it deeply. But here I see the resemblance to Ron again, because I was never really good at it. However, that was done away with with a bit of charm and the girls all stood in line anyway. But I never got to you in this regard. There wasn't a girl who wasn't into you, apart from Lilly.Strange that you two of all people got together then. It's exactly the same with Harry. The girls also run after him when he casually gets off his broom and strolls to the castle. It's just amazing how much he looks like you. Absolutely impossible not to think about you in his presence.

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It's 3:40 am, I just couldn't sleep, so I did my usual lap in the castle. You can guess three times who I just saw, sneaking away. Well, it's not that difficult. Your son just has too much of you and me. I sigh softly. I should be sounding the alarm now, after all, this is my job. But you don't seriously believe that I could ever betray Harry. After all, Malfoy is also preferred by the bat. Still, I want to know what he and Ron are up to and sneak quietly after them. The two disappear into the forbidden forest. Do you remember how often we were in there?Those are really nice memories that make me smile again. But if I think about it, something unforeseen has always happened. So I better hurry to come back afterwards.
I finally caught up with them. Took long enough too. I was right, a pretty angry centaur built up in front of them. They hate it when people venture into their territory. You and I have already felt that firsthand. Back when we were looking for Remus on the full moon, we also ran into one. I think we looked just as stupid as the two of them now, until Remus came in werewolf form and helped us. He had taken his medicine and was able to decide for himself what to do. Thank goodness, I would say.
I have to intervene here, after all, there is no werewolf at the moment ...

... Phew, that went well again. It was really exhausting.My breathing is fast and I carefully lick the open wounds clean. Suddenly a stabbing pain jerks through me and I jerk abruptly, but actually I should be used to pain from the last dark years. They are anything but new to me and yet you just never really get used to them.
Harry looked really worried, I think he has a pretty guilty conscience for dragging me into this. But you always had that when we took it too far and Lilly was angry. It could really knock us out. I'm really excited to see how Hermione will react when she finds out what the boys did. They can't hide it from her as well as that.


I think school was the best time of my life. There I had all my friends who completely accepted me and my whims. Above all, you always stood behind me, no matter what I had eaten up again.Before that, my mum always beat me up because I was the black sheep of the family. Can you imagine what a shitty feeling that was? But at school you always stood by me, I'll never forget that.
But what came after that was far worse ... Azkaban. I suffered and not because of the dementors or the terrible loneliness. No, I hadn't seen any meaning in life for a long time. Everything was over for me. You, my best friend, had just died, as had pretty Lilly. At that time it was already clear to me what a rat Wormtail really was. I blamed myself,