Chapter II: How To
[Takami Iyumi Centric]



I run through the alleys, she wanted to stop me, but I had to go to you. You weren't home, so I run around aimlessly with the thought of seeing you ... you got it all wrong ... I can still see your horrified face in front of me, how you yell at me, how the tears ran down you and you run away. At first I didn't really realize this, I was traumatized, wanted to see you, but you were gone ... Where are you? How could I be so stupid? I always wanted to be there to dry your tears and now I'm the one who makes you cry ...
I've known you for so long ... since elementary school ... was your best friend, was always there for you, and you were there for me when my mother died ... but I wanted to be alone, pushed you away from me. I was so busy with my own problems that I didn't notice the change. You were as always, but I didn't notice the sadness in your heart ... and then that evening, your mother called me where you were, I didn't know, went looking, found you at the bridge, where we often met.You were pale, just lying there with a smile on your face when a car came up to you. I ran, tore you away and took you in my arms. You told me everything at home. They had insulted you, hurt you, you saw no way out, you felt alone because you had stress with parents and your friends, and I was lost in thoughts. But when I held you in my arms, I knew I never want to see you cry again. I already knew then that I felt more than friendship for you, but I didn't want to admit it to myself ...
You had new courage to face life, every day you gave me my smile ... but now everything is different ...
I look around, where are you? Maybe ... at the bridge ... I hope I'm not too late ... at this thought my heart threatens to tear apart and my breathing becomes even shallower than it already is. My legs are almost numb, but I don't feel the cold, I keep walking through the rain ...
Why didn't I stop you?But you ... would you have believed me?
I was in town with a good friend of ours, she wanted to help me get together with you ... But she was sad, had just been abandoned ... by her boyfriend ... three years of relationship ... I took her in my arms and saw her comforting her on ... then you came ... added one and one, but wrong. You thought I wanted something from her, wouldn't love you, you threw all this at my head, wouldn't let you stop.
Followed you but I lost you Why did you say that? I love you more than anything! Did you never notice how I moved closer, how I smiled at you and my mood suddenly improved when you were with me? Probably yes ... but you are still too scared to confess your love ... if I could just turn back the time ... then everything would have been different ... I would have been more courageous ... and the couple of us, you love me too, I saw it in your eyes ...
Actually I should be sad or angry about your little trust in me, but I only feel pain and despair ... I don't want to lose you!I look around and support myself on the bridge railing, my legs can no longer buckle, every fiber of my body refuses to have to endure this pain any longer ... Cara ... Why?
I get up again, I am shaky on my feet, my pulse is racing when I see you, you are here ... I run towards you, laughing and crying at the same time and calling your name ... but ... what are you doing there, you are pretending to be on the railing, with outstretched arms and a smile on my face, I run faster and call you ... but don't notice me and let you fall ...
"Cara !!!!", but too late, your body falls, my fingernails dig into the balls of my hands, tears run down my face ... I can't believe it ... you are dead ... in front of my eyes ... You once said you would have the wish to die with me, if I was already too cowardly to confess my love to you, I will at least grant you this one wish. I stand on the railing with a view of the street below, I close my eyes, I jump ... and wait for redemption ...How it goes

I look at you and you are indescribably beautiful.
I could sit here forever and just look at you.
But suddenly you get up and you want to go.

Please don't go yet. I know it's getting late
I want to tell you something else, I just don't know how to do it.
Stay here a little longer and don't look at me like that
because otherwise I definitely can't say anything.

I don't know what's going on myself. My knees go weak.
It looks so simple in the movie, now I'm pale as a sheet.
I don’t know what to say. My God, now you're leaving.

Please don't go yet. Stay here a little longer.
I still have to tell you something, I just miss the words.
Please don't go yet. I know it's getting late
I want to tell you something else, I just don't know how to do it.

How it goes. How it goes.
How it goes. How it goes. How it goes.

I always thought it was easy.
I always thought that was not a problem.Now I'm sitting here like a rabbit in front of the snake.
And I feel paralyzed

I have to tell you, I just don't know how yet.
I have to tell you now or never.

Please don't go yet. It's best to never go.
I've told you so many times in mine
Fantasy. Stay here a little longer. Please don't go yet.
What I'm trying to tell you is - I love you.

I don't know how to do it. How it goes.
How it goes…



;;;; That was the second Kapi from the boy's point of view. How did you like it. I'm adding an epilogue to this. Then it is over. * Wants clerks * your Se-chan ;;;