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I got up slowly. It had come today, the day that 10 years ago the enmity between Suna and Konoha was closed. A day 10 years ago when the enemies became friends. Should change into eternal friendship at the eternal feud. The day we promised to stand up for the one. This promise had been in place for exactly 10 years. And it will always remain a promise among friends. Among two very different cities that became best friends because they complemented each other. Yes, that day had come today. The villagers of Suna, led by the very young Kazekages Gaara Sabakuno, would come to us in Konoha and celebrate with us there.
With my face still very sleepy, I slowly threw back the covers and staggered over to the roller shutter.When I pulled it up, the sun just shone towards me. But I would have preferred rain. But I couldn't change it, just like I couldn't change you, Sasuke. Yes, it was so long ago and you are still in my heart, even if I don't want it, it will probably be so forever. I had pushed you out of my memory and recovered from this endless suffering, but these wounds that you inflicted on me would probably never heal, Sasuke Uchiha.
With a slow step I went into the bathroom and got into the shower. Hot water pelted me. It made everything undone for a while, it made me forget everything. Unfortunately, this feeling couldn't last forever, because after I soaped my long, pink hair with shampoo and then rinsed it off again, I turned off the soothing jet of water. I just padded back to my room clothed with a towel, there I went to the closet and asked myself what I should wear.Unfortunately, nobody was able to help me with this decision, which is very important for us women. I remembered my mother and father again. They had been found dead after a mission about a year ago. In the forest of Konoha. At the time I thought I was going to die after the pain. First Sasuke left me, then Naruto for a while and now my parents had died. But as if by a miracle, all these years of pain only seemed to give me more strength. I had also gotten very strong in the meantime. Yes, and I certainly did not lack admirers. It was difficult enough to get through Konoha safely every day without dying of justified paranoia. But I didn't let anyone get close to me.
After long deliberation, I finally put on underwear, a pink frilled top with a lot of pink ribbons wrapped around my stomach, plus a black pleated skirt and pink stockings that went up to my knees and had fine flower ruffles at the end.Plus black boots. I applied a little kohl, mascara, and pink lip gloss. I divided my hair into two equally sized halves. I plaited a braid on both sides into which I had plaited several pink and black ribbons. My face was already hidden under a perfect mask. The residents of Suna were supposed to come around 11 a.m. when I checked my watch it was already 10.30 a.m. I went downstairs and grabbed an apple and then made my way to the Hokage. She had instructed all Anbus to be ready at her place at 10:45 am to greet the Suna residents.
When I finally stood at the door of the Hokage knocked, waited for the "in" and entered. To my astonishment, Naruto and Hinata, Ino and Kiba, Lee, Sai, Shikamaru and KAKASHI were already there. Tsunade gave me a friendly smile, and I joined the others, they had made themselves very chic, except for Lee, who was wearing his green "Martian costume" as Naruto always called it.I talked to Hinata and Ino, they told me that we only had to wait for Tenten and Neji. These also appeared after 5 minutes. We made our way to our city gate at a leisurely pace. After 15 minutes we could already see the first Suna residents and their headbands that flashed in the bright sun. At the beginning of the caravan were Gaara, Temari and Kankuro. When I saw Gaara again after a long time, I absolutely lost my spit. He had become a big, powerful Kazekages. His features had softened and his red hair shone in the sun. His turquoise eyes looked beautiful. I looked at him and had the feeling as if thousands and thousands of butterflies were fluttering against my abdominal wall. I skillfully suppressed this strange feeling of happiness and it went back just as quickly as it had come. When Temari saw Shikamaru she immediately ran faster and when she arrived she fell into his arms.Yes, everyone here was a happy couple, only I had no one. Nobody to catch me when I fall, nobody to be there when I'm on the ground, nobody to love me. I greeted Temari, Kankuro, Gaara and a few familiar faces with a sad smile. After everyone had finally arrived we all went to the huge market square of Konoha. This was beautifully decorated and had countless stalls of small and large. All restaurants in Konoha were open today. I went to a ramen stand with Temari, Shikamaru, Hinata, Naruto, Gaara, Kankuro and Sai after Naruto's eternal whining. Only Lee and Kakashi did not go. Lee wanted to look for Gai and Kakashi looked for a quiet place to continue reading his trash books.
When we were all seated and ordered, Gaara told what new things had happened in Suna. I stared at him the whole time while he was talking. He sat diagonally across from me. I thought about the strange feeling from before when the ramen came and everyone was busy eating.Naruto had ordered several bowls, of course. Even while we ate, Gaara continued to tell about Suna. Finally he asked what had happened in Konoha. Meanwhile, I looked out the window and thought about so many things.
"...... yes and in the meantime we are all Anbus. Sakura recently even passed a medic-nin exam and passed it brilliantly, she is now even better than Tsunade !!! Isn't it Sakura ???" Everyone turned u looked around, but I didn't even notice, I just looked out the window and thought about how I had felt earlier with Sasuke and whether that was the same feeling as when I saw Gaara again. Hinata, who saw next to me, suddenly pinched my thigh, I lost my thoughts and looked at her in shock but at the same time questioningly. "Sakura, didn't you hear us?" "What should I have heard?" I looked at her with no idea and only then noticed how everyone was staring at me with a grin.When I noticed that Gaara was also looking at me, I turned tomato red. "We were just talking about your medic-nin exam," Hinata told me. "Oh, those", it just came out of my mouth. "Like 'Oh she' ??? Was it that easy?" Asks Temari. I just shrugged. "I think I'll be a medic-nin too," Ino announced happily. Sai then asks if there are also male medic-nins. Kankuro agreed to Ino's proposal to become a medic-nin and said: "Well, I don't think it will be that difficult. The couple of Heiljutsus and such, is definitely totally easy. And if we need help, we just turn to Sakura. Well if she can keep up with us at all. I will definitely be able to do it better! "With a grin he turned to Sai and when Sai wanted to add his mustard, it was enough for me. I didn't know what I was saying and so I shouted: "Yes, if you need me I always have to be there, should give you help! But who was there when I needed you?Damn it, nobody !!! Am I actually only there to help you? And in case you want to know, Medic-nin is a fucking tough job and I don't think any of you will be able to do it in less than 3 years !!! "I got up furiously, slammed the money for the ramen on the table and ran out of the ramen stall. The others just looked after me with their mouths open.
I couldn't go on, why was I still here? Was everyone actually taking advantage of me? Was I really so weak that I just couldn't do anything? That I couldn't even see that I was actually only used by everyone and that I was actually worthless to them. If this was to be my ninja path, I refused to take it !! If that was it, I would end it. That was completely my decision now.
I ran along the streets, many people looked after me in amazement, I ran out of Konoha, ran through the forest until I finally arrived at a clearing.From here you could see all of Konoha. My legs gave way, I hit the floor a lot. The tears that had been suppressed for years now just came out of me. They rolled down my cheek, many on my skirt or on the ground. But I couldn't stop them. They just kept running. Nothing could stop them. Inside I felt pain that I hadn't felt for years, but now it had come again. Exhausted, I lay down on the sun-warmed earth. My eyes were already burning from all the tears. I thought back to the time with Sasuke, how cold he always was, oh how much I would wish to be like him. But that just doesn't work. I'm on my own, but I can no longer hold on to myself. I will fall

It starts with
One thing / I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhythm
To explain in due time
All I knowTime is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on / but didn't even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
And lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
One thing / I don't know why
Doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhythm
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me / I'm surprised
It got so (far)
Things aren't the way they were before
You