Translation
Brennender Schmerz & Endlose Liebe
Burning pain & endless love
Burning Pain & Endless Love
Born to suffer.
Born to cry
These words were breathed into my soul at the beginning of my existence.
As a child, I didn't understand the seriousness and pain of life, but that was soon to change.
It went well for a long time until a person came into my existence. She deceived me, promised me your warmth, but everything was just a lie ... School holidays were announced, the end of a false love, the beginning of pain and yet, the gateway to the future ...
Two Weeks… the first song by a musician that would only become better known later. The never published lyrics of the song contained the words of love for the wrong person, it was all just an illusion ...
The holidays were over and I was standing in the rain. Rain of sadness, "Was I just kidding? Was it all just a pretense?" The answer was yes, the beginning of the pain…. The realization made me feel feelings that I didn't want to feel.With lots of tears, sadness and pain, I lay down in my bed and fell asleep from exhaustion.
The dream, a dream that would change the future, but I didn't notice it until later. I ran through a house, because view clouded by the color of sadness. Pain and sadness were in my heart. Put your hand to your heart, put your crying body in a corner. Hours of tears passed, but the grief never ended. Suddenly something appeared behind my grieving body. A woman, an angel on earth. The woman, who had delicate skin, like the white blossoms of a cherry tree, caressed my back. The tears stopped. My head slowly rose so that I could see the woman's beautiful face. She had long brown hair, endless deep eyes, as beautiful as a lake in the moonlight and a smile that melted your heart. You were in my arms. I felt the warmth of love that emanated from her and the tears that ran down my cheeks.I woke up, yet I shouldn't know what effect the dream should have on my future ...
A week had passed since the pain began, but it was far from ending.
It went on like this for a long time, but it shouldn't get any better. The person with the branded soul of suffering was known. His name and reputation were found in four other villages. But he was not supposed to find friends through this, only enemies ... More sadness and pain developed.
Looked at the wrong star for the second time, and again raised my hopes. Another person entered the pain of himself. It took a long time to write until feelings formed on the fool's side, apparently so much that the other side noticed it. Dark clouds moved into the life of the alleged angel of hope and the fool was there for you. Exploited. As soon as the dark clouds cleared, contact was broken off. There was renewed grief and deep pain ... And this for more than a year ...The hope to find the great love was lost until this one day ...
It was a hot July day, the first to be precise. In the midst of many, I found my dream woman, but my love for her would only develop later. Long and a lot has been written. Feelings built up and suddenly there was the realization that she is my great love. It was a long time before we saw each other again, but then the time had come. "I have to tell you something." = PAUSE = "I ... I ... I fell totally in love with you". Said it softly and a little afraid of rejection from my mouth. "I am also in you". Spoke your sweet words to me and made me feel joy for the first time in years.
Everything started very shyly, right up to the first kiss. I've been in paradise for more than a year now.
After almost exactly seven months, I lay down on my bed, full of longing, and then the dream came back to me. Long brown hair, supple and soft like an angel's, eyes as deep and beautiful as a lake in the moonlight and skin as delicate as cherry blossoms.The dream clearly before your eyes again. She is it! She is my angel of love. Since that night I am more than 100% sure that I have found my great love.
Now I am faced with this situation again. My love is on vacation. Old feelings come up again. Feelings I don't want to feel anymore But this time I know that our love will survive, because our love is limitless, even if I miss you more than anything else in the world.
The holidays are over, the lovers together and everything is as it should be.
True love has won and pain has lost.
This short story is dedicated to Giuliana Kies.
The story is based on an incident.
Stories, explanations and examples correspond to reality and were not invented.