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“I'm with my grandmother and I'm waiting for you in our room, Kai, don't be afraid of it
everything will be fine trust me, '' said Ray quickly to Kai, the fearful look from Kai
before he walked through the door and disappeared into the darkness of the night ........


While the others went back
Kai and the senior elder talked.

"And how do you know all this now? ........" asked Kai, ................ I mean the things that happened in my past . ''

"You know Kai, I'm very old and that's why I know certain people, you only need to talk to some people to know how they feel because they don't have the strength to honestly maintain or build a facade, A good example is Tyson, you know that he always pretends to be carefree but in reality he has been thinking a lot since his parents died and is often lost in his thoughts because of that.Ray, on the other hand, is different again and he lost his parents who died in a landslide here in the mountains, but you have to take a closer look at Ray to know how he feels, of course you can do it with him too sometimes listen out but that is rather seldom because he has himself quite well under control, with Ray you have to pay more attention to the eyes, because they are the mirror to the soul and once you have understood how to read from them is the person, like an open book to you.
It's the same with you, with you you can't tell because you don't talk a lot, but I was also able to read from your eyes and thus understand you, but I have to admit that I had a lot of difficulties with you because you Apparently you have yourself very well under control, whereby the time in the abbey also plays a very large role, after all, you learned there that feelings make you weak and easily susceptible and that you can only become strong through hatred, that you also don't have any People are allowed to trust, because otherwise one will only be betrayed and left in the lurch.It's true that feelings like love or just friendship make you weak, but they can also give a person incredible powers that are even stronger than any hatred and contempt in the world. They can literally move mountains, especially the greatest of all feelings, Kai. Do you know what feeling i mean '' asked the elder.
Kai said yes, you mean love, don't you? ''

"Precisely love is the greatest and strongest of all feelings and even makes hate look weak ..........," said the latter with a smile, ........... Do you know how love is made Kai? '' asked the old man.

He just shook his head, no, I don't know. I was only shown how to tie up hatred, I don't know anything about love, I've never learned it for me love is just a word, '' he replied, slightly depressed.
° No, I have no idea what love is °

"That's not true, you've been loved too," the oldest said.Kai laughed scornfully at this statement, "Oh yes, when should that have been nice please?" God knows I can't remember ever having been loved by anyone, who did they say I was loved by? '' Kai wanted to know now, the old man's claim was just ridiculous, but the answer he got from the elder left a lump in Kai's throat.

“At that time you were loved by your parents or do you not remember it anymore? ''

But suddenly Kai remembered again, the old man was right, he was loved once and by his parents, whom he had missed so badly when he came to the abbey and who had cried for nights because of that, but he felt Cast all this out and he had forgotten this memory, had forgotten his parents.
Kai would have loved to beat himself up at that moment, how could you forget something like that? How could you forget your parents?"How could I forget something like that? '' he asked himself and at the same time gave the elders the answer to his question.

"It's not your fault Kai, the feeling was just driven out to forget at the same time. But now you know that you've been loved before, but you still don't know what the feeling is, do you? ''

"No not really elder," he replied.

"Just try to remember how you felt when you were hugged by your mother .............," said the oldest and seemed to have an effect, Kai concluded his eyes to be able to remember better, .................. remember Kai, how did you feel when you were hugged by your mother or father To comfort you when you were sad or to just show yourself that you are not alone and that you were loved. How did you feel? '' he asked in a soothing voice.

Kai opened his eyes and answered with a smile, "I felt happy, comfortable, secure and safe in the embrace of my parents."“Did you trust your parents Kai? ''

"Yes I did, you were the only one I ever trusted, elder," Kai replied truthfully.

,, And that is also the key Kai, the key to love is based on trust without trust you cannot love. Do you understand what I mean Kai? If you ever want to be happy again, you have to learn to trust again. Trust your teammates just as they do with you. ''

"I should trust you as soon as you do it with me," Kai repeated the sentence half present and half in thought.

,, Exactly Kai, but I think we should end our conversation now, it's gotten late and besides, Ray is waiting for you upstairs in his room and you don't want to keep him waiting too long, do you? After all, he's worried about you too. And think again about our conversation, it will help you to understand, but now good night Kai, '' said the elder for whom the conversation was a little exhausting."Yes, you are right, I'll let it go through my head again and thank you very much again, the conversation was good," said Kai and disappeared through the door that Ray had previously gone through.

"I was happy to do that, Kai, and you can always come back if you need advice," the old man called after him.


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What happened to Ray and the others when they got to Ray’s grandmother.

Ray was still worried about the Russian and didn't pay attention to Tyson complaining and grumbling about when it would finally be dinner, Ray and Max were already busy setting the table and Tyson could have helped, according to Ray, if he supposedly would be so hungry.
When everything was set, Tyson immediately rushed to the bread to smear them, etc. Ray, Max and Kenny finally got down to dinner before Tyson had eaten everything.Ray on the other hand also made two sandwiches for the Russian, who will definitely be hungry when he comes back.
Ray's grandmother ordered Tyson and Max to wash up and Kenny to dry off, while Ray went to his / her room with sandwiches for Kai.
Ray put the plate on the table and immediately went to the bathroom to wash and change.

Tyson and the others also went to the guest room after washing and drying off, where they slept, while Tyson complained on the way that it was unfair that Ray couldn't do anything because, according to Tyson, he just got away had crept.
Kenny and Max could only shake their heads.
When they got to their room they got ready for bed and then finally went to sleep.

Ray sat on his bed and waited impatiently for Kai.

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He entered the room cautiously, after all it could be that the Chinese were already asleep and didn't really want to wake him up.
But when he entered the room he saw that a small lamp was still burning and only dimly lit the room, but Kai could still see Ray who was sitting upright in bed and seemed to be waiting for him, as he had promised.

When Ray heard that Kai had entered the room he looked at Kai for a while, the Chinese immediately recognized what had happened to the Russian, but couldn't say what and therefore immediately discarded the thought.

"I put something to eat on the table for you, because you're sure to be hungry, right? '' asked Ray, who wasn't hoping for an answer from Kai, since he never got one, but this time the Chinese got one from his Russian.

"Thanks Ray, but I'll go wash first," and with that he disappeared into the bathroom, leaving a perplexed Chinese man behind.° Has Kai just answered me and thanked me, or did I just misheard? No, I certainly didn't, he thanked me, I can't believe whether that had something to do with the conversation with the elder? Ray asked himself but decided not to think about it any further.

Kai meanwhile washed himself and made his stripes off his face like every evening, // You have to imagine Kai without stripes on his face * swarm * then he would be even more attractive than he is ^^ // he Also changed in the bathroom to go to sleep after eating what Ray did for him. When he thought of Ray a slight smile flickered on his face, he didn't know why, but he felt somehow secure with Ray and he had the feeling that he could soon confide in the Chinese as soon as the oldest had advised him. ° Okay he didn't say who I could confide in, but Ray is the only one I'm starting to trust and not just since today.The others are actually okay too, if I think about it, but they're just a little childish, especially Tyson and they wouldn't understand me as well as Ray, but who says that Ray will understand me? Somehow I'm a little afraid to confide in someone, what if I'm just being taken advantage of again? ° Kai asked himself while he changed and went out of the bathroom.

Ray noticed immediately when the Russian came out of the bathroom that he was thinking about something, but decided not to ask.
° Maybe one day Kai would confide in me on his own and tell me what worries him so much. It is