~ Deidara ~

You are gone ...
And so is my hope.
Its not long ago…
But for me it's like forever ...
You said to me your art is eternal ...
You literally embodied her ..
But now I ask myself ...
Why you and not me ..
My art is for the moment ..
But I live ...
Your art was forever ..
But you are dead ..
Sometimes I look at the sky ...
Wonder again ..
Why you and not me ...
And as if you want to answer me ...
The wind blows around me
I still can not believe it…
That you just walked like that ...
Leaves me here alone ...
Before I can tell you ...
How much I love you..
I never dared ...
To confess my feelings to you.
Didn't want to be rejected ...
Now I think back ...
And ask me ...
How so..?
Now I'll never know ...
Do you feel the same ...
Or should I say felt ...?
Does it still make sense ...
To live…
Without you..
How should I smile ...
Let alone the laughWithout you..
Now I'm standing here in the dark ...
The abyss in front of me ...
And that thought again ...
When I jump ...
I am with you..
But something is holding me back ...
It seems to me that you want to tell me ...
That you don't want me to die
But should I continue to torture myself ...
Without you..
Should I cry ...
Alone…
Because you are no longer there ...
And comfort me ...
With a kind of ...
I don't understand ...
But love most about you for that ..
My feeling tells me yes ..
I live on for you ...
That nobody forgets you
In my hand I shape a bird ...
Let him soar to the sky.
To eternity ..
Let it explode ...
For the moment..
The moment the sky turns red ...
As red as your hair ...
Merges our art ..
One last look ..
I'll be back tomorrow ...
Having these thoughts again ...
And finally torment myself through the day ...
All for you ..
I still love you
Forever…Not for the moment ..
And one last time the wind blows through my hair ...
Whom we say goodbye ..

~ The End ~