So I'm happy that you are looking into my FF and I wish you a lot of fun….
Hope you like it. Doesn't want to bother you at all.
Oh yes, I almost forgot that ^^ ...
Well, I think the song goes very well with it, you can listen to it

http://www.youtube.com/watch? v = Y2lhkCQkhu8 & feature = related


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Love, sadness, hate. What does it all mean? What was the point?
It was just feelings! Shouldn't they influence and yet they did. Though she hadn't been around for what seemed like endless years. Inside her, her heart. They were there, deeply hidden. Feelings that shouldn't exist in your life. Feelings that only brought pain.
Yes, that they made you vulnerable, she had noticed early on. Memories of a time long past rose up in her again. A picture of helplessness.
She hadn't been able to help either of them. She had screamed, cried. But had it done anything, did it help? No, it didn't, otherwise they would still be with her now. Wouldn't stand here before this dark abyss that had become so familiar to her over the past few years. Who had destroyed her life!
She closed her eyes, the wind that came up, the rain that was getting heavier and heavier, she didn't notice any more. Only the abyss, the rock face, its end? Should it end now? Should it end like your friends? She found that she had not been alive for a long time. She had sealed herself off, let no one touch her, blocked everyone. It was better that way, now it wouldn't bother anyone anymore when she was gone. You wouldn't even notice, she was sure of that.
If only she knew how wrong she was.
If only she knew that her parents were sitting at home in front of their phones and waiting for the high-pitched ringing that would bring them out of this nightmare.The ringing which was the most important thing for her at that moment. But it would never come. Never sound, never get her out of this rigidity
The phone would stay silent and it would not ring, as usual, her daughter's voice telling them that she would be home soon.
Perhaps, like their daughter, they would fall into a helplessness from which they would no longer be able to get out on their own, but who knew?
The pain she had carried with her all these years. The burden that had always stood over her, no matter what she did or where she had gone, had to go.
How could she have allowed all of this? But now it was too late for doubt, for forgiveness, for anything!
It was no longer possible. She would not be able to take it any more years, days or even seconds, she was sure of that. It had to stop! It was unbearable.
Why was she still alive and her friends no longer?
Why were her friends dead and she alive?
Why was the world so unjust?

She was driving! She caused the accident and yet, she was alive. It was so unfair, everything! It was all her fault, she knew that. Even if no one else wanted to see it, it was her fault, she all alone.

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Loud laughter was listening. She and her friends had probably already drunk a lot, which was also reflected in her driving style. The car kept turning (swaying?) To the left or right. But none of its inmates cared, they didn't even notice.

Again she reached for the bottle of vodka that her boyfriend gave her with a (so atypical) grin (it depends on who you choose).
No matter what their behavior was at the moment, it would soon cost three of them their lives. They didn't care that they were playing with their lives and they didn't care that they were heading for a car.It just went unnoticed.

She looked back at the back seat. Her two passengers were already asleep. Didn't see her boyfriend grab her steering wheel to avoid the impact.
Didn't hear her start screaming.
Didn't hear how she was pushed out of the car or how the car drove towards the abyss.
She tried to help them run after them.
But it was too late! It didn't help any more.

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Darkness came slowly, covering the land with a coldness that reflected its innermost being.
Only isolated rays of sun penetrated her and she realized that it was the last time, the last time she would feel the sun on her skin, the warmth that emanated from her would never feel again, not anymore!
It would come to an end like everything else in her life and she too, like her friends, would never come back.
The pattering rain mixed with her rising tears, which ran faster and faster over her already pale skin.
In the past, the rain was her friend, like a big brother who wanted to protect her.
But now she knew better, he only hid the sadness, the desperation of the people and they didn't even notice it. Only when it was too late.

[b]LIVE
and you get hurt and hated
DIE
And you are loved and missed

She smiled sadly. How naive people were, they only noticed what real life was like when it was too late for them.

She felt like screaming and yet, at that moment no sound escaped her lips. She just stood there, overlooked by the world that had hurt her so much. She had long since lost hope that it would never get better!

It is said that time heals all wounds. But that's not true ... you only learn to live with pain.But was it really like that?
Could she live that long and would she forget this moment?
That one moment in her life.
But did she really want that?
Did she want to forget the last thought about her best friends?
Once more she closed her eyes and looked around. Looked again at the world she would be leaving in a few seconds. She bent down one last time and ran her hands over the already wet grass.
At that moment she felt so empty, so abandoned. But soon it would change. Soon she would be back with her friends, whom she had left exactly four years ago, would be happy with them in a better place.

She got up and looked at the abyss. Moved on step by step. Only a few more seconds and their suffering would be over, just a few more seconds and everything would finally be over.

She was getting closer and closer to the abyss. Only a few centimeters left.
The sky darkened, lightning flashed across the sky followed by the rumble of thunder. As if he wanted to stop her from doing it, but he couldn't either, nobody would.

The last thing you heard from her was the screaming that should have come from her lips hours ago. Which might have pointed out to others that she needed help.

She didn't feel the pain coming through her body in the impact. The only thing she noticed was the relieving feeling of liberation.
From a distance she could already see the light where she would soon be.
Saw her three friends stretching out their hands to her and smiling happily at her as if nothing had happened.

So that's how it should end. So it was meant for her and she was happy. After such a long time she was happy again at the thought of her friends.
Forgotten were the despair and the grief and forgotten were her parents and friends, what counted now was this moment.{i]You can shed tears because she left
or you can smile because she was alive.

You can close your eyes and pray
that she will come back
or you can open your eyes
and see what is left of her.

Your heart can be empty because you can no longer see them
or it's full of the love she shared with you.

You can turn your back on tomorrow and live in yesterday
or you can be grateful for tomorrow
just because you had yesterday.

All you can think about is that she is no longer there
or you can cherish the memories of her
and let them live on in you.

You can cry and close your mind
be empty and turn away
or you can do what she would like:
Smile, open your eyes, love
and carry on ...[/i]


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So now the first cape is gone and I have to say that I enjoyed it, even if it was sad.
I know it's not really the best, but I actually managed it pretty well for my circumstances.

HEAGGGDL your Niju