Why? Why now? Why do I have to think about it again? Ran wondered. She sat in her father's chair at the detective agency and looked outside. It was raining as if the sky had a hole and everything would break out now. So many thoughts, so many memories haunted her right now.
The girl lifted her legs and then hugged them. She wanted to forget, everything that had happened back then, she just wanted to forget. The memories should stay locked forever, yes, that would have been better.

It was her fault, her, just her all alone. The day it started, she blamed herself. The day had started so well. Together with Shinichi and Yukiko they had been to New York, it was an invitation and that day they wanted to go to the 'Golden Apple', the best theater in town, where the last performance of a special play was to be staged. And it was exactly then that she met her great idol: Sharon Vineyard, one of the best actresses in the whole world. The whole day had been so wonderful, but the mood was still gloomy.

[i]Is that just a saying or do you believe that there is a God? If there really was such a thing as a God, then surely all people who strive to do good in their lives should be happy or not? Unfortunately, that's not the case, I haven't been smiled at by any angel in my entire life ... never
That's what she said back then, those were Sharon Vineyard's exact words, and at first Ran hadn't understood them. Never smiled at an angel before, there was no God, these words still echoed in her head over and over again. Ran hardly knew what to do next, she didn't know why Sharon had reacted like that, but then she found out from Yukiko that the blonde actress never had it easy.
Ran was immediately saddened and wanted to apologize, but only then did she notice the sadness of Sharon's words and her eyes.But Ran hadn't had time to ask or say anything more.
The girl also had to remember what had happened to Sharon in life, on the day her first movie was shown in the cinemas, her parents died, on her first Oscar, her husband and daughter died ... Chris, she dressed up himself at the grave as Sharon's husband. That was the point in time when Chris and Sharon no longer saw each other and also no longer had any contact with each other.
Ran became sad, even if she thought about it now, her mood had been clouded and it was probably a good thing that she was home alone now.

Kogoro, he had been to a small bar again and got drunk. He always did that and it was getting on the girl's nerves, but she couldn't stop him. Not even Eri, her mother, had made it and now the two had been separated for so long. Inside, Ran hoped that the two of them would get back together someday, a real family, she wanted that again. But as it was now, she had to live. With her father and without her mother, luckily she still had little Conan, he had been a sunshine and helped her over Shinichi's disappearance. Still, she waited for a message from her sandbox friend every day and night.
Friendship, it was much more than that, she loved him, how much she loved him, only she didn't dare tell him. She was afraid, afraid of rejection and also afraid that he would laugh at her if he heard it. With Conan, with the little one, she could talk about anything and he already knew what feelings Ran had for her boyfriend. The little one just had to promise that he wouldn't tell Shinichi. This secret must never come to light.
Conan hadn't been there today, he stayed with Professor Agasa and wanted to play a little computer games there with Ai, at least that's what he had said and in the background she could hear the Detective Boys playing the game.Ran didn't mind if Conan stayed with Agasa again, he did that often, far too often lately and most of the time he didn't even wait to see if she would say yes or no. The kid really had a mind of his own and sometimes Ran wondered if it was because he spent so much time with Kogoro trying to help him with the cases. Actually, she should have known this from the beginning, after all, Conan was also related to Professor Agasa around several corners and, as a researcher, he hadn't fallen on his head either. It had been clear to her that Conan also knew a lot, as the two of them spent a lot of time together again and again. Conan, the little boy she'd met at Shinichi's mansion while looking for the big one. She still knew it like then.

The little one was hiding and only after closer inquiries did she discover him. He looked so cute and sweet, which she told him too. Immediately she wanted to know his name and it came out Conan Edogawa, a very mysterious name, especially Conan. Conan, was not a typical Japanese name, but the bran explained it with the fact that his parents were fans of Arthur Conan Doyle and therefore choose this first name. Just at this thought Ran had to smile, she would never have thought it possible that there were other people who were such fans of the writer.
Immediately she agreed that the little one could live with them, now actually she had said that she would ask her father, but she had been clear that he would certainly not say no if she came up with strong arguments. And she had been lucky since Conan was there, her father got a case and was able to solve it successfully, so nothing stood in the way of living with the little one.

He reminded her of Shinichi. Not only the looks, but also the actions of the two were almost identical.Conan really reminded her of Shinichi. It was almost as if she would see her boyfriend in Conan if she just looked at him. Outside of the fact that Conan wore glasses was hardly anything else. She had met him when he wore the same clothes as Shinichi in childhood. This was her first shock, the first one she got, but then she found out that Shinichi and Conan were related to each other over some many corners, which she couldn't believe, but then did.
Over time, she began to notice even more similarities; Conan played soccer, just like Shinichi. It was nothing special for a little boy to play soccer, but both had the same technique and had a good feel for the ball. And otherwise, otherwise they were similar in their expression, they clearly mostly used the same choice of words, the same empty phrases and their actions in the cases were also corresponding.
What also struck her was the fact that Conan knew Sir Arthur Conan Doyle's Sherlock Holmes well. This was something special, as the little one was just 7 years old and no child could have read the author's works.

Ran startled, again she had terrible suspicions.Shinichi and Conan, they are, they are the same person, the girl said to herself, but then shook her head. It couldn't be, it was far too unrealistic. How should it go? Shinichi and Conan, they couldn't be the same person, there were many reasons against it.
And when Ran thought more carefully, she also remembered the many encounters where she saw Shinichi. Each time Conan was there too, so it was impossible that the two were one and the same person. But then it fell like scales from her eyes. At the first encounter, Heiji had been there, first he had disguised himself as Shinichi and was then exposed by Kazuha.But then, then the real Shinichi showed up.

Ran ran his hands through his hair. It couldn't be, it couldn't be.
It was just thoughts, thoughts that made their way into her and not just since today. She often had it, but never wanted it to be true. The girl shook her head. It was impossible.

There is no God, she heard a familiar voice say. Almost panicked, the girl looked around. She was alone, no one could have said it, and yet it was so real. She stopped, she stopped worrying about Conan and Shinichi and thought again about what had happened back then in the States. Again and again, she couldn't do anything else.
Back then, during the tour of the stage, shiny metal armor fell from top to bottom. They fled, but one person did not come with them. It was Rose, whose dress was tangled. She almost got killed, almost, but Ran wouldn't let her. She dived back and was able to save the young actress. They were lucky, very lucky, because nothing had happened to anyone.
Almost none. Ran had injured himself, it was only a small wound, a graze, but this gave Sharon the reason to talk again about the fact that there was no God.

There is no God, otherwise he would not have let the Savior get hurt.
Sharon's words, they were still as clear as if she had just spoken them. Ran didn't know what to do next, was there really no god, were they all just figments? That couldn't be, there was a God, Ran was sure of that. There had to be one, otherwise there wouldn't be so much life in the world. And yet, even if she told herself that, she wasn't sure anymore. Sharon had unsettled her with her words, the woman had made it. Ran didn't know what to do next. She no longer knew what was true and what to believe in.Sharon Vineyard, however, knew exactly what to believe in. She didn't believe in any god, he didn't exist, otherwise he would have prevented the many wars, the many sufferings of people, which he certainly hadn't done. He would rather let it happen and let people solve their problems by themselves. And that's exactly what she reproached him for. People are weak, they act according to their feelings, their emotions and what happens to them. Alone they were weak, they needed someone to guide them and it was wrong to think that it was someone else. No, no one could guide anyone and if they did, it ended in chaos and this more than once. Even in history, people died because they did what they thought, acted according to their emotions, when they were all the same and remembered that there was a God, a God who would punish them for their bad deeds and for theirs would reward good deeds.
But that wasn't the case, the blonde actress knew that. She had experienced a lot in return to believe that there was a God who