So people there is a new Kapi hope of course you like it;)

BUT: if I don't get any commis again (thx again to name: - *) this will be the last one !!!!
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"What did he mean by that?"

I looked briefly at Suigetsu.

We'd been traveling for a while and if Sakura hadn't moved we'd be there soon.

"Sasuke, what did he mean by that?"

He was irritable, it might be better to just tell him.


"If we are unlucky, we will die for nothing."

I knew we would die no matter how it turned out, and they knew it too. It had often made me wonder why they helped me anyway.

They owed me nothing, hardly knew me, and yet they trusted me and accepted their deaths.

Or maybe they just hoped that the hopeless escape attempt would work. But right now I doubted that we would even live long enough to do it.

"Then let's hope thatyour little onebrings us luck."

I gave him a quick look. That should be enough. Why did that idiot always have to call her my little one?

She hated me anyway. After what Kakashi said it became more and more likely.

She probably won't even care that I loved her. I missed my chance.

"Come on Uchiha, that'll be fine.Your little one... um ... Sakura will definitely be happy to see you."

We hope so. Even if I think it's pretty unlikely. Why should she? I just left it there. I shook my head. Why did I have to think about it again and again? I knew beforehand that it would come like this. Maybe I'm just scared again.

"Um Sasuke? I think we're there."

At first I hadn't even noticed that he had stopped.

But he was right. We were there. This is where she livedMeine- "So this is where your little one lives" It's a shame that looks couldn't kill.He gave me a friendly pat on the shoulder.

"See it positively: We'll die anyway."

Yes, for once he was right.

I walked slowly towards the door. I was sick, scared, and my hands were shaking too. Actually I didn't care, but lately I have realized far too often that the proud Uchiha had become a pathetic failure ...

I took another deep breath, then raised my hand and knocked on the door. I knew it was mad, but somehow I hoped she wasn't asleep yet. I didn't want to wake her up.

It looked like I was"lucky"She hadn't slept, otherwise she wouldn't have opened the door so quickly.

Before I could even really register that she was standing there, she had slammed the door. I had expected a lot, but I didn't expect this greeting after all.

"Um Sasuke? Maybe I should go to Naruto already ..."

"Yes, you are probably right." I pressed the map into his hand on which I had marked the apartments. Orochimaru gave them to me before I left. As if I needed a map of my old home. But well, now it was quite useful after all.

Suigetsu had just left when Sakura opened the door again.

"Sasuke ...?!"

I just loved her voice. Maybe it was over the top, but somehow it calmed me down.

Sakura had become more feminine in recent years.

Well, I still thought she was very pretty. And again this hatred came up in me. The hatred of myself. Why did I realize that I loved her much too late?

"Sakura, ... I -"

"What do you want here?"

Okay, she hated me. Somehow she reminded me of Tsunade. She had recovered really quickly ...

What did I expect? That she would lose my way? I was hoping. And that realization hit me like a blow.I was really naive. I would have loved to run away now, crawl into a corner and cry. As befits a pathetic failure ...

"I know I'm not wanted here. But I have to talk to you."

"For once you're right ... But come in."

She moved to the side and I entered the house. Why did she have to be so painfully direct?

She went into the living room and I followed her. She sat on the sofa and just looked at me for a while.

I really couldn't have said how she thought of me. It was clear from what she said that she hated me ... at least she wasn't thrilled to see me here. But what she was doing contradicted that. She gave me the chance to talk to her. I really should stop wishful thinking, but it could be that her mind said something different than her heart. It was much more likely, however, that I would get false hopes again. "Have a seat," she said finally, tearing me out of my thoughts. somehow this has happened to me far too often since I was back here. I just nodded and sat down on the other end of the sofa. I just hoped she wouldn't take it as an insult, but that way it was easier for me and I think she preferred it too ...

"So why are you here?"

Maybe I was just imagining it, but it sounded ... well ... softer than before. I was really miserable had planned everything, but I never thought about how I would explain everything to Sakura. Actually, I suppressed the thought of it as much as possible.

"Do you want to know everything or just hear the short form"

No, I wasn't pathetic, I was stupid and, in a way, a coward too.

"Would you tell me everything?" I just looked at her for a moment.

“Well, I'm here because I want to warn you, among other things. Orochimaru will attack the village in two days.He really wants to prevent me from betraying him. "

I waited a moment. Sakura just nodded, at least she had understood everything up to this point.

"I want to prevent you from suffering even more because of my mistakes. I know I can't make it up to you and you won't forgive me for anything ... but I just want to protect you. Especially you."

"Me?"

I looked away from her.

Yes, it was she that I wanted to protect, I wanted to apologize to her, I wanted her to forgive me for still feeling something for me. I just loved her. Yet that didn't justify my selfish desires. I didn't deserve it. I would disappoint her again, like hurt her again, and I just didn't want that.

"Sasuke are you all right?" I looked at her questioningly ... only now did I notice that my head was resting on my hands and that it looked pretty exhausted.

"No ... nothing's okay. I betrayed you and hurt you just because of that shitty revenge ... and now I only have a few days ... and I can't even protect myself because Tsunade doesn't believe me and you hate me. I know I screwed up, made way too many mistakes, but what else am I supposed to lose? ... "

Great ... why now? Why did I have to lose control now of all times? Anyway, I had to hold back those damn tears.

"So you've changed your mind about me ?!"

"Youyouraboutmetoo."

Why did this knowledge have to hurt so much? Slowly I understood how Sakura had been back then. "And that's why you want to protect me?"

And why did she ignore my rush comment? Slowly I no longer understood her.

"Yes ... Orochimaru will kill me after this action anyway, but I just don't want you to suffer any more because of me."

"and you don't want to die with the feeling that you can't protect people you love."I just nodded. What else should I say? Yes, I'm a sorry failure, thanks for reminding me,or what?"

"I'm sorry Sasuke, but you don't need to protect me."

"Why?"

"Sasuke, I'm not a little girl anymore. I can take care of myself. Besides ... you are pretty much the last one I would let myself be protected by. I think you should go now ... I'm sorry." " No ... I'm sorry. "I didn't care about my self-control right now and even if I had wanted to, I wouldn't stop the tears anymore. Then she just saw that I was crying. She thought I was a failure anyway.

I looked away from her, got up and left. I closed the door behind me and wiped the tears from my face.
So then we died in vain ...