The school bell rings. The long-awaited vacation is finally beginning. All students run towards the door. I run down the hall and to the exit. A lot of thoughts gathered in my head. Akira. Did I finally find a good friend? You couldn't really say that I have friends. And all because of my father. He thinks they are not a good company for me. In any case, I will visit Akira tonight. After all, I can't just leave it where it is.

When I got to my house, I looked paralyzed at the door. Fervently hoped my father wasn't home. There would certainly be trouble again. After the performance this morning, I am not surprised. I took the key from my jacket pocket and opened the door. Once inside, I closed it and took off my clothes. "There you are! Why did you run away this morning?" I turned around quickly and looked into my father's angry face. "E-I'm ... I'm sorry." I'm sorry? Definitely not, but I couldn't rub that under his nose. He pushed me against the wall with force. A gasp on my part, followed by a shrill scream as I felt his fist on the left side of my face. So hard that I fell to the ground Shocked, I lay on the floor, crying and shaking terribly. It doesn't happen every day to get a fist in the face. And then from his father. "You naughty brat! I wish you were never born!" Slowly I rioted again and looked at my father. "I hate you!" I yelled and ran into my room, then bolted the door behind me.

I lay down on my bed and cried, cried and cried like I used to always do when no one could hear or see me. I was angry, sad and desperate all at the same time. Why does this have to happen to me of all people? Maybe my father is right.If only I wasn't born But ... I really didn't know what was right and wrong at the moment. Why do I have no one to comfort me, take me in their arms and say that everything will be fine again? Why does nobody want me?

I lay on my bed for a few more hours and looked thoughtfully at the blanket. Keep asking myself what I was doing wrong until I realized it was getting late. I wanted to see Akira. I also stood cautiously and put my hand to my head. Pain. I slowly opened the door and ran down the stairs.
"Hey! Where are you going to go so late?" I dropped a shoe in shock. Because I was by no means prepared for that. "I'll talk to you. Please answer!" - "To ... a ... friend." I said with a broken voice. "Friend? Did I let you do that?" I shook my head. "Right back up to your room, but Dalli, before I forget myself. I undressed again and ran into my room, closing the door behind me to be on the safe side.
Akira is definitely waiting for me and I couldn't even tell him.

"Akira .." I whispered in the silence and closed my eyes. How much would I like to be with him now? I felt so good around him. I haven't had this feeling in months. I knew that only he could make me feel that way. All of this may sound stupid, after all, I don't really know him.
I lay down and closed my eyes. “Akira.” My tears only subsided when I slowly disappeared into the land of dreams.