Even then, the day started cloudy. No sunlight filled the surfaces here and no bird twittered happily. The noise of the cars penetrated this far. I myself lay here and thought of no harm. How then? In my mind's eye, I saw you. Your golden eyes ... your white hair ... your ears ... your voice ... just everything about you.

I woke up especially early this morning. I looked around sleepily, everything in me was empty. It took me a while to realize that I had just dreamed it all. After all, you couldn't possibly be here. A sigh slipped from my lips.

Now it was clear to me again what I wanted here. Why i was here I still remembered the argument very well. And again it was an argument I didn't want. I sighed again as I slowly straightened up. Everything in my head was still empty and I could still feel quite a cold in me. You were so mad at me. I've never seen you like this before. I shivered briefly at the memory, before I slowly got up and left my warm bed.

Slowly and with shuffling steps I reached the bathroom. I picked up my toothbrush while looking at myself in the mirror. I looked really terrible today. Shaggy hair, dark circles around the eyes and a pale face. Plus reddened eyes that just shed too many tears last night. I really looked horrible. No wonder, since I slept more badly than right. Did I always look that bad? Every time after an argument?

After brushing my teeth, I picked up the nearest comb and combed my long, black hair while still looking in the mirror. I met two fawn-brown eyes filled with sadness. My eyes. I knew it couldn't go on like this. I've been through this too many times.Constantly this quarrel, constant flight here, constant reconciliation afterwards. I knew I had to make up with him this time too. And I would do it again this time too. Then all quarrel would be forgotten and we could continue to be together ... at least that's what I thought! How stupid I was ...
I left the house early. I had put on my clothes very carefully. It was the same uniform as usual. In doing so, it was gradually becoming too small for me. Still, I didn't want to do without this uniform. I only wore them almost exclusively. My legs carried me quickly, although I was a little slower than usual. The weight of the backpack was still bothering me even now. But that shouldn't bother me. After all, I always carried that around with me.

I quickly opened the doors of the little house and looked at the fountain in front of me. My goal. After closing the doors behind me, I started moving. Slowly and deliberately I went down the individual steps of the small staircase, which creaked loudly. It went on like this until I finally stood in front of the fountain itself. Determined, but also a little hesitant, I looked down. I didn't know what to expect this time and how your mood was right now. But I knew I had to go to you I just wanted to see you. So I jumped.

After the light that had been surrounding me up until now had disappeared, I climbed out of the well again. There was forest everywhere, fresh green and a blue sky. At least there should be a blue sky here. But the weather seemed to be pretty bad here too, because dark clouds were gathering here too. Still, I put on my backpack undeterred and started slowly but purposefully. After all, I wanted to go to the village before another storm hit. But the weather wasn't on my side, because the first drops were already falling to the ground, which developed into heavy rain within minutes.I had no choice. I quickly stood under the nearest tree to avoid getting wet. That this had to happen today of all times. But today I wanted to make up with you ... A lightning bolt startled me and I decided that it was not a good idea to continue standing under this tree. I went on quickly, always in the direction of the village. I struggled through the thicket of the forest and every now and then I even got a scratch. I was about to curse when I suddenly discovered the tree. The tree where I once met you. I didn't know why right now, but suddenly I felt the need to go to the tree. Especially after our argument today ...
I had just taken a few steps when I froze. Everything in me constricted and for a brief moment I even forgot to breathe. Because there, right by our tree, you stood, completely soaked. You and her! I hesitated for a moment. Should I turn around now and go back home? Or should I stay here? I spontaneously decided to stay. You didn't seem to have noticed my presence yet, you were just busy with her. The woman you once loved ... until today. You two must have sought protection from the rain, which is why you stood under this tree. You even gave her your top so she wouldn't get too wet.

I suddenly felt angry. How could you? So you still hadn't changed! In fact, I had almost raised my hopes because you hadn't run after her lately. But it was probably a mistake. You just love her. I just turned around, I couldn't stand the sight anymore, as you two are continuing your conversation. I didn't want to overhear the conversation. Until suddenly I hear you talking about me.

Irritated, I stopped and turned around when you and she suddenly talked about me.Suddenly I wanted to keep listening to everything. Now I could see you pulling something out. The Shikon no Tama. That Shikon no Tama that we finally have complete after the death of our enemy. For a moment I was amazed and horrified. Did you want to give her the Shikon no Tama? But why? You wanted to become a person with it! Why?

I was just thinking that you would give her the Shikon no Tama and was ready to go back home when I stopped. Suddenly you had the Shikon no Tama back in your coat. Didn't you want to give it to her at all? But then suddenly I hear you say something to her. I listened intently. And I thought I couldn't believe my ears ...

You suddenly told her, the woman who once banned you, who died for you and who still loved you, about me. I heard you tell her about our plans. That you would use the Shikon no Tama. That you'd become human That you'd live with me And with every word I said more and more, I thought I was dreaming. You ... wanted to be with me? With me?!

I turned away in disbelief, no longer looked at you two. I held my hand over my mouth while individual tears ran down my cheeks and stole my view. You chose me! You wanted to live with me! You love Me! For a brief moment I thought it was almost a dream. But it wasn't. This ... was much nicer!
Suddenly a scream echoed through the entire forest. Every limb winced, every fiber of my body froze and I gasped in shock when I realized that this scream was yours. I got up hastily, came out from behind the tree I was hiding behind ... and froze. My eyes were wide open and my body was shaking inexorably. No...She was standing right in front of my eyes. The woman you loved and whom you had just turned away for good ... with a knife in her hand. And you were lying right at her feet. Completely motionless. And your blood everywhere. Horrified, I put my hands over my mouth while I looked at you in horror. No ... No ... No ... That couldn't be! Why? Why?!?

I asked the same question. Desperate and almost hysterical, I yelled at the woman in front of me. The woman who did this to you. The woman you loved The woman who always wanted you dead. And she smiled bitterly when she looked at me. And then she said something to me. And I shivered when I heard that. She said that sooner or later you would have died anyway and that it was your wish to follow her into death ...

I shook my head. That was not true! You wanted to live with me, to be happy with me! It was not your wish to follow her to death! It wasn't that! I told her that too ... and again she smiled bitterly. And then she said one last sentence. I don't have the right to live with you. I didn't belong in this world, any more than she belonged in this world. That's why she would have killed you!

I stood there in astonishment, wanted to say something else, to reply something. But I can't get around to it because the woman in front of me suddenly pointed her knife at herself. And before I could do anything, she'd wiped out her own life ...

I couldn't do anything anymore. Tell me, was that your wish? Was it her wish to die with you? Or could she just not stand that you chose me and wanted revenge for it? I did not know it! And I didn't ask myself the question either! In my head everything was empty ... And so I ran away, forgetting everything ... You ... You ... Our dreams ... I just wanted to forget everything ... Forever ...