It's been an hour now ... I'm sitting here under some bridge and I feel so empty ... I don't know exactly where I am, and I don't care. I just wanted to leave. You looked at me so weird. I didn't want to wait for your answer anymore. Was it a shock for you? I thought you were my best friend to whom I could trust everything. But when I told you, you looked at me ... blankly, as if you didn't care. Why are you doing this to me? Do i deserve this? Yes, probably already ... It's my own fault, why did I have to tell you about it? You sure hate me now.

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"Sasuke ..."
"Hm?"
I hesitated. It really cost me a lot of effort to do what I had resolved to do: "I ... want to tell you something ..." He raised his eyebrows and looked at me piercingly. My tone sounded really very serious, what was he thinking, what I would tell him now? Surely he had no idea what to expect. He didn't answer, but his look said it all. He wanted me to keep talking. I swallowed. My hands were shaking slightly, I was scared. Afraid of his reaction. What would he say? Would he laugh at me? Or would he understand? But I couldn't know all of that until after I told him. I took a deep breath.
"Listen, I just want you to know: I -"
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Tears are starting to roll down my cheeks. Why, why? Why does this always happen to me? When I found out, it was a shock to me. Why did I have to tell you about it and shock you with it? You don't want to be my friend anymore. It's starting to rain. Sure, why not? I'm not shitty enough already. Now I'm getting cold too, the wind carries the rain under the bridge too. I pull my knees closer to my body and wrap my arms around them so that I don't get cold too quickly. I close my eyes and put my head in my arms. I'm waiting…
And wait ... what exactly? For better weather? I can wait a long time, the weather is getting worse because it's October and winter is approaching. What am I waiting for then? To the fact that you will find me someday and express your opinion openly in my face? No thanks. Why should you even find me, you're definitely not even looking for me. If you don't look, you won't find. So what am I waiting for then? Do you want me to freeze to death? Most likely. Then at least I'll die before the most important person in my life breaks my friendship. Yeah, I could live with that ... die, mine. Oh what nonsense. I'm not dying from a little cold! What a cold actually, it's not cold anymore. Something warm has settled on my shoulder.I look up and see - you! My heart contracts suddenly, I squint, I'm so afraid of what you could do with a few words. But something makes me slowly open my eyes again. Your look was funny. Not like before. Not so expressionless. He was radiating something like ... warmth ?? My eyes are fully open, I look up at you carefully. You're smiling. How sweet! Adults always say "cute" when children smile, but your smile is definitely the cutest smile I've ever seen. And besides, we are no longer children. After all, I'll soon be 9 years old, and already you are. You take a breath, I hold it.
"That's not so bad. It was just a test, not even a class test! If you make an effort and write a 1 in the next class test, then no one will notice from your final grade that you have once written a 6 in math has."
I breathe a sigh of relief. You are so kind! I thought you would be totally shocked because you are such a model student and your parents also insist that you only have contact with good students.
Yes, today I couldn't tell you ... I was just too scared for it and maybe it was much too early for something like that ... But at some point I'll tell you, I promise ...!