My heart was pounding like I'd been running for hours. My whole body is shaking. Even though it was almost 40C, I felt like I was about to freeze to death. The shock was deep on my neck. I could hardly stand, let alone walk. I faced my husband. Unable to speak a word to him. I was barely able to look at him. That was how deep the shock was. I couldn't think right one more time. I didn't know what yesterday was anymore. I didn't even know my name. Somehow I managed to turn around, just turn my back on him. I ran down the little hill to the house. I didn't turn around. Didn't look back. I just had to go into the house. In my room, to be alone. It was early in the morning, but I felt like I had been awake for hours. I found it difficult to calm down. I turned from one side to the other. Every few seconds I rolled from left to right. After a long while I fell asleep. My sleep was restless. In my pictorial eye I saw the whole thing happening once more, from just now. My husband as he stood in front of me. How he took my hand, looked into my eyes and said he was leaving me. I heard him say it was just his EX. I remembered her coming 4 months after we got married and telling us that she was expecting a child. My husband and I were shocked. The relationship between the two had been nine months. And she came to us only 2 days before the birth to tell us about the baby. And now, three days after the birth of his son, he is leaving me to be there for the baby.