For some time now I've been sitting by my orange trees and staring in front of me. I don't know why or even come up with a solution. I also know that others are worried about me, but I can't do anything because I don't understand myself. I sighed in resignation and closed my eyes for a brief moment.
> SHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNKKKKKKKKKKKKSSSSSSSSSSSS !! Because of this scream I fell from the bench on which I was sitting before and now lay on the floor. A huge vein was already pounding on my forehead, just waiting to burst. Furious, I stomped up and ran angrily towards Luffy. He was talking to Shanks, who was sailing alongside ours with his ship. I stopped behind Luffy, with a sign I indicated to Shanks that he should be quiet. Since the two laugh at something funny, this grin was not noticed.
> RUUUUFFFFFYYYYYY YOU BRANAMOTATED FULL POST SCREAMS DON'T LIKE IT, YOU CAN ALSO WELCOME SHANKS? EN.
Because of my screaming he turned around anxiously and already it was hailing a lot of nuts in the head. With a bumpy head, I ran to my orange ones and mumbled curses to myself. Again I sat on the bench, staring into nothing, and completely ignored my surroundings. Since I've been so withdrawn, I don't really eat much or even show up to eat. For a few weeks now I've just been different. I can't dream, I can sleep
not me. The only thing I can do is draw maps and navigate. It really is a hair puller, this uncertainty is still bothering me. I put my hands in front of my face and, as always, I think about it. Again and again I look for the reason for my behavior, but nowhere can I find a suitable excuse.

Since we met Falcon Eye 3 months ago and shortly afterwards we were on Fishman Island, I've been pushing this panic. My eyes widened when I discovered why.
// ARLONG !!! // echoed it in my head.
I didn't tell anyone that I saw him. I was lucky at all
that he didn't discover me. If that had happened, I'd be fish food by now. I finally have the reason for my emptiness. It's Arlong again. But how did he get into the Grand Line? Wasn't he captured by the Navy or did he and his crew flee? My expression turned dark and if you looked closer,
one could discover my despair.
> Namie sweetheart, I made you a fruit drink. When I looked up, he was dancing around me as always in love. Thankfully, I accepted the drink and shortly afterwards it disappeared, as always, with sweet eyes. I don't even know how he tries again and again to win me over. Sighing, I took a sip and then placed the drink on the bench next to me. A quick look at the lockpot told me that we are correct as always.The next island would be a spring island, famous for its sakura trees. When we get there, we definitely need to replenish our supplies.

For a long time I had planned so much in advance, but sometimes it held
I don't care. Somehow the map drawing is the only thing
what I was really still doing. Lost in thought, I ran into my room with my drink. Ignoring the fact that Luffy and Shanks were staring at me in confusion. I don't care, the idiots should do whatever they want. Somehow I don't care. Arrived in my room
I put my drink on my table and sat on my bed. In front of me was the picture of Bellmere and Nojiko. Beside it was still
a picture with Genzo and me. It was done just before Arlong showed up. a shiver made my neck hairs stand up when I did
thought of Arlong again. God damn it can this never stop ??

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Furious, I grabbed my drink and threw it on the door. Exactly at that moment Franky appeared and so he got my drink right in the face.
> Oh god Franky, you can't knock. But still I am sorry. I said, startled.
I got a cloth and gave it to Franky so that he can wipe off some of the drink.
> I should get you since the meal is ready. But it seems to me that you are very busy right now. he said with a sigh. > I'm really terribly sorry. But please tell Sanji that I'm not hungry. I said softly. > Again ?? So slowly you should
you really eat something again. You are still losing weight here when. Do you want Chopper to examine you? he said seriously. > What ?? No no, I'm fine. But please go and eat something. Give my portion to Luffy or whoever if you want. I said defensively.

Grumbling, he finally left and left me alone with my thoughts. The hair on the back of my neck is still raised at the thought of Arlong. His repulsive and, above all, sneaky laugh keep in my head. Everything I was allowed to take part in back then ran like a film in front of my eyes.


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By the others:

Franky stepped into the galley and all heads shot toward the door. But when Franky entered the galley alone without Nami, everyone bowed their heads.
> Again? What do you think? Shanks asked confused.
Everyone looked at Shanks and sighed silently together.
> For 3 months, Nami has been acting strangely. She is withdrawn and always looks into emptiness. We don't know what's going on in her or what she's thinking about. She used to eat with us or laugh with us. But she eats very rarely and looks accordingly. Robin explained seriously.
Shanks glanced at each one of them in confusion and frowned thoughtfully.
> This is really strange. Apparently something happened 3 months ago that is causing her headache.
At Nami:

I recently slipped down the wall and stared out the porthole at the blue sky. Sighing, I finally left mine
Room and ran up the stairs. On deck I looked thoughtfully at the sky. A strange feeling creeps up on me. My left hand automatically wanders to my heart and I trembled at this feeling.
// Arlong, Genzo, Nojiko // I thought confused.
Once again these names covered my mind. When I heard the name Arlong, I felt sick like never before. With a blank look I ran to the ship blank and at that very moment the bird came flying. The time lands on the floor next to me and when I picked it up, a leaf slipped out. I picked it up with a frown, but at the same time my eyes widened. My body
trembled at the sheet.

Latest news from the East Blue. Arlong and his gang fled the Navy and are now on the Grand Line. So be careful
and stay away from the fish man island.

My breath rattled and at the same time it stopped me. My heart beat faster and faster and sometimes it even stopped. My body began to shake violently and I fell to my feet.
// No, no, NO ...... That can / must not be !! // I screamed in my mind.
He's probably after me and the crew. He's sure to want revenge. I am not allowed to show this newspaper to anyone. I quickly ran to my room and locked the newspaper in my drawer. But when I opened the drawer, my pen came out. It's the nib I used on Arlong. It's full of blood
and full of sad and desperate memories. I quickly closed this again and supported myself on my desk.
My eyes became transfigured and innumerable tears ran down my cheeks. Sobbing quietly, I sank down towards the floor and held a hand over my mouth as I did then. I would like to scream out of sheer desperation, but then the others would only worry about me even more.

I can't say that Arlong is free again and of all places is still on the Grand Line. And especially on the fish island we were on. Where I saw him briefly, but he didn't see me. a little glimmer of hope at the end
or just a mirage? I guess the second one. As for Arlong, I'll never be free. But why me again and again? I've seen enough already. Apparently I don't have the right to live free or even to enjoy freedom. I smiled sadly when I thought of the way Bellmere used to say
that we should make our dreams come true. Sighing, I got up and left my room again. My reddened eyes and cheeks are gone. The tears were also gone. A
a strong wind came up and so I looked out to sea.

However, it was a huge mistake. A ship was approachingus. But it wasn't just any, not even the Navy. It was my worst, worst nightmare.
// Oh god Arlong is getting closer // I thought in shock.

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I quickly ran into the galley and stood in front of the others, breathing heavily.
> Luffy ...... Arlong ....... is coming. Sanjis, Usops, Zorros and Luffy's eyes widened. Then Luffy's eyes darkened and I could see pure hatred in them. That was the look that scared me for the first time.
> Robin you stay with Nami and take care of her. You chopper are waiting
like Usopp here. The fish munch apparently wants to get an abrasion. Luffy said angrily. > No Luffy, this time it's my business to fight him. He wanted to start answering, but I turned on my heel and ran out. I caught my breath when his ship almost reached us. Again my body began to tremble, but I just suppressed it before the others appeared and
would notice.