Hey how are you?
I haven't heard from me for a long time, I know. But due to the whole change on this page, I didn't feel like posting anything in the FF archive alone. Somehow that has become too complicated for me. Before everything was nice and clear. * sigh * Well. Unfortunately, you can't do anything.
However now I decided to continue writing the FF "Reue", even if at first I had no idea how it should go on. But this FF shouldn't be longer than 4 parts at the most. Perhaps some can guess the reason. After all, it is better if you want to do something like this for the first time, then what you want to do should be short so that it is more this and that for people. * read it over again * Huh? .. It doesn't matter.
By the way, I'm already working on a new FF. Again (unfortunately -. -) an adventure FF. With all the clutter of "Japan, China, Japan" and "A difficult way to kill", I noticed that such things are somehow better for me .. right?No matter. First it goes on here! I hope you enjoy it! ^^

"Talk"
* Think*

..... She didn't want to lose. *No! You're welcome! *
You could hear people sucking in air.

"And the fight is over! Out! Team Esor wins!" called the judge and was immediately drowned out by the cheering of the audience. Nagoya reporters stormed into the square, congratulating and interviewing the couple, who had just been showered with champagne to the clapping and cheering of people.

Akane didn't notice any of this. She sat blankly on the floor. 1 cm from the ring line. When she heard the judge proclaim the winners, she began to tremble.
* I lost ... because of me ... we ... lost. Lost Ranma ... Ranma .. *
She felt someone stand in front of her. It was Ranma. His disappointed and angry look said it all. She didn't want to look up. Not looking up into his eyes, which would probably be staring at them in a way they couldn't withstand.Her lips trembled. She didn't want to look, didn't want to see the ice-cold pair of eyes. She noticed how he shook his head angrily and walked hurriedly back into the corridors towards the cabin. It took her some time to realize what had happened in the last few seconds.
* We lost .... because of me ... and he ... he's angry ..... oh, he should have taken shampoo too ... no ... he took me because he was counting on me has .... it's my fault and I should apologize *
Shaking, she got up and walked back towards the cabin.

Furious, Ranma rushed to the cabin, slammed the door, but it was held open. Genma entered without Ranma noticing, who in the meantime had grumbled and sat down on a chair with his back to Genma.
"That stupid cow! It's all her fault! We could have won, but no! It's all her fault!" he hissed.
"Ranma ... you don't say that." Genma said, shaking his head."Father? .." When he saw Genma, his eyes darkened even more. "What's that supposed to be? I'm right!" He jumped up angrily.
"Ranma."
"It's all your fault! From that stupid tramp!"
"That's not true at all and you know it too!"
"Me? I don't know anything! I just know it's her fault that we lost!" yelled Ranma.
Genma tried to stay calm. "Tell me boy. Didn't you see her fight? She defended herself perfectly! And the same thing would probably have happened to YOU ​​with this opponent!"
Ranma's eyes sparkled. "Never! Never! Never in my life would I have made such a mistake! I've told her a thousand times to watch out! But she let herself be thrown out of the ring anyway! How can you be so stupid?"
"Stop the chatter!"
"No, I don't! You have nothing to tell me! Damn it, it's all your fault that I can't get rid of my curse! It's all the fault of this stupid, ugly macho woman!And you know what?! I would have loved to not have met her at all, then this would not have happened in the first place! Yes, I regret meeting Akane! "

At this point Akane stopped listening. Her eyes went blank. Slowly she pulled the hand with which she had wanted to knock earlier, back again. She felt how her eyes filled with tears and they obscured her view. * He regrets it ... He regrets me ... me .. *
Slowly she turned around. When she heard the judge shout "And here the price for the Esor team! The trip to the Jusenkyo springs in Hotel Jo!" she winced. The first tear fell on her cheek. Shivering, she pushed her way through the crowd of cheering people running towards the arena.

"Ranma! Now calm down!"
"No! You have nothing to tell me! I can do what I want! And this stupid macho!"
Genma reached out and hit Ranma in the face with the flat of his hand ..... Shocked, Ranma looked to the side, showed no reaction.It was the first time his father hit him like this ... like this. The first time he acted like a real father.
"Now listen carefully to Ranma. This girl fought for you only for you and this curse, took the hardest blows and dealt almost the same. And now don't tell me again that she is stupid, stupid or whatever saw this girl fight and the only thing this girl is is lovable, helpful and strong very, very strong and you can be happy to have had such a partner at all. And if you had the fire during the fight and the shock afterwards seen her eyes, THEN YOU WOULD NEVER TALK OF HER NOW !! ..... ... But how I know you, you don't care, oh what am I talking about ..... "
With a whimsical movement of his hand, Genma turned around uncomprehendingly and walked towards the door. Just as he opened it, Ranma said, "I know ... I totally overreacted ... You're right dad.She was good ... more than good ... She is perfect ... and that's why ... that's why I love her so much. "
Genma smiled. "I know that .... And that's why you should never blame her, because believe me, it's not that she hates you ... on the contrary ..." "Maybe ..."

Akane stepped out of the building, face wet, to the street where several taxis were parked with advertisements for the tournament. She quickly got her backpack from the front desk of the building, walked over to one of the taxis and got in the back. It smelled of cigarette smoke and the typical fragrance bottles that one often found in cars. The once beige armchairs had black stains and were torn in some places. The ashtrays on the doors were full of cigarettes and chewing gum stuck to the backs of the front seats.
"To Nerima, please." The driver with the tanned skin and the worn blue kappy nodded and drove off after two attempts to get the car to drive.With empty eyes Akane looked out of the dirty window, watched how the barren but familiar landscape passed by, how the shops of the cities with the many small and large colored lights hissed past .... After half an hour the hoarse voice made her feel of the driver torn from her thoughts. Maybe it was a good thing that she returned to reality, otherwise she would still be lost in her thoughts.
"I see her battle suit. You are definitely one of the participants, aren't you?"
There was a lump in Akane's throat. With difficulty, a small inconspicuous "Yes." But apparently the driver's questions were not answered. “And why then, young lady so tearful eyes?” She didn't want to answer ..... She couldn't. Forgivingly, she looked at the man through the rear-view mirror, then turned back to the landscape until, after an hour, they stopped in front of the Tendo mansion.
The car stopped with a squeak in the black night.In a shaky and tired voice, Akane asked "How much does that matter?" The driver shook his head and then smiled.
"It doesn't cost you anything. It was the last trip for today and I can see you were sorry. I'll save you rummaging around in your wallet. But let me tell you one thing. The sadness on your face doesn't suit you. I would." Seeing you like that, I would assume that behind all of this there is an indestructible core of temperament, charisma and inviolable strength ..... Goodbye! "
With a veiled but also confused look, she followed the two bright lights with her eyes, which gradually moved away until they disappeared completely into the dark night.
Akane's heart pounded. What had this man just been saying? .... They were totally strange sentences, but somehow they had triggered something in her. Shaking her head and with a tired step she walked towards the door. The outside light came on automatically, but Akane didn't even notice.She was lost ... lost in thoughts that seemed to devour her. After a long search in her pocket, during which she did not even look, she found the duplicate key to her house. With a click she opened the door and turned on the light. Staggering, she went to the stairs after closing the door, where she simply dropped her bag. One foot at a time she put her on the steps that creaked under her until she got to the top. Very slowly she walked down the dark hallway, which was only lit by the moonlight, suddenly she stopped ... She was standing directly in front of Ranma's room. Her eyes got shine for a moment and she saw the door correctly again, but already a new flood of tears shot into her eyes and she fell back into her thoughts. She quickly ran into her room and threw herself sobbing on her bed. Her thoughts ... everything ... everything revolved around Ranma and the last sentence she had heard from him. She got into it and got cramps.She clawed her hands tightly on her pillow, banging her fist on the bed over and over again.
"What did I do to make him regret me?! .... I .. I lost .... He is rightly unkind to me ... one should regret me ..... after all, I'm really stupid, stupid, ugly and fat! ... he says ..... But that’s why you don’t have to pick it up too !!!! "
The fabric cover was getting wetter from all the tears .....
After a while she fell silent. With dull eyes she sat up and switched on the light on her bedside table, knocking something over and splitting it on the floor. Startled, she looked at the floor. There was a picture frame, the glass of which had now broken, and inside it was a photo. Akane's heart shattered almost