So this is my first ff I hope you enjoy it. soyachan

** Nothing can separate us **

It's cold, very cold, the cold rises into my body, but I stop. I could lie comfortably in my bed and sleep, but I don't want to.
I don't want to go back at all, never again, and the reason is HE. Everything was fine until HE came into my life. I would lie if I said I don't care
because I feel more than friendship for him, I want to hate him, wish him to hell because he has left me, but I can't.
Now I stand here, the wind lashes against the cliffs and the sea sinks in black color. I always wanted to be free like a bird to fly away. But now I'm standing here, on this cliff I really didn't think it would ever come to that. It's just a step, a small step and I never have to feel suffering again, this suffering, I would fall and probably come up against it, but it doesn't matter now because I will never see this place again and I don't have to remember it.I don't want to forget him but when I think about him I feel this pain in my heart. Soon everything will be over for me as it was for him back then, and I would have loved to say goodbye to him.
~ flashback ~
It was autumn September 12th, his birthday.
I didn't have a present for him, no, I hadn't forgotten it, but I was pretty pissed off and thought that he didn't deserve a reason for it was a little argument. I thought it was right then, but now I'm sorry.
It was early in the morning I had resolved to wake him up in a particularly impolite way, which I managed to do. I snuck into his room and dragged him downstairs as quietly as I could, there I threw the sleeping Ranma into the garden pond, where he turned into a girl with a loud bubbling: "Hey Akane, can't you at least have a nice time on my birthday be ?" Ranma-chan asked sleepily. "No!" I replied rather gleefully.Offended, Ranma-chan stomped out of the pond into the living room, mumbling something that sounded like "stupid cow". I gave her a nasty grin: "Thank you too!". With a very angry looking face, Ranma took off his wet shirt and squeezed the water out: "You are really so stupid, and that kind of thing on my birthday!" Ranma-chan snorted. Amused, I sat down next to her: "That is what makes it so attractive, as peacefully as you slept I couldn't resist and had to throw you into the pond!". Out of the corner of her eye she looked at me
her face didn't look very angry anymore, but that look made me nervous. Little by little the others came and sat down, Nabiki poured warm water over Ranma whereupon he turned back into a boy. Kasumi, on the other hand, put a large chocolate cake on the table. "All the best Ranma!" she greeted him. The others congratulated them too, and after a short time he had forgotten the argument from earlier.It became promlematic when it came to handing over the presents, he politely thanked him no matter what kind of junk it was, at the end there were two presents on the table, an envelope and a medium-sized parcel. He pointed to it with his finger: "Who is it from!" he asked in a good mood. Everyone shook their heads in question except for Kasumi, she smiled and nodded over to me: "This is from Akane!". I was startled, it couldn't be, I had nothing for him. He threw me a grin at which I blushed, I stared at my big sister, she winked at me, now I knew what she was up to, it was another try to pair me up with Ranma but not with me: ".. Uh ...
Ranma I'm sorry to say this, but the gift is not from me.
Kasumi added it, I'm not spending my precious money on you! "Ha that was the revenge, yesterday he had made me cry again with his nice utterances, I paid him back now, but then it came completely different .Sadly, he lowered his gaze: "Sure, that was predictable, why should you give me something for my birthday, after all, my birthday is 10 times a year!" he tried to get it across in such a way that it sounded sarcastic, but I saw right through that, maybe I had exaggerated, no, certainly not. "And since you think I suck, you don't have to waste your precious time here either, you can go to your room calmly, we definitely won't miss you macho woman!" he continued for which he immediately got himself a head nut from his father. I got up, anger crept up inside me, nice if he wanted me to go I would too, it was his birthday today. I trampled up the stairs angrily.
But what happened next I will never forget. Ranma opened the last present, and although I had my door closed I could hear his cry of joy. Like a madman he jumped around his living room: "Yeah, it's a plane ticket to China, I can get rid of my curse." he cheered, then Genma spoke up: "Yes boy, but the flight is already going tonight, you should be packing right away!" so Ranma went to his room, I didn't notice anything.Until 6pm I stayed in my room, insulted, after a while I was sorry that I had reacted like that, but at least I had my pride. Yes, my pride, if I hadn't been so vain, everything could have been very different, but I absolutely had to listen to him, to my damned pride. Downstairs, Kasumi stood at the door sadly, she said goodbye to Ranma, she kept throwing him a questioning look but he just shook his head: "No, Kasumi, I won't say goodbye to Akane, I'll be back soon!" he assured her, Kasumi forced a smile, but she hadn't noticed that he had crossed his fingers behind his back. Carefully he pulled a letter out of his pocket, even if it was only written in small letters you could clearly see the cry: To Akane. Ranma handed it over to Kasumi, who put it in her skirt pocket: "I'll give it to her afterwards, I promise!" she whispered to him softly.He grinned, hugged his father again, and then headed for the airport. Then I snuck down the stairs. When I saw Kasumi standing in the corridor with bowed head, I suspected something terrible. I looked at her questioningly: "he's gone, isn't he?" I asked in a husky voice, Kasumi nodded. At that moment I felt incredibly sorry for everything I had ever said to him, I couldn't explain it then and still can't today but I knew that I had lost him, maybe even forever. I jumped on my shoes and raced down the main street, calling his name, but got no answer.
So now it was done because I was too cowardly to show what I felt he was gone now. I ran and ran, then I heard a loud hum, I looked up and saw a big machine hovering over me, an airplane. I really didn't know it then but something told me that he was sitting in there, he could probably even see me and laugh at my stupidity, I don't know and I never found out.~ flashback end ~
The cool air blows on my face and stings my eyes.
But I don't close it, back then when I found out what had happened, I made up my mind to always listen to myself and never close my eyes out of fear. Again I'm staring into the endless ocean
here it had come to an end and here I will find mine, on the lion's mountain. Fear wells up in me, and I wonder if he was that scared too before he jumped. But did he really jump? Again I do not know the answer and I will not find out in the short time that I will stay here, but I know one thing now, if I had the chance to be with him again I would do everything differently,
Forget my pride and finally stop defending myself against my feelings. But did he feel as much as I did for him? I'll never know
or am I wrong again?
~ flashback ~
I just stood there for a long time and looked at the sky, for a long, very long time maybe even hours until I finally decided to return home.I walked down the street with my head bowed, I kept hearing steps behind me, but when I turned around I only saw the stone floor behind me. But there was this feeling, that little little feeling that I was being watched, and I was right. Shortly before the Furikan High School the steps got louder, I quickly turned around, behind me was a bald man with a scar on his face and a nasty grin.
He tried to hold on to me, but I was faster, this guy wanted something from me and I was pretty pissed off, and that's why he felt all my anger. I rammed my fist into his stomach, then I gave him three hooks and finally kicked him in the cross so that he fell unconscious to the ground. Even if it wasn't exactly funny I had to grin, but then Ranma came back to me. The rest of the way I ran as fast as I could. Again I had the feeling that something was going to happen today, something that would change my life, forever.~ flashback end ~
Here on the mountain of the lion, I will end everything now, my fear grows bigger and bigger. I sink to my knees, an unspeakable pain dwelling in my heart, but soon I will never feel it again.
When I read the letter back then I wasn't sure if he was serious, now I know that he wasn't kidding. I lost him a year ago, but now I'll be able to be with him again, at least I hope so. I would like to ask someone what they would have done if they had the same problem as me, but now it's too late. Ranma I'll be with you again soon, it may well be that you never want to see me again, but even if it will be like that, I would like to tell you that I love you. And no matter how long I will be separated from you, I know that one day I will be with you again, one day for sure.
~ flashback ~
I opened the door to the apartment, Kasumi came running up and said how sorry she was, but I wasn't listening.As I was about to go up the stairs, she pressed a letter into my hand.
I immediately recognized Ranma's handwriting, I sat down on my bed and tried to get the letter out of the envelope without tearing it so shaky were my hands, and it worked. Slowly I unfolded it, I would like to just throw it away because somehow I knew what was inside.
to be continued ……………

so that was the first part write me a lot of commies