Because I'm free

Why did I become like this?
Why am I so contentious, wild, addicted to alcohol and ruthless? Who made me this?
Nobody ... I am the way I am ...
I am the daughter of a high-ranking politician in my home country. Carried a title of nobility. Nobody knew then what my father was. But the title made most people unsure. They called me snobbish and whatnot! So I hit it, I didn't care who I hurt with it. Whom I got into trouble with, including all the lecture theaters that always came in the evening ... it doesn't matter. Were not meant seriously anyway.
I know exactly how she always laughed about it afterwards. When I was out of the room. Henry and Father, they always thought it was funny.
“She's a real brawler! ", they always laughed," a real little tomboy! Like mother! "
Mother ... she died when I was very little. Father never looked for a replacement, nor did I need one ...Back then ... the first and second Saya got into an argument, they had many followers ... civil war broke out. Henry tried to stop the two parties at the time, but failed ... he fell.
I still remember how one of his comrades, respectfully, carried the coronation sword into the entrance hall where we were waiting for news.
It was terrible to watch. From that day on, Dad was no longer himself ... and I, I only dealt with this sword. Nobody was allowed to touch it until a new successor had been chosen by father, but he was too shocked ... he was no longer himself ... at some point she came into the house, they both married. I hated her, she was just as wrong as anyone else who sucked up on father ... she forbade anything ... I couldn't take a step without her putting a bodyguard on my neck. She also forbade me to go into the sword room, in which I stayed more and more since Henry's death.It literally attracted me ... it was like that ... it sounds cheesy, but it looked so real. Everything around it was so fake except for this sword, it was so real. Sometimes, I thought I heard his heartbeat, his breath ... I don't care what you think of me now, but for me it was like a living body, it acted like a drug on me, I always had to use it feeling, but unfortunately that didn't work that often, I was getting angrier and more irascible. And she, she shut it up completely in the end.
Then I broke out ... with him, with the part, with me, what I need to be happy and I vowed never to put it aside, with my brother and with ... my father.
In general, I cannot complain about what was going on at that time, everyone had already experienced their little adventure or will still experience it. For me it still goes on and there are still so many chapters. I'm finally free here on the ship, I'm having fun, I can let myself go.Nobody to contain me, nobody to forbid me anything, I can truly say that I am one of the happiest in the world.
(For me the alcohol is like any other water, I need it to survive, it runs in our family's blood, after all the three sayas are descended from pirates, boozy mutineers)

Jacqueline

(,, The three sayas are the pillars of the momarchy in Sun Island, they are the third party to determine which laws the country needs, sometimes, when there are disagreements, they sit for days in a room and try to convince themselves with arguments The greatest thing this Kand has ever brought was the freedom of the wanted. Rabbits, TTage thieves, right up to assassins are allowed to live there freely, as long as they do not go about their usual activities. They get asylum there. There are enough people, even those not for Army belonging to the three sayas who fight for this land, the thieves who have been welcomed here develop gratitude for the land and fight for it.The sun Iceland is criticized by many countries, one does not tolerate this kind of friendship with criminals.
In turn, others admire the Sun Island, because they always prevail against it! ")