in the daytime you made sunshine out of every weather. Every minute, every second, every moment that I spent time with you was eternity and the most beautiful feeling in my lonely life. In difficult situations every second goes by like an hour, but when we have had fun with each other and we hugged each other, every hour goes by like a second.This is the life that has come to an end for me now. In the past two years, there have hardly been days when I didn't think about you. Whenever I thought of you, time passed like nothing. I forgot everything around me, the only thing that mattered was you, but you weren't there for long, I haven't seen you for too long. But do you know what was the hardest for me? It was that I still love you even now, I never fell in love again then, I was never loved either, but now maybe in death, I can find the love I was looking for on earth for so long. Maybe I can hope, but maybe I just want to make death a little easier for myself. It took me a long time to have the courage to write you a letter. But I got the courage in my last hours.


I wish that you come to my funeral. But you still have to do me a favor, you have to have a sip of vodka there, and maybe you can think of me, of the good times we had.If there were good times for you with me at all, all times were good for me with you. I wanted you to know I still know exactly how I got to know you, but then my feelings weren't there yet, they came in those summer vacation when you came back from vacation. In the time you were gone I noticed that I was missing something very much, but I never knew what. Then you came back from vacation and I knew what was missing, it was your laugh, it was your voice, it was your eyes, it was you who missed me more than anything else in the world. I missed you, but I probably didn't want it because you knew how I looked and I still don't look any more, then my whole look will be just dust and I'll watch you from the sky I'll look at you watch out if it's okay with you. They say there is no meaning in life, or it is too difficult to find, but I know that everyone who is on the verge of death will find it, it is love.Love is the meaning of life nothing else but you will only find out shortly before your own death then you will say to yourself that I loved. But I'll just say well that I was loved and not loved. The last two years have been tough. I saw you once a year and last year I didn't see you at all. I wanted to call you, but I didn't know if you still know me, I thought that you had forgotten me. Why shouldn't you have forgotten me now? This is the best thing in life when you forget something that means nothing to you, but when you forget something that you loved or still love, it is the hardest thing that can ever happen. I never forgot you how could I forget the moon that you were for me. You were the sunshine in the night, the wind in my heart, the water that keeps people alive, you were what everyone calls true love. But I never found true love, but I knew that it was you.I hope you've already found someone where you can say it's true love, I also hope that he loves you like I did. You deserve someone who suits you and who loves you that is what I wish for you, I will never love again, never hate again and I will never live again. You were the best thing I saw in my life and what I got to know you were not a person you were the sky you were the earth, you were the water. You were everything that keeps a person alive you were love itself. Oh, how beautiful love is. I'll never be able to feel it again, I'll never know what it means to be loved, I don't even think my parents loved me. But what could I have changed, what could I have done back then. I should have changed, but I couldn't and will never be able to do it again. With this whole letter I didn't cry, but now I'm crying because I know that I won't see you again before I die, I only have a photo of you with me, what I took back then.I will always remember it and I will never forget you. From heaven I'll watch you if I even get to heaven.


I love you.








Ciao your loving Frank






PS: I loved you to the end and I will never forget you you were the only good thing in my life for that I am eternally grateful to you. Maybe we will meet again in a better life but until that time I will think of you. I always looked at the stars from even one who looked like you was not that beautiful, but I knew that I fell in love with this star because it watches over your house. I'll miss you. I'm sorry for writing you this letter, without this letter you would probably never have found out that I died. I miss you.








Frank put the letter in an envelope and sent it to Janina, he died two hours later.I died with a smile on my face and a picture of Janina in my hand.


When Janina got the letter, she read it, but what she felt and what she thought, only she and Frank, who even now watches over her from heaven, know.