So .. This FF is actually drama and romance rolled into one ... I would say! But judge for yourself !! Oh yes ... It is written from the point of view of Goku .. and actually it is also about Goku and Vegeta .. So .. who shouldn't like FF`s ... shouldn't read it .. although .. so bad it is not again ...




-------------------------------------------------




Why did you leave me...?




---- *** ----




I can still see it in front of me when I saw you for the first time ... In the beginning you were a real ass .... You and your accomplice, Nappa .... You killed my friends one after the other .... But when I then fought against you ... I realized that you weren't as mean as you always were ... You are a really good fighter ... for that I admired you ... but at the same time I was afraid me ... I was scared of it ... scared of getting too close to you ... But that's exactly what happened ... When I think back to the fight against Freezer ... then I see you lying on the floor in front of me .... you ... you asked me ... to kill Freezer with my hands ... and then ... you died ... before my eyes ... Freezer had killed ... Krilin too. .. But you ... my prince ....

In the fight against Freezer I avenged you too ... You had always suffered under his rule ... That hurt me ... really hurt .... I always saw the pain that you carried in your heart. ... But I just didn't know ... how I could help you ... and then you met Bulma ... When I saw you together ... I realized that you loved her .. ... and then I came into your life ...


I still remember exactly ... how I conquered your heart ...! It was after the thing with Boo ... Bulma had invited me to you ... She wanted to be alone with ChiChi again ... Women's evening ... Trunks and everyone else who lived in the house weren't there either. .. I have no idea where they were ... Only the two of us were there ...! Then you went to the GR ... and left me standing on the left ... But I knew that you wanted to say something like: "Come on, Kakarott ... let's go train ..!" .... ... but you didn't say it ... Nevertheless I followed you ... Somehow I noticed when we were in the GR that you were glad that I followed you ... But that wasn't the only reason you were glad ... but also because of something else ..... you were alone with me ... your archenemy ... you turned to me and looked into my eyes ... your look ... was cold and relentless as always ... but that didn't stop me ...

With slow steps I walked towards you ... Your gaze somehow became ... yes, one could almost say desperate ... When I had pushed you up to the wall ... If I put my hands against the wall, so that your head was in between ... (I hope you can imagine what I mean ...) I would have loved to know ... what was going on in your head ... But ... somehow I didn't want to to know ... I just wanted to ... get rid of that ... what I wanted to tell you years ago ... Actually, I had planned it differently ... But what the heck ... and besides, I always had the feeling that you feel the same for me ...


Your eyebrows, which were slowly knitting together ... I realized that you finally wanted to know what was going on ... Just when you opened your mouth to find out ... what was going on ... I did my lips pressed against yours and thus kissed you ... I wanted to make it clear to you ... that I love you ...

But you pushed me back ... Pushed me back and wiped your lips ... Then you sniffed at me ... and kept asking: Why? How so? Why?


I smiled at you because I knew you would react that way ... I just said: "Because I love you ..."


And that was the decisive argument .......




---- *** ----




Now I'm sitting here ... In the rain ... under a tree ... I'm soaked through ... and sad ... Why did you leave me ... ?? What I have done wrong?? I can't find the answers to my questions ... I love you too much, Vegeta ... To be able to forget you ... What did I do wrong ... ?? Damn it...!! What?! Did I take you by surprise with my feelings back then? Or ... did I hurt your pride ... ?? Do you love Bulma more than me ?!


I can't find an answer to any of these questions .... But I want answers ....! I want to be able to understand you ... Vegeta ...

I get up ... wiggle a little ... since I've been sitting here for a few days ... without food ... without warmth ... without love .... just these questions ... these questions over and over again !!


I lift off the ground and fly in the air .... I have to go to you ... Slowly I started moving ... and fly towards my goal .... !!


My flight finally ends ... I land in front of your front door .... I ring the bell a few times ... until you finally get to the door .... You want to close it again when you see me ... but I prevent you think about it .... and ask yourself all my questions .... why did you leave me? - What I have done wrong? - Did I take you off guard with my feelings? - Did I hurt your pride through our relationship? - Do you love Bulma more than me?


Tears well up in my eyes when I hear ... what you say to me ... Then you slam the door in front of me ... and I stay outside ... alone .... My heart was broken .. ..

I turn around ... take off again and fly back to the tree ... under which I was sitting earlier ... I sat down again ... and bury my face in my arms ... Repeat over and over again your words ... "It's over ...! Don't you understand? I don't love you a bit !!! The only one I love is Bulma !! I'm definitely not giving her up because of you !! Never ever !!! You subclass Saiyan !!! "


Grief is spreading more and more ... What is the meaning of my life ...? (* sniff * * sob *)


I lay my head against the tree trunk .... Tears litter my face ... These tears drip onto the floor ... and seep into it ... My heart is so heavy ... It seems to me as if it is tons sway ... but suddenly ... another feeling comes ... again and again ... when I think of you ... there comes the feeling ... this feeling ... as if someone were taking my heart out of my chest travel ... it's that bad ... you hurt me so much ...

I close my eyes ... and hope this is a nightmare ... and I finally want to wake up ... I want to wake up next to you ... then take you in my arms ... and whisper to you ... how much I love you ...


But I know ... that I won't wake up again ...........




end




-------------------------------------------------




Please comments !! ^^