The song is over ... You stare into the air ... I can't anymore ... The pain in my heart is great ... It is tearing me to pieces ... I'm collapsing ... Start crying ... You look at me ... Tears run down my face ... Thick tears expressing sadness ... And great pain ... I can no longer ... in between I gasp for air again and again ... Still no movement ... I cry out in pain ... I've never had such great pain ... Worse than my worst combat injuries .. You kneel down .. I expected you to comfort me ... But you fetch with your hand out ... and got me full ... I'm calm ... "How dare you, I'm the devil" he shouted and disappeared from the room..I looked at the door..The pain ... it became harder ... worse..I throw myself on my bed and turn on the radio so that my howling wouldn't be heard..I locked the door ... I wanted to be all alone ... Me and my pain..The more I thought about it Least it got worse .. I cried the whole night through .. The next few days I suffered agony I couldn't see you, everyone asked why I look so bad ... Black rings under my eyes and nothing eaten the whole time .. Now Enough for me ... I fly to God's palace ... I see you .. As you stand there and talk to Dende.I walk up to you .. Without you turning around you ask why I am here ... And in a not very friendly tone .. I swallowed a breath and said: "Listen ... I can't eat anything in the morning because I can't stand the way you treated me, at noon I can't eat anything because I always have to think about you and the pain spoils my appetite, in the evening I can't eat anything because I still have to think about you ... and night I can't sleep because I'm hungry .. "You turn around and look strangely ..." Get out ... "you say ... I'm standing there ... I hear right ?! He said I should get out of here ... That's ... nasty ... I pull myself together ... I suppressed tears ... "Don't you hear me right ?! I don't want to see you ever again. So get out of here," he shouted angry now like I've never seen him before .. my whole life .. destroyed .. It hurts so much ... so hurts .. why did you say that ... you hurt me..I want to hate you, yes I can't ... Because I love you ... Time is running out ... I don't move ... Still shocked by your words ... "I'm going to tell you one more time. Get out of here !!!"you yell .. I turn my back slowly ... Now I can't stop her ... Tears .. Tears after tears ran down my painful face ... I can't believe what you are saying." you said ... what about the earlier days ... the training ... the fun we had ... the adventures ... did he forget everything ??? oh no ... please say this is not true ... The good time with him ... Why did I have to ... Why did I ... Just do this ... I flew home as fast as I could and stormed into my room ... I wanted to hate him ... .and I made it ... Nobody does that to me ... Especially not he ... It was a huge woe in my stomach ... Indescribably big ... I had never felt like this before ...


"I hate him !!!!" I shouted through the house .. In a rage, I threw the photos away from him ... And threw them in the garbage can, where they belonged ...


Yes ... that's where they belong ...