@Benny: Hi honey! "Unfortunately"??? Always says Nini! And Jenny too !! ^^ I think you don't even know how boring Latin lessons are and how many rules you have to remember! But I don't want to take away your dreams ;-) No, it was a joke ^^ The saying is really good, but unfortunately too many people have already stuck to it! Hitler and Napoleon were of the same opinion !! Yes, Kai's story is supposed to express: He was born in the abbey and was immediately "brought up" !! * laugh * no, you misunderstood something! NIni told about the wrong friends !!!!! ^^ Oh yes, the lights are really annoying, like Tyson XD * cuddles * Nini and Katha

@Nangilima: Hey honey! Yes, unfortunately you have to think on and on and on. These lights are really mysterious. But you are already on the right track. Yes, that with this exploitation of nature. I (Nini) am curious if I don't even have to tell my grandchildren about whales and elephants.Because if we continue like this, our grandchildren will no longer know these animals. And then they no longer know what a rainforest is. * cuddles * Katha and Nini

@Katarina: Hey honey! Yes these sayings. Katha always says she doesn't like Latin, but she loves these sayings. I can only agree with her. These sayings are really wonderful. Thanks for your picking! * cuddles * Katha and Nini



So, and now have fun with this part XD



(Nini's point of view)



Again and again I toss and turn in bed. I'm pretty tired, and yet I can't sleep. Too many thoughts are buzzing around in my head. And again I turn on the other side. The past few hours have just been too stray for me. These lights ... my decisions .... the food ..... the room ..... and that with Kai. If the light had come then ..... then ..... oh damn it! Why do I worry so much? For what actually?I couldn't care less about anything. These lights need ME. Not me YOU. I could make her dance to my tune. I could ask anything of them. But why don't I just do it then? Before, I would have used my position completely and ruthlessly. Without batting an eyelash. Yes ... earlier. And again I notice ... how much I have changed. I don't think so selfishly anymore. I am not so selfish anymore. I think of my fellow human beings now. Especially on the quay. STOP! STOP! To quay? I seriously wonder if I didn't get a hit on the back of the head. I told Kai about my past. I really told him what happened to me. Can it be ... can it really be the possibility? Do I really trust Kai? Or did I just want to talk to someone? But when I talk to someone I have to trust that someone. So I really trust Kai! I'm kind of scared of myself.I've changed so much that I don't recognize myself anymore. I act very differently than I did a while ago. My reactions to things and those around me are completely different. I have become more open. Or maybe that's the real me Maybe I only now recognize myself ?! But if that's the real me, I'd rather not get to know it. I discover feelings that I believed I had banished forever. And now they reappear. Like a snowman melted by the sun. I've built an invisible wall of ice and now it's melting like the snowman. At the end all that's left is the carrot and chestnuts. Just like my feelings. But I can't read it yet. Everything is sunk in my chaos. My feelings are buzzing around ... my thoughts ... everything.



What concerns me most is what is happening on the balcony. Kai and I were so close ... if the light hadn't come ... then ... I don't even like to think about it.Whenever I think of the event on the balcony, I feel strangely warm. Damn it! It's all so complicated and confusing. I don't know what to think of Kai ..



And whether my decision was the right one? I am still not entirely convinced that these lights are going in the right direction. Maybe they are fighting on the wrong side. And we with them! But if Kai thinks it's right ..... then I have to ... I never want to go back to this dungeon ... that was by far the worst. And under no circumstances do I want to be alone again. So I just have to put my doubts aside. I just have to suppress the doubts that are gnawing at me. It does not help. The longer I think about it, the more questions arise. And I can't even find a single answer. No way! And how are Tala and Jenny? Are you hurt? Are you okay? Where are they? Although I understand Kai, I can also understand Jenny and Tala.Of course, they could forgive us, but I would probably react similarly. I would also be deeply hurt if my best friend lies to me. It takes time to forgive. The pain is certainly too big at the beginning to immediately forgive everything. I understand Kai but also Jenny and Tala. Somehow I don't want to give up hope that everything will be fine again. That the four of us can get together again. But I have to keep this thought to myself. If anyone finds out, they'll probably put me back in the dungeon right away. I shudder at the thought.



Suddenly I hear Kai stammer something unintelligible. I sit up and listen carefully one more time. I notice that his breath is coming out of his lungs much too quickly and white as a bump. I swing my legs out of bed and step up to Kai. Through the moonlight I can see silver tears glistening on his cheeks. Kai stammered something about: "No, no, please not !!!!Please stop! That can not be true! "I don't need to think about it for long. Kai has a nightmare. He told me that he has dreams like this, but I would never have thought that they were so bad. I notice how Kai's breathing becomes even faster. But I don't want to wake him up . What did my mother always do when I had nightmares? I throw back the covers and get into Kai's bed. If it helped me then, it will help Kai too. I wrap my arms around him and wipe his tears from the cheeks. Kai is freezing. He's trembling all over. He's still stammering something. I press myself against his back and brush a strand of hair from his face. Then I whisper soothing words. Slowly I notice how Kai is calmer and his Breathing surely slowly normalized again. I put my head on his shoulder and close my eyes. A strange warmth flows through my body and finally I find the much-needed sleep.



"AHH !!!!!" I scream as I wake up to a very painful impact on the ground. The pain runs from my neck, across my spine to my tailbone. I lift my head and see Kai.

He sits upright in bed, looks at me with big eyes, perplexed and totally sleepy.



"Oh, is the gentleman already awake? And can I finally breathe freely again and no longer act as a pillow?" I ask sarcastically, with a sour undertone in my voice. Rubbing my aching back, I get up and look angrily at Kai. This is sitting in bed and just looking at me. It seems to me like he's totally confused and maybe scared. I still look angry at Kai. Okay, fine if he got scared, that's one thing, but does that mean he has to throw me out of bed?



"I am gonna take a shower now!" says Kai, jumps out of bed and goes into the bathroom. But to me it looks more like an escape.An escape from me.

I sigh softly, put on my clothes and go out onto the balcony.



I smell salty smell and the wind blows in my face. The sun is laughing from the blue sky. And then suddenly I hear a noise. It sounds like the rush of water. I lean over the railing and look down. My eyes widen, my heart stops working for a short moment and my body functions stop working for a few seconds.



An ocean stretches below me, in front of me and on both sides. I can see three shades of blue. Indigo blue, turquoise blue and dark blue. All the colors mix and the water glistens in the light of the sun. Wherever you look there is only water. The smell rises deep into my nose and I breathe in happily. I notice how a smile creeps over my lips and I am immediately in a better mood.

I notice how Kai steps on the balcony. "Look! Below us is only the sea!" I say without turning around.I hold onto the railing with one hand and point to the ocean with the other hand. Kai stands by me and looks down. I notice his hair dripping.

"Oh man, what do you do with your hair that, even when it's wet, it stands up in such a mess?" I ask and laugh at him.

"Why?" Asks Kai and looks at me.

I know that it alludes to the event in the morning and in the night. But somehow I don't feel like explaining all of this to him.

"Well, because where I come from, you need at least 10 cans of hairspray and three tubes of hair gel for such a hairstyle ...", I answer and try to avoid Kai's gaze.

"No, I actually meant ... why were you in bed with me today?" asks Kai. Can't he imagine that? Now I have to explain that to him too. I look down and look into the roaring water.

"I heard you scream in the night and then well ... you know yourself," I mean.I still keep my eyes fixed on the water.

"Thanks!" says Kai and disappears back into the room.



Did Kai thank me? Did he really say thank you? KAI? Kai, the proud, indomitable boy thanked ME? Now I am completely confused. Why did he say thank you? This question just doesn't leave me alone.

I follow Kai. He is sitting on his bed and staring into space.

"Why?" I ask him and sit down next to him.

He lifts his head and looks at me, perplexed.

"Why did you thank me?" I ask quietly again.

I notice how a slight red sheen formed on Kai's cheeks. I have to smile a little.

"Well ... because ... you helped me, as you must have noticed!" says Kai quickly, gets up and goes to his closet.

I smile, get up, walk past Kai and whisper in his ear with a smile: “I was happy to do it!” Give him a kiss on the cheek and quickly run into the bathroom.There I lock the door, take off my clothes and stand under the shower with