push my thoughts and fears aside and hug Kai from behind.

Kai should know that I'm there. No matter how big my fear is, no matter how

the panic in my heart is great. I am here for Kai now. Everything else is

I don't care!

"This is your world? Did you want to go back here?" I whisper

in his ear and rest my head on his shoulder. I want Kai
understand, but I can't do it. How can you want to go back to a place like that?

It's awful here. I have to pull myself together so as not to be scared and

Panic to scream out loud. This place is horror to me. There is nothing
Worse than him.



Kai turns to me and takes my hand. I keep silent and follow

him. He leads me down a long, cold corridor. I have to

focus to stay calm. I would like to cling to Kai now

and close your eyes. But I have to pull myself together. For him and for

me. Suddenly we meet a couple of children. I noticed us

no one can see.

Tears well up in my eyes as they walk past us. You have

bowed their heads and walk quietly down the corridor. A boy with a blonde

Hair and blue eyes come towards us. But his gaze is empty. Just like
Quays earlier. His hands are swollen and red. He has various

Abrasions on the face. And so he passes us. My heart hurts when I

see this boy. My little brother should be the same age as this one

Be a boy.

Kai leads me into a room. I widen my eyes and begin to
lightly
tremble. Immediately I try to suppress the tremor which I also

succeed. The walls are gray. The bed is made of a metal frame, a mattress

and an old, musty blanket and pillow. There is a cupboard in the

Room, as well as an old small table and an armchair. The room has no window.

The light bulb that hangs from the ceiling without a lampshade emits little light.

I know this is Kai's room.



"Now it's not mine" says Kai in a low voice. I

notice how difficult it is for him. But I can't hold back any longer.

Everything is so terrible here.

I feel sad when I imagine Kai in this room

used to be treated just like the children. At that thought

my heart starts to ache

"What bad happened to you in the other world that you are back in this

terrible world want you to want to get away from me? "I ask

quietly so as not to start crying. I just do not understand. Kai

looks at me doubtfully. I return his gaze and give him a determined look.



Kai closes his eyes for a moment and suddenly we're back in town.

Smoke around us, houses on fire and screams. But it all comes from

further away. We are not in the middle of the city. Kai and I are a little

outside. I turn my gaze to Kai. But Kai is standing next to me and holding

my hand. It takes me a few seconds to understand what is happening here.

Then I look at Kai, who is standing in front of a dark light.Suddenly Kai attacks

after a gun. The dark light begs for mercy, still tries to

save, but it's too late. Kai points the gun at the

Light ..... and .... then he pulls the trigger. The light falls to the ground, remains there lifeless and

eventually goes out. The shot booms in my ears. I widen my eyes

and look at Kai, who throws away the gun and runs away. And suddenly

darkness falls over us. The next time I shut my eyes

on the 1st floor, Kai and I are back in Michael's and Gabriel's rooms.



Kai stands in front of me. Silver tears make their way down his cheeks.

Then he turns his gaze to the ground.



So that was it. That put a terrible strain on Kai. Kai has a dark

Light killed. I lift Kai's head so he has to look me in the eye.



"Kai, why didn't you tell me? Why aren't you too
come to me? I am behind you. No matter what you do or have done. It is

I don't care. I don't even give a shit. Kai i love you It is me

no matter. I will always stand by you no matter what. "I say and

smile warmly at him.



Kai looks at me confused. He'd probably have any other reaction from

just not expecting me this.



And then he falls into my arms. Buries his head in me and starts

to sob softly. I rub his back and
soothingly
Head. I don't care if Kai killed a dark light or not.

After all, those lights attacked the city. Have a lot of

"Lights" killed. I don't know if I would have reacted like that, if I would have killed this light, but I stand behind Kai. I trust him.

Of course I'm a little shocked. Kai may not have done the right thing,

but now he regrets it deeply.He has a terribly guilty conscience.

And that's punishment enough. I stand behind him.



"Come on, let's go to our room." I whisper to Kai, who

then raises his head. He wipes his tears away, hugs me

and together we go to our room. There we sit on my bed. I

take Kai in my arms and stroke his cheek. I want Kai now

don't ask about his world. Not now. Kai wraps his arms around me and

lays his head on my collarbone.

“I'm so terribly sorry.” Kai whispers with a broken

Voice.

I do not reply to it. I don't think it's appropriate.

"I lied to you. I almost destroyed everything."

Kai continues whispering.

"Now everything is over. Now everything will be fine again." I say.



I am still deeply shocked by Kai's world. Never in a lifetime would have

I imagined that his world was so terrible.That they are so cold, so

is hateful. And that's where he and Tala spent their entire lives? At

I shudder slightly at this thought.



Suddenly I notice Kai's embrace finally loosening up

solves. Kai fell asleep. I reach for a blanket and Kai's head slips

from my shoulder to my lap. I take the blanket and put it over

him. I can see tears in the corners of my eyes. I stroke Kai over the

Cheek and look at him. So many thoughts are buzzing through my head. I

use the time and try to sort it out.



(Kai's point of view)

Tears well up in my eyes, my body shakes. But worst of all is

the mess in my heart The fear, the self-reproach, the remorse,

the pain .... I never thought I'd have so many feelings that

they can all come at once, that they are all connected.On the

I would love to flee back into the dark, let myself drift,

to where nothing can reach me.



I'm terrified of what's to come. What will Nini say now?

Will she be afraid of me? Rightly so! I know she is right in front of me

stands. I can feel their closeness, their warmth. Only when I open my eyes will I find out what she's thinking now. I lift my eyelids very carefully ... and look directly into her eyes. Immediately I lower my gaze to the floor. No, I can't look at them now!

What I did was too horrible to be upright and

full of self-confidence that I could confidently raise my head

could just look others in the eye without looking away

to have to, because otherwise they could recognize my outrage, because they would then with the

Point your finger at me. And then I'm alone. And this is my very greatest
Anxiety. To be alone! Then nothing has any meaning anymore. Neither my life

nor any action that I would take.



It is said that everyone has a motive for their actions, even if they

does not know. What is my motive? Anger Despair? Hate? No, none of these

Things are true. I am just an animal, nothing more. A little power in

my hands and I become a monster, murder and no longer think about my

Act upon. A single push of a button and my entire existence is destroyed.



But I don't just wallow in self-pity. No, I'm thinking of
rather
the dark light. What did it think in its last few seconds, which

Must it have endured fears? The tears don't want to stop flowing.

I know Michael and Gabriel see me that way, but I don't care. Shall

they calmly see how weak I am. Let them find out what I

have done.Maybe they'll send me back to my world of their own free will! But

I don't want to go there either. Because my friends are here. Or should

do I rather say former friends? How much I miss Jenny and Tala.

And Nini ... even more so. It may be just a few inches in front of

me, but it's so far away anyway.



Suddenly I feel my head lift slightly and look directly

in Nini's eyes. But contrary to my expectations, I don't see any fear there.

Just warmth, trust. My heart beats faster, the pain gets smaller.

I myself cannot believe it, I cannot understand it. Also the words that came to my

Pierce my ear, I can't really understand my heart:

"Kai, why didn't you tell me? Why aren't you with me

came? I am behind you. No matter what you do or have done. It's completely
me
no matter. I don't even give a shit.Kai i love you I do not care. I

will always stand by you no matter what. "It's like I'm in

a dream. As if a nightmare had turned into a beautiful one
transformed.

Again a wave of emotions overwhelms me. But this time they are not

bad, don't hurt. They just touch me, make me start all over again
cry. Powerless and yet full of hope, full of courage, I fall into Nini's arms. Tears run from my eyes and