more ... come back ... don't leave me alone !! "I have to take a deep breath to not to cry ... he's still lying there so quietly ... nothing !!

Days go by ... without a sign that he will wake up soon ... every day I sit by his bed and tell him what I did or what happened ... I talk to him a lot ... Jean says that that helps ... I also think that I'm better because I am confident that he will be with us again soon ...
"Hey, Sam !! Are you coming with me ... we want to go into town a bit ... '" now four months have passed ... Logan's condition is still unchanged ... only mine has changed slightly .. . I already have the beginning of a stomach ... looks funny and everyone thinks they have to shove everything up my ass and I just have to lie on the bed and take care of myself ... I'm a little upset because I'm not incurable I'm sick ... I'm only five months pregnant ... that's not a fatal disease ...

"Yes ... in a moment !! I have to go downstairs ... I'll be right there !!" meanwhile the worst winter is over ... slowly the spring speaks out ... I quickly run down the stairs and slowly open the door to the hospital ward ... each time in the hope that Logan is awake in his bed and unsure of himself looks around, because he doesn't know what happened ... but as so often, he is still lying quietly and peacefully in his bed ...
"Hey, honey !! You can wake up really soon, otherwise you will miss the birth of your own child afterwards ... and I would really like to have you here ... but I am sure that you will have had a good sleep soon. ... and then everything will be fine !! I'm going to town with Scott, Jean, Cathy and Kira ... which I haven't even told you ... Jean and Scott are no longer together ... they have each other separated, but are good friends ... Scott has been with Cathy for a month now ... and Kurt is still trying to hook up ... but he can't ... well ... then I have to go again ... . I'll come back later ... "I kiss him gently on the forehead and go out again ...

Jean and Co. are waiting ...

"Well? Are you okay ??" Kira takes me aside ...

"Sure !! We can do it ... he's fine ... I have to think about myself and especially about the baby now ... I want everything to go smoothly ... besides, I have the feeling as if he is waking up soon ... very soon ... "I give Kira a big grin and then the five of us get on our socks ... it's a very relaxed and funny day ... I'm fine again To be among so many strangers and also the fresh spring air and the whole shopping tour in general ... everything's fine for me ... in the evening we all come back fully packed and totally happy ..."Sam !! Quick !! Come with me !!" Kurt grabs my arm tightly and we're gone ... he teleports us right in front of the hospital ward and my heart almost explodes with tension ...

"Um ... he didn't wake up, but ... come with me ..."

We're going in ... Xavier is there too ...

"Sam ... he gave a sign ... now it really can't be long before he wakes up ..." I am totally happy and from that point on comes this phase again, in which I so often and be with him as long as possible ...

Again three weeks go by ... and again nothing changes ... again I start to let go of something and do more with the others and again I look confidently to the future ...

Time goes by ... it goes by quickly ... now it can only be a matter of days before I become a mother ... I'm somewhere in the ninth month and carry a really fat ball with me ... and everyone I always admire that I really only have grown my stomach and that I have hardly put on any other legs and buttocks ... it's midsummer and very exhausting with my big belly ... Logan still gives no sign of himself ... so slowly my laboriously increased mood sinks again, because it doesn't look like he will be there for the birth ... that takes me a lot ... after all, I don't even know whether he even noticed that he becomes a father ...
Today is the fourteenth of August ... it's thirty-four degrees and I'm totally exhausted on a lounger in the Mutant's garden ... Cathy and Kira are also with me and enjoy a nice cocktail ... we happily watch the smaller ones Children romping around in the garden ... or romping around in the large pool ...

"So slowly this belly is really getting on my nerves ... can't it at least be autumn or winter? That's terrible ..."

"Looks so good on you ... really ..." Cathy looks at me over the top of her sunglasses ...

Suddenly I notice a brief pain in the abdominal area and shortly afterwards again ...

"Um ... Kira ?? Cathy ?? I think ... it starts ..." the two jump up and run around like the frightened chickens ...

"Quick ... SCOTT !!!" Now Scott comes running and grins broadly ...

"It's about time ... come on ... downstairs ..."

They bring me down and the pain slowly gets stronger ... Then I lie down on a bed and lie there ... great ... meanwhile, real pressure contractions start ... Jean - very calm - says exactly what I'm doing must ... and then we go ... shit !!Crap!! If I had known ... I know that Jean is saying something, but I don't hear her ... I just want this thing out of there and I want above all that the pain should stop ...

Then suddenly someone takes my hand and gently strokes my forehead ... I don't know who it is, but I don't care either ... I guess it's Scott ... as a surrogate father, so to speak. ...

But this person next to me has a calming effect on me ... and after a little more than an hour I finally made it ...

"Hey !! Congratulations, little one !! It's a girl ... ne little Samy !!" I carefully sit up a little in bed and Jean gives me this monster that tormented me so ... I realize how Tears of joy run down my cheeks ...

"My sweetie !! Such a little worm hurts me so much ..." I look at Jean and for some reason a wide insolent grin plays around her lips ...
"May I hold her too?" the voice next to me almost makes me fall out of bed ... very slowly, so that I don't miss anything, I turn to the side and sit there ... none other than the child's father personally ... I give him his daughter and he looks proud, like anything else ... then he kisses me tenderly and everyone claps like crazy ...

Of course everyone wants to hold her now ...

"Um ... what about a name ??" asks Scott, looking at his little niece ...

"Well ... I was already wondering ..." I say ...

"Me too !! Had nothing to do ..." Logan grins broadly ... "And I kind of got stuck with a name ..."

"Me too ..."

And then we say from one mouth and to the astonishment of all those present and also to our surprise: "Loona"

Everyone starts laughing and Scott gives me my little angel back ...

"Well, you seem to be more than in agreement ... well ... welcome to the circle of mutants, Loona !!" everyone laughs again ...
"I think we should give the new parents a little time for themselves ..." Xavier's request is obediently obeyed by everyone and then finally peace is in the box ... Loona has her own little bed next to mine in which she now sleeps calmly ...

"I'm so happy ..." I look deep into Logan's incredibly green eyes ...

"Me too ... and promise myself one thing ... never again a word of what was! Now all that counts is what is and what will be, okay ??"

"OK!!" At this moment I really hope that everything will still be normal ... just not in the next few weeks ... or at least it will be as normal as it can be with a baby !!

We have survived a week relatively well ... well ... until now I'm still the one who has to go out at night ..... but that doesn't bother me either ... but now I have a new goal in mind Eyes ...

"Please !! You can't lock me up forever ... I have to do something again !!The little one sleeps all the time anyway ... should I twiddle my thumbs or what ?? "

"And what does Logan say ??"

"He says I should do what I can't stop ... as long as it's not too much and I'm happy ..." I whine with Xavier like such a little girl ... "please ... You have to me let me back into my class ... "

"Very well ... okay ... but if I notice that this is going to be too much for you, then you're rid of the job, understand?" he looks at me sternly but smiles again in the next moment ...

"Then tomorrow at the usual time ... I'll give you your plan !!" Xavier looks Loona again ... then he says thoughtfully: "She clearly has Logan's eyes, but your mouth and nose ..." he gives me a fatherly smile ... then I leave his office again, because my little angel is slowly answering ... after all, it is noon and she needs her well-deserved breast milk ... I sit down in a quiet room and begin to breastfeed her .... she already has a great appetite ... and she is barely two weeks old ...
"Man ... she's really hungry ..." Scott walks in and closes the door behind him ... "And ?? All right ??" he takes a chair and sits down next to me ...

"Sure !! It couldn't go any better ... that is ... well ... so good ... hmm ..."

"Why ?? is Logan still mad ??"

"Logan ?? Oh ... I didn't mean that at all ... it is a bit exhausting when this monster here always screams at night because she needs her meal ... but otherwise everything is okay !! And with you ?? Mit." Cathy and Jean everything alright ?? "

"Yeah ... I would say ... Jean and I get along really well again ... and ... well ... everything is fine ..." but he looks at his feet when he says this and his words are not very convincing ...

"Hey !! Nothing's going well with you ... I can tell, brother !! Don't try to fool me !! So tell me what's going on !!" Loona fell asleep while eating again and is now hanging on mine in a strange way Arm ... I put my top back on and take her right in my