towards me and my heart was pounding like crazy. Somehow I had a strange feeling when Tsubasa hugged me from behind and hugged me. I felt his tears on my neck, his tremors and his fear, I've never seen him like this before. "Everything will be fine Tsubasa," I said at last and gave a somewhat insolent grin, "we will get through it together, that's what I'm here for."Now I turned and looked into his face. We both closed our eyes, only felt the breath of the other and finally our lips sealed in a long, passionate French kiss. He touched my cheek and with his warm hand pressed my head even closer to his. Slowly but surely we moved towards the sofa and lay down on it; but we were still fused together. He was lying on his back and I was kneeling over him, already taking off his sweater when we were in this one Have been disturbed by someone on the eye: "Hello, dear ones! I'm back from shopping! ", yelled Yuakri through the apartment, which was putting her shopping bags in the kitchen. Tsubasa and I hurriedly jumped apart and tried to put our clothes back into Vorderman." Fane, are you already there? Didn't you want to go to school today? "I scratched my head, embarrassed, and gave her an uncertain smile."Well, I just thought I might skip today ..." "Oh, of course, I understand, and while you're already there, can you help me? I have to prepare the food, as long as you can yes, unpack the things. "" Of course, no problem! "I looked over at Tsubasa, who showed a sad and frightened expression on his face again. I went into the kitchen and began to organize the groceries in the refrigerator and other cupboards.

In the evening we all sat happily at the table and played a few rounds of cards. "Haha, Yukari have to draw four cards!" Laughed Ryo across the room. Tsubasa and I started laughing out loud as well, with Yukari showing a somewhat annoyed face. "Well, sanae, you have to skip a round for that." "No, I don't have to." I put my last card on the stack and won this round. Now it was Tsubasa's turn, who also held onto just one sheet of paper."My dear and loyal friends, unfortunately you would have to play alone without the fan and me!" We grinned gleefully at the others. "It's okay," said Ryo, fanning with his hand, "want to eat something. Can you do something for me, Sanae?" I nodded and went into the kitchen, where I took a few slices of bread out of the bag and went with me Butter smeared. Tsubasa was so kind to help me. I watched him as he cut the cheese into small slices. His hands, his muscular arms, he must have trained hard to get these. "Are you okay with you, Fane?" He asked worriedly, and I woke up from my trance a little scared. "Yes, of course ..... tell me ...?" "Hm?" "When do you actually have to fly back to Brazil?" Suddenly he dropped the knife on the floor and I immediately knelt down around it to cancel, where Tsubasa came up with the same idea.We both touched the cutlery, our hands touched and our eyes were fixed on the opposite. Instead of answering me, he kissed me on the lips and hugged me. What has happened to him lately? I already understand the thing with Roberto; but there was something else ... His head was on my shoulder and I ran my fingers through his hair. They were so incredibly soft and smelled like fresh lemons. I closed my eyes and enjoyed this scent, enjoying the closeness of the person I loved most. He touched my thigh and with his hand he brushed my skirt upwards. He covered my neck with little kisses and moved me closer to him, which brought me a little pain. Somehow I was very uncomfortable; but I didn't do anything, I just let him do it until, luckily, he noticed by himself that I didn't like it.He pressed my strin to his and our eyes met again. Those beautiful dark eyes that have always enchanted me, that penetrating look from him, whether he always knew what I thought and wanted. Everything about him was wonderful. "Please come to Brazil with me." What? What was he saying? I pushed him away from me; but he was still holding my hand, which was shaking like crazy. "I can't live without you anymore. I need you Sanae, I need you ..." he whispered in my ear. I didn't know what to answer, it all suddenly came so suddenly ... "Hey you two lovebirds! Where is the food?", Said Ryo, who was standing right in front of me (or behind Tsubasa) and us stupid grinned at, "well, I don't think it's fitting that you guys in front of Yukari and me ... well, you know ... hold that one ..." I got up and gave him a kick in the buttocks."Man Ishizaki, you and your dirty fantasies!" "What? Was I wrong about that, or how?" I went back to the living room, offended, and followed Ryo, "You don't mean it! Are you really angry with me now ? "He looked at me puzzled and I couldn't help but laugh. “Man, that was just a joke!” I poked him on the side and winked at him.

Tsubasa and I lay cuddled together in bed and looked at the blanket. We enjoyed being together without wanting to speak to each other; but I remembered the idea from earlier. "Did you mean that seriously about Brazil?" I finally asked and looked into his face. He touched my cheek with his finger and gave me a smile. “Of course my sweetie.” “I hope that was just a joke.” “Why?” I sat up straight and leaned against the wall."I'm just doing my Abitur, so I can't just drop out and then there's my father, whom I can't leave alone, and of course my friends here." Now Tsubasa sat down next to me and continued to look at the ceiling. "Well, then we'll do it like that. You won't need Abi, with the salary I earn, I can feed us both well together and because of your father and friends, we'll just take them with us." , as you think Tsubasa. They certainly don't want to leave Nankatsu and ... "" What about you? Do you want to come with me at all? "I said nothing, but looked to the side, embarrassed. "So no ..." He threw the covers aside and got out of bed, moving into the dining room to drink a glass of mineral water. "So is our love so unimportant to you?" He asked now and looked in his glass. "No, of course not, it is really very, very important to me!"" But I don't see it. "Tsubasa left the room and disappeared into the toilet, where he changed and then left the apartment. What should I do now? ...

I got up and quickly pulled on a jacket, ran out into the cold rain that pelted over the city of Nankatsu. I moved around with slow steps and ran faster and faster, calling his name. Tsubasa! , I kept calling and got no answer. Where on earth was he? Exhausted, I leaned against a concrete wall and had no more strength to look for him. Completely exhausted, I let myself fall on the floor and began to cry, afraid of not seeing the most important person in my life again, of losing him. (In this part I heard a deadly sad, unknown love song) Please come back to me, I said, and saf like suddenly Tsubasa came up to me. His hair was as if attached to his skin, he looked so different from usual; but still good.He took me in his arms and carried me, not home as I thought, but to a bench. It was completely dark, only a few lanterns light up some parts of the city, dead quiet, you could only hear the rain. He sat down and I stayed on his knees. "I'm sorry I can't bring my princess home; but I'm pretty tired too," he told me with an embarrassed smile. I touched his lips with my finger and gave him a kiss. It developed into a passionate and hot French kiss. Nobody could tear us apart right now ...

"Look, it stopped," said Tsubasa. I looked up into the suddenly clear starry sky, the city became even brighter through the moon and there is a completely different atmosphere, much more pleasant and romantic. "About the conversation earlier ..." I looked at him in surprise and ran my fingers gently over his neck."You are right. I took it all too easy. That's why I think I'll stay here with you in Nankatsu!" He smiled sneeringly at me, and I walked down from him and stood in front of him, rather angry. I bit my lower lip and felt pretty guilty. If he was really serious about Nankatsu, then it's my fault that he can't make his greatest dream come true. “No, tsubasa, I don't want you to stay here because of me!” “But why ?!” I didn't answer, but turned around to him in silence. "Do you even know how glad I am again that you are with me? I waited so long for you, was afraid to see you again, now you are with me, and I am really the happiest person in the world, but .. . "Before I could finish my sentence, Tsubasa came up to me and took me with his strong arms. I snuggled up against his body and small drops formed in my eyes."But since you've been here, there have only been problems here! I don't know what I want, nothing at all! Everything is mixed up in my head." Why did I say that all of a sudden? Anger arose in me, as well as fear, sadness and listlessness. What was the matter with me? I pushed him away from me, took a step back, looked at him, shook my head slightly, and ran home as fast as I could. No, I didn't want to see him anymore, none of that made any sense! Our love for one another, even if it is otherwise so strong, could not endure any of this. My life is here in Nankatsu and his in Brazil, life has changed and so have we ...

I opened the apartment door with the key and entered my home. I didn't know what time it was, which I didn't really care about either. I threw the key in the corner somewhere and then dropped onto the bed.The next day was just terrible. I couldn't sleep all night, I rolled back and forth, tried to forget about Tsubasa for a moment; but i couldn't. I leaned against the wall with my knees bent, put my arms around them, and tried to hold back the tears. How I hated my life and this fucking fate in this moment. Suddenly the phone rang. I really didn't have a nerve to talk to anyone and let it ring for ages until the answering machine switched itself on: "Hello Sanae, it's Tsubasa." Pause. "I decided to fly back to